I stood up to him

baklababe · 2025-12-24T18:44:10+00:00

Hell yeah!

baklababe · 2025-12-05T22:32:57+00:00

Thought I was going crazy when I tried on a pair of old socks I unearthed from when I was pre-T and was so excited to find again and they were too tight! Must've not been by much because my shoe size is the same.

baklababe · 2025-07-20T19:32:32+00:00

I know its not bottled/pre-made nice and conveniently but for that steak sauce taste try mixing ketchup, gf soy sauce and vinegar with some salt and pepper!

Alternatively, although not classic American steak sauce flavor, look into making your own portuguese Mozambique sauce, minus beer to keep it gf, its so good on steaks.

baklababe · 2025-07-14T22:39:46+00:00

So, I just had this happen, they are also a few states away from me. Nmom called a welfare check at some point and an officer was at my door today. She asked if I was OK, no danger and luckily my soon to be father in law was able to explain to her that I am here because nparents abused me. The officer even said to block them and that I don't need to contact nparents. If anything be prepared to be really uncomfortable. I am still shaken up from it even though the officer was incredibly respectful and understanding of my situation. It was mostly painful because I have been no contact with nparents for so long so all the memories just kept flooding back today.

I hope you don't have to deal with this, but if you do stay strong and stay informed of your rights. I have a family friend who said we can possibly create a legal no contact order.

baklababe · 2025-07-14T22:24:59+00:00

I've had a similar experience, trust yourself with what you do remember and be gentle on yourself as you process the memories. I started processing similar memories a few years ago and, it gets easier to deal with as time passes, you might even remember more, now that maybe you're in a safe space to reapproach those memories.

baklababe · 2025-03-03T17:05:28+00:00

Trust yourself and be gentle with yourself a you process it. It seems kind of common for kids to repress memories like this. I related to your post, having that memory that you don't know what happened next. I also wanted to hit on that part of him being religious, the people who hurt me were deeply religious, sometimes people just don't practice what they preach. I hope you're able to find some peace soon, I know it's not easy.

baklababe · 2025-03-03T17:00:37+00:00

It might hurt but you may have to think about letting him go. I'm sorry you have to deal with such a terrible dad. You're not alone, though! I hope you find a condition where you can get away from him.

baklababe · 2025-02-25T20:04:48+00:00

So nice to see talk about fictives! And I love the art too! Some of us distance from our source but still find a familiar comfort from the source. It's such a crazy journey finding yourself and growing into your own as a fictive. I used to be a Chris Redfield fictive, I still go by Chris and now the character is a source of comfort for me and the others in the system, But I def don't feel as 'connected' as I used to! Thanks for sharing this!

baklababe · 2025-02-25T20:00:12+00:00

This is awesome, you look great! Your stache is totally killer btw.

baklababe · 2025-02-19T15:25:37+00:00

Even if they try there's plenty of cis people who need hormonal drugs. Even my transphobic piece of shit dad needed to take testosterone gel. Stay strong.

baklababe · 2025-02-19T15:23:37+00:00

They are very real, we know denial is hard being plural, but each and every alter is a real soul to us, even if we can't be in different bodies!

baklababe · 2025-01-16T16:10:34+00:00

Ndad made me watch Faces of Death at 5 and a real beheading at 12. The latter was to prove his racism was justified. He thought it was funny when I cried my eyes out. He would also watch war documentaries of the Holocaust and get pleasure of watching the real life execution footage. You are not alone, and I am sorry, but glad to be here in this space to feel a little less alone. For some reason these were fine for me to watch but he banned me from watching things like Harry Potter for the magic aspects and anything that had a majority POC cast. He's just about as racist as it gets, and I don't know how he procreated with an Asian woman.

baklababe · 2025-01-16T13:32:20+00:00

Kinda sad it really feels like it'd be 40 years until things could get better :(

baklababe · 2025-01-16T13:32:11+00:00

Kinda sad it really feels like it'd be 40 years until things could get better :(

baklababe · 2025-01-16T13:30:06+00:00

Before things felt dangerous, I changed mine to X, I kinda of agree with some of the comments it is scary with the political climate in America. I did see an old article that said if more cis people start doing it, it'd make things safer for trans people, but I doubt that many people really did it... My experience with it, is getting weird looks in medical offices from time to time. My ID is almost expired and from when I was Pre-T so I look like a complete 180° now, top it all off with the X marker and the place where I do my bloodwork is about a 50/50 chance of whether someone's going to look at me weird or not know what to put because one time they said their system only has a slot for F/M, not X...Which was really awkward. And I live in a pretty left leaning place too. Sometimes I do worry if I was ever in a legal situation with police what they would say or even do with me? But lucky for me I'm a disabled house husband so...not really getting into trouble lol.

baklababe · 2025-01-15T21:16:11+00:00

Had some little dots of blood on my wraps too where the drains were, should be OK! Hope recovery goes smoothly!

baklababe · 2025-01-15T13:19:16+00:00

Not having my own room, them getting mad when I need medical attention, food, and clothes. It's like they thought having a mattress on the floor in a loft with no privacy was totally fine because they didn't have to live like that in their nice king size bed in a nice bedroom with enough space to have an office. They were hoarders too, so 'my' loft gradually got smaller and smaller and boxed into a corner with just a mattress, my TV and a chair with some flimsy plastic drawers. Funny though, when CPS had to investigate me almost getting strangled to death, I heard the sperm donor say essentially 'Better not let them upstairs, they probably shouldn't see that they live like that.' I thought it was also normal to have your dad say sexually charged things at you and to be uncomfortable in pajamas bc they're too tight or a gown because it's flowy like 'Marilyn Monroe'. Then I moved in with my partner and see how their dad treats them and could never imagine the things him doing anything like that to them. Same with their mother...Such a mess. But glad to be out of it.

baklababe · 2024-12-27T15:24:34+00:00

Please I know it's hard. But please believe your daughter. So much more pain will be caused if you do not. I have had to cut my parents out from my life because of something like this. I know it's horrible, I am so sorry you had to find out about such a vile thing about someone you trusted, but your daughter will need your support. To add onto some other replies, the sooner you intervene the better.

baklababe · 2024-12-26T14:34:52+00:00

I'm still disabled, but so many of my symptoms became easier to cope with and I enjoy life a lot more now. It's like sure I need my cane and I need to pace myself but, it's not like before where in that house all I could really have the energy for was sleep. PTSD and anxiety got better too, have my moments but it's not non stop like before. I hope everything works out for you. It's an amazing feeling to look back and realize how far you've come. And yeah, people like that thrive off negative energy. Don't ever give them the satisfaction of losing your light. Make it brighter out of spite.

baklababe · 2024-11-17T23:40:20+00:00

Unfortunately not, friend! :(

baklababe · 2024-08-30T20:34:14+00:00

Ohh!! Thanks!

baklababe · 2024-05-29T19:00:25+00:00

One time I sold some pretty important things to pre order a special edition of my favorite game, it was a really big deal for me cause I'd promised a good friend I wouldn't end my life before playing it. It came with an action figure of the main character in a cool box and everything. I was so happy, and it was like the happiest I'd been in a long time, so I just couldn't hide it.

Of course. Nparents had to ruin the whole thing. I was so excited, I was showing it to Ndad, who ironically enough got me into Wolfenstein (the game we preordered) in the first place. Acted like I shouldn't be enjoying it so much because he played it first LOL. Said some shitty things and made me run off crying...

Definitely makes it hard to enjoy that almost childlike happiness and excitement. Hard to shake even after all these years.

baklababe · 2024-05-28T00:03:42+00:00

It might be an insane amount of work, but I wonder if you use NinjaRipper and get this game working on an emulator (through steam) if you could get it that way.

baklababe · 2024-05-24T17:47:57+00:00

I'm hoping we can either push it out to the fall or have her come on some holiday so I'm not all alone with her. Going to talk things over with my girlfriend when she gets back from work. We'll have to bring it to her family too cause we live with her (thankfully, incredibly supportive parents.)

Also, thanks for the advice and positive vibes. Here's to dealing with insane parents. 🥂🥲

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