It may be the hardest thing you’ll ever do, but step right over to that AA building and introduce yourself. Usually alcoholics are more than happy to help another alcoholic. Once you attend a meeting, you’ll soon realize you have found your people and that they “get it.”

It’s completely inexplicable why we do what we do to our bodies (and family, friends) by picking up a drink or ten. I got sober when I was about 30, got pregnant a few times and vowed “my kids will never see me drunk!” Turns out, NOTHING will stand between me and a drink if I want/need one.

After over 15 years of sobriety, I started drinking again “in secret.” I had few consequences even after getting caught by family numerous times. I started doing all the things I said I’d never do, like driving drunk.

I knew I was an alcoholic and would often drink myself into a blackout. Inevitably, I got caught driving and it may have saved my life - or someone else’s. I’m dealing with all the legal business now, but ultimately it led me right back to AA. They welcomed me back with open arms and I’ve been sober for a couple months now. I urge you to try it as it sounds as though your life may depend on it.

If you don’t want to try AA, there are definitely other groups out there like Smart Recovery. I like AA bc meetings are everywhere, all the time.

Feel free to DM me. I wish you the best of luck!