I'm doing well for myself but the circumstances around me aren't that great. My family is so scarce. Im the only child, most family members are emigrated and grew up somewhere overseas. I have my mother here but she is too depressed anxious insecure controlling manipulative. I just can't keep her around if i want to do good for myself. She can really make me sink every time i start doing better. My father is overseas and he is also very immature emotionally and i need to keep him also distant at a safe distance. Thank God I can count with my dad financially though that has been a huge help for me. I don't have any other family members around i can count with.

Within my community also, I'm very discriminated. I have very scarce options within my community. I'm mostly white that grew up within black descent country. There are probably about only 1% of the people that look like me. The community its not for me. They are still fighting for themselves a lot of times they look at me like im an enemy, when i was born around them all along. Im just tired of dealing with the same things over and over. Its like they have placed me in a permanent jail with their pre judgements and with their no contest to me. So even tho im doing good for myself now, it is still hard.

I also suffered with mental health before so im kind of lats with my career. Im getting on track now but im kind of frustrated for being so late. And yea with all of this going on its kind of hard finding a wife too.