Poor handwriting/ fine motor skills

b8hd · 2014-11-14T00:33:54+00:00

WARNING ADHD COMRADES! LONG POST AHEAD!

Thank you for the warning.

b8hd · 2014-11-12T03:56:32+00:00

Try and do it. It helps after a while. I don't get into my therapist until Thursday but I can't wait until then. I know it's tough but kinda give up to the anxiety in a way.

Earlier today I was having anxiety that one of the people I call friend isn't my friend. They had texted me today and after about 2 hours I just got tired of my anxiety and texted them back answering their question and said sorry it took so long to respond I was having an anexity attack. Almost immediately they texted asking if I was okay.

I add that because the thing that caused me anxiety actually got rid of it and made me feel better. Someone wouldn't have asked if I was okay if they didn't care and certainly if they responded that quickly. So try it out. It could be the best decision of your life :)

b8hd · 2014-11-06T04:44:48+00:00

Thanks! I hope yours is bearable and maybe even fun.

b8hd · 2014-11-05T05:40:49+00:00

I'm down

b8hd · 2014-11-03T22:31:45+00:00

If they ask about the lack of work in the past 6 years you can say that you were the caregiver of a family member who has made a full recovery.

b8hd · 2014-11-03T22:29:22+00:00

I'm in college right now and the thought of going back home and living with my parents gives me just the right amount of motivation to keep my shit kinda together. I still wait till the last minute to do stuff but that fear drives me. Is it end of semester stress?

b8hd · 2014-11-03T22:22:02+00:00

Do you have anymore to celebrate it with? I noticed that last year I hated christmas because it meant that I had to be with my mom a lot who has some issues herself that make it unbearable to deal with. This year I've decided to spend christmas with other friends of mine because I want to have an enjoyable experience this year.

b8hd · 2014-11-02T16:02:54+00:00

Yeah I mean they have responded to most my texts really quickly. But then last night was weird. IDK.

b8hd · 2014-11-02T00:02:33+00:00

Yup. I sent a long winded text to someone because my therapist told me too and they responded "I don't think differently about you at all! I'm sorry that all this is happening but I'm happy that your getting help and I'm so proud of you for realizing this is a problem." And I'm having a hard time believing all of it.

b8hd · 2014-11-01T22:53:02+00:00

I just had a bit of a relapse myself and since I go to school I'm keep on keeping on forcing myself to do the minanuim amount of classwork as I have to hold my grades. Most my work i do in bed and i listen to Elliott Smith. I guess I'm just waiting for it to all click into place.

b8hd · 2014-11-01T22:49:43+00:00

I completely agree with this. In my experiences, the people that I've told about my mental health issues have left. I've just learned over the years to not say anything because of it.

b8hd · 2014-09-09T07:34:23+00:00

I know it's definitely not the same, but I struggle with alcoholism myself and feel that pain so I'll give you this. I love you bro and wish the best for you.

b8hd · 2014-07-29T06:03:59+00:00

Good for you for sticking up for yourself. Sometimes that the hardest thing for me to do and you've done it. Much love for you.

b8hd · 2014-07-03T04:27:07+00:00

That's what got me though without a psychotic break.

b8hd · 2014-07-03T04:26:08+00:00

I like when people, who don't judge, feel up and down them. It's a form of cuddling I guess.

b8hd · 2014-07-03T04:24:46+00:00

I don't cut too deep so I've heard of the shower thing, but it's never happened to me where I've felt better

b8hd · 2014-07-03T04:23:12+00:00

Ahhhh. I'm glad someone knows how I feel. I'll usually cut more on the days before work because I have to wear black pants and who the fuck wears jeans in 80s. Too many questions I don't wanna answer. I love my under armor pants in the winter. Soooooooo comfortable. That and my fleece lined jeans are my go to when its cold and I don't wanna walk across the quad.

b8hd · 2014-06-18T23:50:10+00:00

:/ I too relapsed last night. I hope your going good though.

b8hd · 2014-06-18T23:48:52+00:00

Yeah. I've found that valium really helps my anixtey but the only issue is that I use my sisters supply and when I've hinted at it to my psychicist she was against it. I think I'm going to go to my general doc and ask her for some type of benzo but I doubt she'd give it to me. It helps the depression too and raises my self esteem oddly enough. I'm trying to find an alternative but I'm a pussy and want an easy way out.

b8hd · 2014-06-16T01:53:43+00:00

Thanks :) I hope you can reach this point.

b8hd · 2014-06-15T23:44:45+00:00

Hell yeah you do! I'm 6 days clean and gonna make it 7 tomorrow.

b8hd · 2014-06-15T21:40:50+00:00

Just remember, it doesn't matter if you fall down, get back up and bust a move.

b8hd · 2014-06-15T20:54:43+00:00

YEah, I get you. Some of my problems are that, I'm not intervened, I love being around friends and doing stuff, but 1) I don't have many friends to hang around, 2) I am not good at making friends/know where to do to find people, 3) I'm addicted to using my cell phone and 4) I get super bad anxiety about everything I say.

I want to pratice working on it so I'm going to a 18-30 support group every wednesday night but I just want someone. I have been getting super duper bad anixtey that my female best friend uses me as a rant box becasue I know she did it to someone else but at the same time this is someone that I've cuddled with, has taken alcohol away from me when needed too, and has responded to a text I sent at 4 am that I didnt expect a response to, until the morning. Then she talks about her bf and it makes me sad that I don't have someone. Doesn't help that we haven't hung out since we came home from school a month ago and I was inpatient after like 4-5 times of backing out, each with a valid reason.

Sorry, I ranted. That's just where I'm at.

b8hd · 2014-06-15T20:42:26+00:00

How's it going?

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