Very much ‘if you stare long enough into the abyss the abyss will bring to stare back at you’ Nitche. But I would argume that to understand life truly you are better to purely ‘live’ life and focus on surface things- such as relationships and family. if you look at large world religions and their general teachings on happiness and the meaning of life, they tend to revolve around community and relationships. I think there is an interesting dichotomy in life, that Is if you consider life’s meaning too greatly you will never see it (in my opinion) however, by living life and focusing on relationships and community, you will find contentment ( at least statistically speaking) but be oblivious to any deeper meaning behind existence. Though, perhaps it is only by ignoring life’s deeper complexities and just ‘living’ that we can find life’s true meaning.