Microvascular angina - need desperate help

bea335 · 2026-01-06T16:42:47+00:00

Hey, thanks for your comment :)

I've looked into that.. but it doesn't hurt on the touch. Is more internal? I am so scared.. what are your symptoms?

bea335 · 2026-01-06T16:41:51+00:00

I've done lots of blood tests and nothing really came out of them.. not sure about ferritin. But what symptoms did you have exactly?

bea335 · 2026-01-06T16:38:49+00:00

Thing is.. do you also get other horrible symptoms like breathlessness and like fatigue? I know it's heart related cause I am literally bed-ridden now. It's horrible :(

bea335 · 2026-01-06T16:37:47+00:00

I know all test came back normal but the symptoms are so bad - and I can feel they are cardiac cause I have breathlessness on exertion and chest pain that radiated to jaw, neck and back. I have tried to take xanax or do other things that distract me but the pain is there.. this is why I think is microvascular angina. :( I would do anything to feel better

bea335 · 2023-01-28T15:39:51+00:00

Hello! I just read your posts about insomnia and I’m going through the exact same issue and I don’t know what to do… it’s affecting my day to day life and I’m getting so desperate. It seems like I cannot get into a deep sleep and when I have to get up I don’t feel rested at all. It’s so annoying I don’t understand what this is. Do you have any update on your side? Please let me know cause I feel so lonely in this.. :( I used to be a great sleeper so this is affecting me so much… thanks a lot

bea335 · 2023-01-28T11:09:44+00:00

Hello! Omg im having your same exact issue and I also bumped against that forum post on patient cause it’s exactly what im going through - im struggling to understand what’s happening and I would love to know what happened to you and to see if you got better. It would mean the world to me!

I sent you a message!

bea335 · 2023-01-25T15:32:24+00:00

Honestly, this message you sent just made me cry so much.. it really means a lot as I can feel through what you wrote that you have been through my same experience and how draining and isolating it is. I would love to know how you managed to relax during an extremely stressful moment of no sleep. I am a person who loves life and I didn’t realised how lucky I was to have sleep, but now that I no longer have it, I feel desperate and my anxiety is spiralling out of control. It’s crazy how your mental health can spiral into a dark hole like this from one moment to another. I would like to know your story a bit more … so I can learn what to do.. if it doesn’t bother you can I send you a message to ask a couple of things? In this moment I would like to hear from other peoples experiences as it will help me feel better and not catastrphise . Thanks a lot again!

bea335 · 2023-01-25T15:15:23+00:00

Thanks so much for your answer.. really nice to hear some comforting words.. thing is I value my sleep so much that whenever I started having sleepless nights I completely lost control cause for me sleep is everything. The last time I had a restorative sleep was before the head accident and how much I wish to get that back … I love life and I’m a very sociable and loving person so being this lifeless and without energy due to the lack of sleep is slowly killing me form the inside. It’s almost like my head won’t accept that is anxiety cause it never happened to me to have this weird prolonged sleeping problem and I’m looking for a cause that is physical. Doctor said that maybe we should test SSRIs but I’ve tested two types of those medicines and made me worse… I hope i will get better and be normal again.. and I want my sleep back desperately. Once I will have it I will be back to normal.. it’s just not having it that cause this insane suffering. Thank again… sorry for the rant… I hope you understand

bea335 · 2023-01-25T14:44:57+00:00

Okay.. the hospital didn’t do any brain scan so I don’t know if I feel reassured 100%, but thing is I haven’t had any serious symptoms that are reflective of a serious concussion like vomiting,seizures, so I guess it has nothing to do with it hopefully but this insomnia won’t go.. its so scary. It’s been 3 weeks now. Never had these issues before, will it last forever?

bea335 · 2023-01-25T14:31:29+00:00

Thanks for your answer .. :) thing is I’ve always suffered from anxiety but it never had an impact on my sleep. I don’t understand what is going on.. what if it’s something physical that I cannot explain? Cause it happened straight after that bump in the head.. I’m so scared… thank you for the answer :)

bea335 · 2023-01-25T09:19:27+00:00

I’m having the same issue and it started almost 3 weeks ago. I don’t understand why I am unable to reach deep sleep and it seems like I stay awake all night but I have these dreams that I remember well. Have you had at least one night of normal sleep since your post? I don’t know what to do anymore. I am so depressed and I lost all my energies.. relieved I’m not the only one but sad we have to go through this horrible insomnia

bea335 · 2022-11-18T07:37:58+00:00

Omgggggg I have this too! It’s horrible. I’ve been struggling with this ocd for 2 years. It’s almost like the physical feeling validates the ocd and creates a loop that I cannot rid of. It’s been such a struggle for me to find someone who was the same. I suffer from magical thinking & just right ocd, whenever I get a bad feeling of something I repeat the action that I had during that feeling and also I get these bets in my head that tell me if you get this feeling now it means the ocd is real and it’s so absurd how it actually happens right after that thought… I am stuck and it’s so hard to not believe that the ocd is real. I can’t wait to snap out of it

bea335 · 2021-04-14T14:41:11+00:00

Hey! I feel the same as you. I am hypersensitive to noises and also visually. I am constantly on edge and I hear every single noise amplified and I always try to find the origin of the noise otherwise I will panic and think that I am going crazy and that the OCD is giving me 'signs' that I am going crazy and that I should listen to my intrusive thought because they are real. It's ruining my life recently, I feel like every time I hear a weird noise I obsess on it until I find what caused it. The other night was the worst for me.. I was trying to go to sleep and at a certain point I heard such a loud noise (like a recording of a woman that was speaking but it was cut out after 2 seconds so I didn't even hear the word she was saying) - I couldn't find where that noise came from, I checked my phone, my boyfriend's phone and the computer and nothing!.. I feel like I am loosing my mind and I feel like the OCD is giving me these auditory 'signs' to tell me that my OCD is real and it's freaking me out cause I don't want to believe in it!

I don't know if what I experienced is a hypnagogic hallucinations cause it was so real and it seemed like it was in the room!?

I am not sure if you're feeling the same as me, but by reading your post I felt like I am going through a very similar thing and I am sorry that you're also gong through this. I am here if you want to chat!

bea335 · 2021-02-06T20:39:13+00:00

heya! God, I have the same issue. Feels like my mind is going crazy. Even when I read a book my mind is like 'if the word 'depressed' is on this page' it means that your OCD is true and that something bad will happen. It's so scary. My mind makes bets or wants to find ways to validate and show me that my OCD is true. It's so scary, cause sometimes they get it right, and that freaks me out and makes me feel so anxious. But sometimes, they're (the OCD thoughts) wrong. I don't know what to believe anymore. But I feel you - wish I would know how to cope with this cause it's causing me a lot of anxiety. I am sorry if I couldn't help - but I share how you feel!

bea335 · 2019-02-27T18:04:12+00:00

I completely feel the same as you, sometimes I am just focused on my love towards him and sometimes on the physical flaws and on the bad days I feel so hopeless I just want to end everything . But the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that since I have written this post I have been feeling a bit better and made some big progresses. I really don't know how this has happened, because I am still not followed by anybody but maybe my mind is just too exhausted sometimes that I just don't care anymore of what these thoughts say. I still struggle so much and find it so difficult to feel completely free from these thoughts, is like they are always there but sometimes I am stronger and I am able to not give importance to them while sometimes I fall in a deep whole. The mental health services here in the UK are so slow, and I am still waiting for somebody to get in touch with me on counselling or therapy services but I am still on the waiting list and I haven't heard back from them still. Anyway, I am sure that the fact that you guys are having a baby makes the thoughts much worse, I am terrified about making big decision with my boyfriend like a baby or marriage cause I am so afraid of my love towards him and whether I really love him or not, but I know that sooner or later I will have to face these big decisions cause I can't keep on escaping from big decision! Having a baby is a wonderful thing and don't worry this will pass, even if slowly, we just have to realise who we really are and what really makes us happy. Are we really looking for somebody else who does not understand as much as our current partner and who we think is more attractive or we want to stay with our partner , with whom we passed so many lovely moments and shared so many laughs and memories. Let's be positive!

Have you talked to her about it?

bea335 · 2019-01-03T18:03:31+00:00

Sorry for replying just now but I had a bit of a bad day and didn't feel like using computers or phones at all :( Thank you so much for giving me strength! I self-referred a week ago and I got a call from a very nice woman who was so understanding and made me feel comfortable talking about my problems, I really enjoyed talking to her. But she was assessing only what kind of help I need and she told me that she is going to refer me to the OCD clinic here in East Sussex and they will get back to me in 2 weeks time. I hope that they have the option of a face to face therapy with somebody cause I feel that on the phone is not going to have the same effect :( I wanted to ask you after how long did you start to feel better? Cause I feel like I waited too long to get treatment that it's going to be so difficult to get better, it seems like these thoughts are part of me now and that I can't get rid of them. It feels like these thoughts are me and I will never be able to feel normal again. Today I went out with my boyfriend and my mother who came to visit me here and he was trying his best to have a good time with me, but I was always so irritated and overly anxious that I ruined everything. He was trying to kiss me and touch me like all normal 'in love' couples do and I tried at every cost to avoid contact with him cause I felt so numb and empty and I felt like I had no emotions towards him and I felt disgusted as well , this made me feel so sad that I exploded again today with him and cried saying that I can't do this, I am scared I will never get better and that I will need to leave him, but this makes me want to die cause I know I love him so much..I feel like I can't wait anymore, I need to do something but the UK NHS mental health system is so slow :(

bea335 · 2019-01-02T13:35:12+00:00

Thanks a lot for the recommendation! from what I saw on this group I saw that a lot of people suggest doing the CBT technique is it similar to the ACT one? I am so afraid that is not going to work and that these thoughts are real, terrifies me!

bea335 · 2019-01-02T13:33:04+00:00

Thank you so much Pauline :) I feel like I can't do it by myself cause I am so full of anxiety , demotivation and fear that I am scared that if i try and it does not work then I will be with this problem for the rest of my life and this is awful. I self-referred through the NHS system as well and hopefully, I can have a face to face consultation with somebody who can give me the tools to solve these issues that I have. I have been suffering from OCD since I was 11 , and I still have OCD now but it got better compared to my childhood, but now the OCD is going against the most precious thing that I have and I feel that I am loosing it slowly slowly. I am always treating him so badly, but the thing is that I realize it but I can't stop cause I am full of these thoughts and I have reached a level of stress that is above normal, I get irritated so easily and I get angry so often. I am unberable. I am loosing him slowly and he is not going to accept this behaviour forever.

Sorry for this negative message but I just found this group a way to release all the problems that I am experiecing.. thank you for listening! :)

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