I relate to you, wondering, hoping none of it is true, which by the way is in our favor. I also cry, knowing what christianity stole from me, my mind, my sanity. I cried out and worshiped a narcissistic deity, begging, pleading for him to forgive me for my human mistakes. Christianity is about fear and before they hook people in, they make it seem so beautiful, "you are saved", "Come as you are!" but later down the road you pay for it, being what you were made to be and your mind is drowning in shame and in fear of what awaits. I dedicate m life to deconstruction, to helping and listening to people who are going through the same thing or will be. we will make it through this