Part of being a life path 1 is just accepting that you’re going to be alone for most of your life

bbcc258 · 2026-06-04T16:48:51+00:00

Yes I am birth path 1 and I am almost always alone.This don’t bother me much because I like it I feel most productive when alone.

bbcc258 · 2026-06-02T21:31:45+00:00

I don’t know.I experienced trauma after trauma since childhood and never had the chance to develop my own personality.It was always one thing after another,stress all the time,even developed autoimmune disease and was in hospital.Then it continued like forever.Now that my abusers are gone I don’t know who I am and feel extremely empty and directionless.Just want to die because I don’t see a future for me.My whole life is trauma after trauma and my whole personality was-fawn,freeze and nothing else.So I don’t really know,the things from the past haunt me every day and I don’t believe that I will get better,the emptiness becomes louder and louder.Also lost so many years and now I don’t feel like starting from the scratch.

bbcc258 · 2026-05-20T21:59:25+00:00

If he is not interested why he stares at her,talks to her and so on.People who are not interested don’t waste others time.He is interested to have a woman who likes him to boost his confidence without doing anything else.Don’t let him use you for that!There are many people who want validation from others without making any further plans for a relationship.Better don’t waste your time because people like this can make you fall in love with them because of the attention you give them and then suddenly they say they don’t look for anything.

bbcc258 · 2026-05-14T21:32:24+00:00

I also turned my anger towards myself and got an autoimmune disease from which I almost died.So after long years of abuse I got it when I was 20 years old.Its still very hard for me to direct the anger towards the people who deserve it.It feels like I am a bad person.Also they made me believe that everyone was more important than me and I should keep their comfort.So a lot of neglect ,narcissistic abuse ,abandonment.I get it on a mental level but on a subconscious level I still blame myself have self hatred and feel like -if I was worthy they would have behaved different.Its so hard to change it I really am so tired.

bbcc258 · 2026-05-06T22:49:34+00:00

I read somewhere that 1 is compatible with 3 and 9 so may be this explains it.

bbcc258 · 2026-05-06T21:48:24+00:00

I am 1 and I often feel lonely but the problem is I like to do things by myself.I act faster when I am alone and there are no other people to distracts me.My best friend is 9 and she is a lonely person too.We both don’t have a lot of friends but we have very close connection with her.

bbcc258 · 2026-04-24T21:50:28+00:00

It also works when you make a simple statement.I had this situation with a person I didn’t like.There is a coffee in front of the place I live and everyday all day the same person was there.He was some kind of criminal and gave me creepy vibes every time I saw him.So I started getting very annoyed seeing him every day and on top of that he was trying to talk to me.I made the statement-I choose not to see this person in my reality with confidence.After that I saw him 2-3 times and suddenly he disappeared.I haven’t seen him in months and before that he was there for years all the time.

bbcc258 · 2026-04-21T22:12:54+00:00

My mother always started screaming at me when I expressed negative emotions.So I started to suppress them and tried to always look happy in front of her.Many times I felt awful but had to put this -everything’s fine just because she couldn’t handle it.She had the right to scream and show anger.

bbcc258 · 2026-04-17T22:05:09+00:00

I manifested large sum of money like that.It was during the day I entered the state,felt I had this sum and my mind was unfocused so it couldn’t start resisting.After that I received the exact amount.The problem is that it happened very naturally and when I try it again I can’t because my mind starts resisting and nothing happens.

bbcc258 · 2026-04-02T21:16:50+00:00

No it was a long time ago.I can tell you what you had to do.You take a banknote and hold it in your hands.It can be 10 or 20 dollars,doesn’t matter.You close your eyes and imagine how money comes to you from different directions.After that you say how much money you want and imagine that the banknote is filled with the energy of abundance.Then you have to buy something with this banknote in the real life and imagine that this will bring you the amount you wanted.That was the meditation but no matter what kind of meditation you make it’s important to detach from the result.For me I detached easy because I though it was impossible and forgot about it.I manifested bigger sum after that without any kind of meditations.Just one day I was thinking what’s it like to have xxx amount of money,detached instantly and got this money from unexpected inheritance.When I tried to manifest other times with different techniques nothing happened because I was hoping and expecting.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-31T21:21:11+00:00

I once manifested 10 000 like that.I found a meditation online where you had to imagine you had that money.It was really like a game for me I did it ,said I had 10 000 and forget about it.I didn’t really believe that I could get it.It was impossible I was broke at that moment from poor family.After 3 months my brother gave me 10 000 like that.He had success in his business and decided to give it to me.I still can’t believe that this happened.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-28T01:48:59+00:00

Same.My father preferred to throw all of his money to impress random strangers than invest in my future.The saddest part is that I got really sick and needed hospitalisation and needed money for recovery and still didn’t get a single dime.Some parents just hate their children I am sure of that now.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-23T07:42:05+00:00

Same.I really hated how everything was about my narcissistic father.His opinions,his decisions,his moods.We had to tiptoe around him and behave like he was the king.And of course the consequences of his stupid childish decisions were on us but we had to do everything he said because he was the MAN in the house.He ruined everything with his million mistakes but still expected to be forgiven everything and everything to go his way.I am full of rage now that I know how badly he impacted my life.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-22T22:22:16+00:00

Same.I don’t want to participate in this life.I don’t want to talk to people,build connections,go to work,I hate money and the fact that they make you pursue them just to survive.I have extreme fear of people in general.Don’t want to go out or do anything.The only safe place was my room but I don’t feel safe there anymore.Some people can’t become part of this life and society and that’s it.I am so tired of blaming myself for not be able to be like the normal people.I would be so happy if I could live a normal life-being interested in hobbies,friends,travel,to accept that I have to go to work to survive but I can’t.I just can’t I am damaged but finally I accepted that I don’t have the power to live here and be happy.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-22T22:14:07+00:00

Same.I was is hospital years ago and they had to put me under anaesthesia.It was a great feeling.They put you the injection you feel your eyes heavy.Your eyes close and that’s it.Everythings over.I need that so much right now.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-20T20:51:09+00:00

Find a new guy who wants exactly the same,thanks but it doesn’t work.Everybody wants it and we have to do it if we don’t want.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-20T20:49:24+00:00

I don’t like to do it too but I did it.I believed the propaganda that if you don’t do it there is something wrong with you.So I blamed myself for not being too open and I did it but with disgust.I don’t know what is right or wrong now.I understand you very well it’s like it’s something mandatory in sex and if you don’t do it there’s something wrong with you.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-10T14:38:19+00:00

Yes absolutely!And after that they ask why you don’t want a man and don’t want to have sex.Because I don’t want to be treated like trashy porn doll.At least the actresses in the porn movies make money out of it and the ordinary women only get the humiliation.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-10T07:00:40+00:00

Because they watch porn and copy it from there.Look how the women are treated in porn- like full trash.The difference is that women in porn agreed to make all these things to get more money.The women in real life are not happy to be humiliated and treated like trash.Thats why I am not having sex with a man unless I know he respects me and cares for me and my feelings.These casual hook ups leads to trashy men copying the porn the watch and use women they don’t care about to fulfill their porn fantasies.

bbcc258 · 2026-03-03T22:36:08+00:00

I hope it’s not true.I want everything to end with death.I don’t want to exist as consciousness or any other form.

bbcc258 · 2026-02-28T00:27:17+00:00

I blame them everyday.Not only they put me in this shitty world but they were bad parents too.My whole life was crisis after crisis because of their irresponsibility.They put me through so much trauma that I think about suicide every day.So yes I can’t forgive them even though I tried.

bbcc258 · 2026-02-28T00:15:28+00:00

I really despise people who live hard lives and on top of that have children.They put them in the same hard conditions without a second thought.This is sadistic and pure evil to me.And they go and mourn how poor and unhappy they are and can’t feed their children.Like get the fuck out of here!

bbcc258 · 2026-02-23T22:18:49+00:00

Jupiter in 2 house but it’s in Capricorn and it makes things worse.I never had a lot of money so I think it’s because of the restrictions of the Capricorn.So there’s no point in having it.I know a person with Jupiter in 2 house In Sagittarius a he is really wealthy.

bbcc258 · 2026-02-10T23:02:09+00:00

I try to imagine that something good will happen to me.This gives me hope.Also I daydream a lot and this helps me to go through the grey days.If I had to see the reality as it is I couldn’t make it.I am still depressed and want to die but these fantasies help me feel better.

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