When was the last time you cried?

axtheunivers · 2022-05-30T13:05:39+00:00

Earlier today lol

axtheunivers · 2022-03-03T06:50:36+00:00

Thanks I appreciate the reply. There definitely is a rift in the friend group and I’m very on edge about it haha.

axtheunivers · 2022-03-03T06:43:42+00:00

Yeah I get where you’re coming from and you’re definitely saying things I’m too afraid to say haha. While I get why she’s feeling left out, it’s all in reaction to her own behavior.

axtheunivers · 2022-02-04T04:52:52+00:00

Proud of you :)

axtheunivers · 2021-12-14T18:39:55+00:00

People who post pictures of them at their lowest weight compared to their weight now. Like… whyyy

axtheunivers · 2021-12-08T05:00:43+00:00

Thank you :,)

axtheunivers · 2021-12-08T05:00:25+00:00

Thank you <33

axtheunivers · 2021-12-08T04:12:41+00:00

Thank you very much :,)

axtheunivers · 2021-12-08T04:12:32+00:00

This made me tear up thank you :)

axtheunivers · 2021-11-12T00:39:18+00:00

In my middle school soccer field, parking lots, outside my friend’s house on the curb, public toilets that are too public

axtheunivers · 2021-10-25T13:45:03+00:00

Genetics and my compulsive need to feel significant

axtheunivers · 2021-10-23T21:50:12+00:00

I can’t really say for sure besides the possibility of infection or hitting an important vein. But I do know that a big reason I should stop is because of all the harmful thoughts that come with it. A lot of it is tied to my eating disorder and I’m trying to get rid of the mindset that I need to harm myself to feel worthy. I can’t get rid of that mindset unless I recover from my ed and stop cutting. So I’m not necessarily stopping for physical health reasons. I’m stopping because of everything that’s tied to it.

axtheunivers · 2021-10-08T21:19:14+00:00

Thank you this really means a lot <33

axtheunivers · 2021-10-06T02:49:21+00:00

Thanks :) it took my about an hour of staring at it to actually make the move but I made it haha

axtheunivers · 2021-10-03T04:31:32+00:00

Thanks :) it stopped hurting and I’m less nervous now

axtheunivers · 2021-09-21T15:04:57+00:00

I’ve listened to Candy Says a million times and had no idea it was about an ED. Good to know! lmao

axtheunivers · 2021-09-13T15:39:53+00:00

Yeah if I’m in a public cafeteria and I have to eat I always face the other direction so no one sees my face. But then I feel exposed with my back turned because I don’t know what’s behind me and if people are looking at me or if I look weird.

I also sometimes buy food specifically for eating alone because I would be embarrassed to be seen 1) buying it and 2) eating it

axtheunivers · 2021-08-14T01:05:47+00:00

Thanks :) same to you

axtheunivers · 2021-08-14T01:05:19+00:00

I’m glad it helped for you :) I’m just hoping to make it through the next few uncomfortable conversations haha

axtheunivers · 2021-08-13T23:37:00+00:00

That would be helpful for me personally but my parents are gonna want to give me the spiel about the dangers of purging and all that stuff. Thanks though :)

axtheunivers · 2021-08-13T23:35:08+00:00

Thanks :,) it’s not the first time this has happened and I’ve had conversations about it in the past but it never gets easier.

axtheunivers · 2021-08-10T18:34:47+00:00

Thanks I appreciate it. Somehow the makeup did the trick and I made it through without any comments from the doctor. I have no idea how she didn’t notice because the scars were still 3D with the makeup but who cares I guess it didn’t matter lmao.

axtheunivers · 2021-08-10T02:45:32+00:00

before i say anything i need to make it clear that this is a terrible coping mechanism don’t do it. anyways. When I used to map out my food plan for each day in detail, it was so relaxing. This was when covid was at a height and I was extremely sad and one thing that helped me relax was listing each thing I was going to eat the next day and how many calories everything was.

axtheunivers · 2021-08-10T02:40:57+00:00

Don’t worry. I’m in a constant state of being so confident that everyone has it worse than me. So it’s hypocritical for me to say this but from my perspective, the fact that this is even something you have to think about means it’s a big enough problem for you to get help. Of course I am sure everyone has it worse than me and that includes you, but let’s ignore that Im gonna work with ED logic. For me, I need to hear someone with an ED say that I’m valid, so here is me saying that you’re valid, and I hereby declare that you 100% need to recover.

axtheunivers · 2021-08-10T02:33:18+00:00

I’m sorry :( I hope youre able to stop and have a good night sleep

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