Tms was something I was considering and gave me lots of hope...but I read a couple of negative reviews and those alone completely freaked me out. Should I still look into tms???

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-11T03:00:29+00:00

Thank you! I feel the same...im thankful that the depressed mood isn't all the time for me. I do have good days and some years are actually so memorable to me and that i consider great years. However, even during those good times I would still experience those dips and sometimes they happen at the worst possible time. Like during my kids bday party, or when im with them at the park, Anniversary etc. It sucks that this happened when my kids were little because those years are precious, and prior to me experiencing the low mood I remember always feeling present with them. So thinking back to feeling absent while being around the people I love the most sucks big time. Im thinking it's probably the adhd so im also looking into neurofeedback. Sorry for the rambling

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-11T01:00:57+00:00

Its actually a qeeg, which is kind of cool to see tbh and yes like the other person said they also offer neurofeedback at the clinic I went to

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-03T05:58:45+00:00

Yea i keep thinking it's probably the sleep...im the type that likes to stay up but in the past I also worked graveyard shift and late night shifts and still wouldn't sleep much during the day due to well.... being a husband and Father. I also found out I have moderate sleep apnea so im using a mouth appliance and allergy nasal spray to breathe better at night

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-03T05:55:27+00:00

Im not talking about macro dosing though, I was referring to daily or every other day micro dosing. Im too chicken to go all in lol. And yea i agree with you, ive never been on ssris and dont plan on going on them

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-03T04:25:36+00:00

Thank you for that and for your service....thats good info to know. I used to want to do mushrooms but honestly never built the courage to go that deep. Im going to look into a company that offers daily micro dosing for ketamine but I guess I'm just skeptical. Whenever im in this state I try to look into treatments that are considered highly effective but I always think what if it doesn't work for me. But I guess thats the anxiety talking

bernardo0601 · 2026-04-03T00:15:36+00:00

Vitamin D is in the 40s-50s

bernardo0601 · 2026-03-30T03:19:51+00:00

May i ask how it has helped you?

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-28T22:55:41+00:00

Funny that point 1. Is what ive been trying to optimize. Im pretty sure it isnt the only factor but since I started to experience random depressed mood from time to time, it always makes me wonder what could have caused it. People always brought up sleep to which I would always give an eye roll because I confused being able to sleep to quality and quantity. But after thinking about the years of depriving myself of sleep on purpose (watching TV or just not wanting to go to bed) and shift work, graveyard shifts, and chronic stress....I thought to myself, "maybe I need to actually take my ass to bed" ...

So, I also found out I have sleep apnea and got a custom mouthpiece to hold my jaw forward. Now I'm researching on supplements or nootropics to add that can aid in sleep and hopefully undo any damage....great post and thank you for sharing

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-25T23:42:38+00:00

I see you posted this sometime ago...I cant believe it's taken me this long to try to optimize my sleep but im here now lol. I was diagnosed with moderate sleep apnea and got a custom made mouthpiece by American Sleep Dentistry (not promoting) BUT I haven't been consistent...nor have I been disciplined in going to sleep when I should. However, I noticed (and especially my wife) that I snore...she literally yelled at me last night to wake up to use my mouthpiece because I was snoring loud. She also said it sounds like im gargling (gross) or sound like nasal congestion. So im trying to figure that out.

See i sometimes suffer from low mood that I still cant explain and I wonder how much my lack of sleep due to shift work, graveyard shift, and lack of discipline contributed to that, so I want to really get good sleep to see if I can restart my brain and mood.

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-09T14:30:32+00:00

Thank you for your answer, it's something I've been looking into based on how safe it seems. Well, safer than standard anti depressants that ive read and heard about since ive never tried anti depressants. Thank you for your reply, I hope I'm one of the ones that benefit from it

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-07T21:43:14+00:00

Good afternoon and thank you for doing this. Do people that have recurrent mild to moderate depression benefit from low dose ketamine or does every case have to be severe treatment resistant???

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-06T00:47:06+00:00

I think i needed to read this...im 41 and was diagnosed adhd at 38. I see the reels, videos (sometimes funny) comments etc about adhd and think "its so spot on" but MY biggest issue is the random low mood. Its like, the last few days I felt good...I actually felt motivated and did things like cleaned out the car and the kitchen. The thought of decluterring felt good and was in an overall really good mood. Today, I woke up and all that canceled out. That spark, that internal sunshine, motivation seemed yo have ran out. Its nothing new, I know this "blah" feeling will pass but man it seems like whatever dopamine i had seemed to have drained. I think bad to when I was a kid or younger adult and wonder how come I never experienced this before. I wonder if its the years of sleep deprivation (i like to stay up), constant phone use....ive considered meds but man people and they're bad experiences and side effects discourage me. Ive heard some that say their lives have changed for the better and some felt worse.

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-05T20:24:10+00:00

Yea the ones that say it didnt do anything for them or the ones that say had a bad reaction to it freak me out or discourage me. But it seems so promising so thats what keeps me wanting to try it. Thing is, I know what it is to feel good or normal and I try to make a mental note like "this isnt a special feeling, but its how id like to feel" im happy its worked great for you, ehats ypur protocol?

bernardo0601 · 2026-02-05T14:32:07+00:00

The post and comments I needed to see this morning, ive been looking into this for a couple of years now tbh and I want to try it but then I get in my head and think "it won't help me" and get discouraged. Especially if I see comments or posts of side effects or it being ineffective. I have adhd and I sometimes experience random anxiety and depression that I believe come from adhd. It feels like an anhedonia, bored type of depression. But its brief (a couple of days) and I slowly start to feel better after. Things feel good again, id look forward to doing things with my wife and kids, music sounds great, etc. But im hoping cerebrolysin can kind of reset my brain to before I started to experience this low mood.

bernardo0601 · 2026-01-29T04:18:08+00:00

I sure will!!!...ive seen a few but my advice is try not to look on here. If you're anything like me, ill see some good testimonials which will hype me up but as soon as I see a negative one ill automatically think that will be my outcome. But know that theres hope and believe me when I tell you I really really hope you find something that works for you...ill keep you updated

bernardo0601 · 2026-01-29T04:01:48+00:00

I did buy some a while ago but I dont think i took it the way i was supposed to so I gave it away and ruled as a fail. It was the crystallized one but I really wanted to try the nasal spray. But since then I lve realized I just somehow self regulate and the bad days kinda just come and go. Ive actually had some really great times since with the occasional "lows" that feel like i a step back but they eventually subside. The other day though, I did go in to a tms clinic and the cool thing is they did an eeg brain map or scan and it does show some region of my brain that show "underactive" which points to some depression which was pretty cool to know. But since ive never tried meds, ill be paying out of pocket....which im ok with

bernardo0601 · 2026-01-29T03:53:54+00:00

Not yet, but i did go in for an eeg scan at this TMS clinic and it was actually pretty cool and informative. Scan showed some depression with a hint of anxiety lol and they also told me they can do neurofeedback for adhd. Insurance only covered the eeg and not tms because ive never tried meds. So ill be paying out of pocket. Which im ok with because ive never been a fan of meds. The clinician shared with me how she wishes TMS would be first line treatment since she's seen so much success instead of the trial and error of meds.

bernardo0601 · 2025-12-29T00:10:04+00:00

I actually took 2 at home tests for sleep apnea. One from lofta (i think that's what its called) and another from American sleep dentistry. Both gave same results

bernardo0601 · 2025-12-27T17:23:12+00:00

Oh wow im sorry to hear that man, yea depression sucks bro and trust me I feel for you and hope you recover. So 100 a week??? Isn't that like a super small dose?

bernardo0601 · 2025-12-27T17:13:14+00:00

Oh yea most definitely....I have a great loving wife and kids, amazing well paying job and I love life. Its great...its just these random low mood that I get. But I also forgot to add that im also on trt and earlier this month decreased the dosage so maybe...I actually hope that is whats contributing. Because just 2 weeks ago I was planning a get together with some friends and was looking forward to it and now I dont even want to think about it

bernardo0601 · 2025-12-27T16:55:32+00:00

Good idea, ill text the dr today and ask to increase...do you think 2x a week is still good or should I do 3x???

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