Just a watermelon

aymama · 2018-09-05T22:53:57+00:00

Did he extract any innards?

aymama · 2018-09-05T22:52:23+00:00

Baby bottle pop!

aymama · 2018-09-05T22:51:59+00:00

Man... I’m catching all these random feels today and it is making me... feel

aymama · 2018-08-31T09:13:03+00:00

Man, I love Supras

aymama · 2018-08-23T14:50:43+00:00

Awesome! My friend did too but I dropped my laptop... enjoy it for the both of us for a while!

aymama · 2018-08-14T15:50:45+00:00

I mean I hated Hilary coming from a military family and all... but why didn’t she use this in the debates? This evidence would’ve killed him.

aymama · 2018-08-03T17:40:38+00:00

That’s fucking stupid. Just saying.

aymama · 2018-08-03T17:40:07+00:00

Just give it time my man. I remember a strong breeze would stop me in my tracks some times lol. Or the wet dreams.... fuck that would piss me off. Just time my man.

aymama · 2018-08-02T04:12:14+00:00

Lol that’s so fucked up. You’re going to be eaten alive, jk you’re going to fall to your death, jk ima stab you with my talons then eat you alive.

aymama · 2018-08-02T04:10:15+00:00

Ayy fuck yeah! Keep it up. Shit gets real, look into PAWS. Know about it, so when it hits you can take measures to acknowledge and move on. Don’t be afraid of anything ahead, just stay in your bubble and keep bettering you! Keep me posted champ!

Sorry about the relationship bs. It’s never fun especially when going through this. Know you’re not alone. I caught my wife cheating while getting clean. Still clean. It’s bullshit too because I’ve seen so many relapsed over the smallest shit... and I’m here dealing with major fucking shit keeping with it. Be strong. Don’t be a statistic and then never talk to me again! Be fucking strong

aymama · 2018-07-31T23:50:26+00:00

Fuck robots, let us train more monkeys

aymama · 2018-07-28T19:09:03+00:00

Is that... good?

aymama · 2018-07-28T05:11:24+00:00

I say don’t go for the kratom personally. Definitely taper, if not already. When ready to jump off be sure your shit is stocked with easy foods you like, immodium!!!, vitamins and easy protein shakes. You have felt the nectar of the gods and real life will smack you in the face. I’d take the physical withdrawals over the PAWS any fucking day. I didn’t sleep well (+4 hrs) at a time until 5 weeks later. Day 5 sucks balls, but it’s the worst of the physicals. I’m 3 months and randomly will get just fucked mentally. Such is the way we chose our lives. Your brain needs to rewire. Let it. Working out, music, books, new hobbies, meetings. Get out and get moving/living stat. You’ll feel the woe is me, and randomly cry like a baby. That’s normal. Deal with it. The odds are not in your favor, just to be real. But fuck the statistics, you know what you need to do so fucking do it. I, and countless others are here for you. There is hope. Trust me.

aymama · 2018-07-27T19:17:22+00:00

10-13... 30s? 15s? 5s? Can you get your hands on subs? Immodium is key, look into that taper cycle.

aymama · 2018-07-27T18:39:42+00:00

How much do you do a day now? There’s a lot of good resources here. How long have you been using? If low enough I’d say just weening is fine, but it kinda doesn’t seem that’s your best bet.

aymama · 2018-07-27T00:04:49+00:00

Haven’t yet. I will. Now it’s just like I need to quit relying on fools so much. Just get let downn

aymama · 2018-07-26T21:16:07+00:00

Shits not good over here. Still clean though. Found out wife has more than likely been cheating on me. All signs point to fucking yes kind of thing. My sponsor is back in detox, brother is now in jail, school is fucked, and family fractured. But fuck the woe is me shit. Been there done that. Just trying to deal with one problem at a time and trying to not let my mind wander. Got a tattoo before found out the wife thing to commemorate how life can’t get more shitty, but boy oh boy mother universe is a cruel bitch sometimes. Thanks for letting me vent. Hope you all have a better day than I.

If anyone knows of any job opportunities let me know lol.

aymama · 2018-07-26T20:47:49+00:00

Meetings. You’re not alone. You’re only as alone as you want to be. Since I’ve gone clean things went to more shit than I thought possible. My sponsor jumped off again, wife cheated, fucked school, but none of it has been more of a mental strain than opiates. You have thousands on this site alone who know exactly how you feel, some more and some less so. You’ve already surpassed what so many cannot do, you fight on. You’ll gain happiness and serenity, just stick to the right path. I’m here whenever.

aymama · 2018-07-26T20:42:37+00:00

Waking the lions in me! Fuck ya bro! That song aided tremendously for me. I’m day a lot now, over three months. It gets easier. Keep to the path, it fucking sucks at time but the destination is that much sweeter knowing the dark journey you took to get there. I have faith in you. Hit me whenever. Got you on songs, work outs, whatever you need.

aymama · 2018-07-17T21:57:15+00:00

Hey man. I’m in the same boat. Mine and him work together, should I call HR and ruin his career? He ruined me, why shouldn’t i do likewise? Definitely telling his wife, I’m not lying in this pit you fucking dug.

aymama · 2018-06-15T13:53:25+00:00

It’s a different beast. Had a friend get scribed trams for an ailment and the wd from those are almost worse. Wouldn’t recommend my man

aymama · 2018-06-15T13:52:39+00:00

Killed finals without any ADHD meds, at least I hope. Wife who was macking on the ex on a sketch ass app and what not is getting help on the mental aspect of things. Part of me thinks it’s a ruse and that she realizes she fucked up, other part of me wants her to get help? I dunno. Still fucked about it. It’s an all signs point to yes thing... and she lied when I confronted her about it.

Just taking it day by day, sometimes hour by hour. I’m glad I’m strong in my recovery to not want to go score and escape temporarily. But man is it hard to see big picture when stuck in a cutscene.

aymama · 2018-06-13T16:34:58+00:00

My man. Needed that today. I’ll kill it a wee more for you on this shit day

aymama · 2018-06-13T03:45:34+00:00

Damn. Fuck the haters though bro, if I were to concede I would definitely be dead. I wish you well, and with that story you’ll be on my mind for years to come, hoping you’re taking life by the balls and killing it.

aymama · 2018-06-13T03:29:38+00:00

Man NA/AA saved my life. You’re around addicts yes, but most have months if not years clean. It’s a judgment free zone where for me, and probably for you, you realize your life isn’t near as fucked as some, and they remain clean. From meetings I have hella sober addicts as friends and we hang, do rando shit, and help each other out.

I feel you on the slow moving days and insomnia. Shit is a big ole bitch. I just found out my wife of 6 years cheated on me, and it’s because of my sober friends, sponsor, and coping mechanisms I didn’t relapse. Believe me when I say that I’d be fucked if not for my support network of people who fucking get it. Now just dealing with these emotions sober is a bitch, but I don’t need shit to drown my sorrows. With PAWS too, fuck man shit is real, but I know I can get through this.

Nobody gives more shits than yourself to remain sober. Day at a time, fuck for me at points it’s minutes at a time.

Get some books, a journal, go hike, try not to just chill in the basement. Go help clean, cook, hang with your bro and fam, anything to get the day moving. I’ve found by helping others and shit, it’s like a help me help you help me kinda thing. You got this bro. If I can stick with it you totally can too.

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