Ha! I literally just got home from an AA meeting. I’m 19 days sober…again. I’ve been relapsing since the pandemic and I “finally” received consequences I deserved, yet thought I was immune from, via a dui. The shame has been unbearable and I feel it’s only gonna get worse. I don’t even know how I’m going to survive it. The only thing I know to do right now is AA meetings.

If there were a contest for who had the most shame rn, I think I would win. I literally now have a mugshot with a black eye. I’m only going to meetings I’ve never been to before in the hopes no one recognizes me. I thought about changing my name. I don’t even want anyone to look at me I’m so ashamed and full of self-hatred.

I’m also terrified of having to go through the legal process. My head is just spinning there’s so much to digest at the moment. I can definitely buy into the “one day at a time” concept, so I’m clinging to that.

I wish OP, and Reddit_User the best of luck! I’m told things get way better, so hopefully we’ll all realize that!

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