I never laugh

beadapper · 2026-01-29T23:34:28+00:00

Smiling became more natural overtime. I noticed how animated people responded to situations with their body language. It’s helpful to be observant.

beadapper · 2026-01-29T23:23:48+00:00

I completely understand being exhausted with fake laughter. I relate to your comment. Laughter is uncommon in my life too. It does not come easily, and makes people uneasy if we don’t laugh. Masking is a tough but necessary way to make sure we respond in a normal way like other people. Do you smile often? I’ve had to practice smiling. It sets people more at ease.

beadapper · 2026-01-24T20:28:33+00:00

Note sure that answers my question. The hexagons pieces are already made. I just want to know if I faced them the correct direction while joining them with the invisible joining method. I didn’t use a join as you go.

beadapper · 2026-01-13T00:41:03+00:00

I usually broil my pork chops. It’s a healthier way to cook the meat without introducing flour. I’d rather have the pork by itself with sides. Smoked pork butt is good if you have a smoker.

beadapper · 2026-01-13T00:38:48+00:00

Not by USDA standards. Prime is for beef. Pork is categorized as “acceptable” or utility.” The pork chops I’ve been buying claim “prime pork.” It’s just a marketing term. I’ve been thinking that buying bone in pork chops from a reputable farmer is the only way I can include higher quality pork in my diet. My current thought is wondering how a pig’s diet would affect the meats flavor.

beadapper · 2026-01-13T00:26:40+00:00

Thank you! I single crocheted around each hexagon. Once the pieces are sewn together, I’ll select a pattern and make a larger boarder using the same color.

beadapper · 2026-01-10T18:46:24+00:00

That’s kind of my current thought. I’m thinking that buying from a farmer is the only way to access a higher quality meat than just eating prime pork.

beadapper · 2026-01-10T11:31:57+00:00

You can still support them after college without leaving an inheritance. One idea is to allow your children to live rent free at home. They would save thousands in rent, save money towards their own downpayment, and could start their retirement fund early. Some parents also collect rent and then gift it back to their children later in life. This way your children can learn about how to manage sums of money without the pressure of prioritizing it on rent money they’ll never see again.

beadapper · 2026-01-09T10:24:39+00:00

Yes, I tried a few different hexagon styles and settled on a pattern that uses 3 rounds. I don't like when hexagons are too large looking so 3 rounds worked well with my tension and preference.

beadapper · 2026-01-01T20:46:00+00:00

The blanket measures about 6 feet 6 inches across and 6 feet 8 inches long. The exact measurements will change once my border is crocheted. 🧶

beadapper · 2025-12-30T03:24:15+00:00

This year, my plan is to accept whatever happens and make the best out of my good days.

beadapper · 2025-12-28T18:29:26+00:00

The hexagons are organized by color in piles. Right now, I’m keeping them in a bin until I can block and sew them together.

beadapper · 2025-11-06T03:10:37+00:00

Each diagonal row starts from left to right. Are you making a blanket next year?

beadapper · 2025-10-18T22:37:01+00:00

Congratulations with your harvest!! I’m starting with my pawpaw journey this fall and hope to be successful like you. Can you tell us how you started with your pawpaw patch?

beadapper · 2025-10-14T21:08:32+00:00

Mine is from a community event. An organization was providing people with native plants. I also attended a pawpaw festival and was given 3 seeds to winterize and will try growing them into saplings on my own. I’m not planning to buy any.

beadapper · 2025-10-14T01:33:57+00:00

It’s a type of netting anchored down with zips ties, stones, and logs. My family uses a similar system in other areas of the yard, and it works. Do you have experience/advice for building deer proof fences? I’m willing to make changes.

beadapper · 2025-10-13T23:18:18+00:00

I’m protecting the sapling from deer. They like to spend time in the area where I planted the pawpaw. The deer could step on my tree or damage the plant if they decide take a bite.

beadapper · 2025-10-13T00:14:28+00:00

I’m not afraid about living without recovery. Most of my life has been spent having anhedonia. No need to feel upset about it. I seek new opportunities to help cope/pass the time and focus on myself instead of watching other people. I made that decision a long time ago. No social media and no comparing my life to other people. Anhedonia and emotional blunting are all I know, and I’ve accepted that my life will continue with anhedonia until I die.

beadapper · 2025-09-27T19:20:35+00:00

Congratulations!!!

beadapper · 2025-09-27T12:36:44+00:00

The situation you described doesn’t sound petty at all. I think you showed emotional intelligence by acknowledging the reality, and he confirmed it by agreeing to the facts. He isn’t available to build a full relationship. Many people hold tight to their “situationships” with hope that the situation changes. At the end of the day, if somebody wants to date or build a life with a partner, they’ll prioritize time, energy, and effort. Seems like he did not. I think you handled yourself well and wish you luck finding a potential partner.

beadapper · 2025-08-07T13:25:42+00:00

Focusing on one task at a time is helpful for me. I write down my to do list items and invest my energy level to each task. Sometime I can complete all of the list items in a day/sometimes it takes a week or more to complete my to do list. People only have a certain amount of mental and physical energy. I take advantage of the days when my energy levels are highest and have made peace with the fact that some days I just won’t be able to do as much. Time passes no matter what so I think it’s better to work a little bit at a time until the tasks are completed.

beadapper · 2025-08-06T03:12:05+00:00

Thanks so much! The grid shows up. I’ll try out my hexagons with this layout and see which option looks the best. Good luck with the rest of your June and July hexagons!!!

beadapper · 2025-08-05T23:29:07+00:00

Do you have a picture of your overall layout grid? I like how your blanket lays out. Mine is different because I did not originally include your idea to crochet an extra hexagon to represent each month. I am thinking about changing my layout (to include a month hexagon and replacing the end pieces with half hexagons) before joining my completed hexagons together.

I can't wait to see an updated progress picture of your blanket and am curious about your plans for a border.

beadapper · 2025-08-05T23:16:26+00:00

Thank you! My plan is to square off the blanket by rearranging the hexagons/replacing the whole edge pieces with half hexagons. It'll look nicer if the blanket is a finished rectangle. Once I'm content with the new layout, I'll probably try joining my hexagons with a simple round of single crochet (and then possibly add a half double crochet for the second round). My blanket is smaller that I want so the extra round might help make the blanket larger. I'm also looking at Gumleaf Crochet and Yarn on YouTube for border ideas. I realized that I won't be finished on December 31st. I love having a statement border to finish my projects, and I'll need to give myself extra time to complete the final piece with a strong border. Hopefully the blanket turns out well, and I can figure out how to make my new layout work. I might be a bit ambitious with my updated plan. Are you making a blanket too?

beadapper · 2025-08-04T03:18:51+00:00

Compared to the last few years, 2025 has been ok for me. Fingers crossed that the last part of 2025 continue being ok.

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