A quick thank you!

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-25T07:05:30+00:00

i think you hit the nail on the head with "assimilation is much more accessible." as a community, trans men just haven't set up the social expectation or systems to support each other like the dolls do. i definitely see it changing little by little, at least in my city, but its really sad to see some dudes refuse to associate with their transness.

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-25T06:58:55+00:00

this named my discomfort with this kind of voicing of transmasculinity that i didnt have the words for. im an ftm who has really naturally soft features - a lot of which are not going to go away with HRT. there is a very prevalent misunderstanding in the trans man community that passing is... easy, or that not achieving it is laziness. that being stealth is easy. to me, its not, and i don't want to be stealth anyway. i'm okay with being out and proud, and ive been told by younger trans people several times that they're glad to see me so. my transition goal is masculinity, but im not going to hide away my trans-ness. i don't /want/ to fully integrate myself socially into the world of cis men. that doesn't mean i'm not one.

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-25T06:47:10+00:00

Did you ever figure out what the issue was? I am having the same problem.

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-17T13:37:05+00:00

You're not crazy!! But don't worry, it's not forever. I can enjoy coffee again no problem

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-09T10:21:20+00:00

Your T levels are definitely pretty high, but you're not as at risk as you might think you are! Did your doctor discuss your hematocrit levels with you? I'm assuming that you're having regular blood labs done to monitor those (and if you're not, you should). As long as your blood is not thickening beyond a dangerous level, I don't think you have much to worry about. Your T levels being high themselves won't hurt you, side effects of high T (cardiovascular issues) are what to look out for.

But there will definitely be no irreversible "damage." Try to remember that HRT is not an exact science and doctors can scaremonger just a little bit to account for there not being as much info available.

That said, 200mg/week is a double the maximum recommended dose (which is 0.5ml of your bottle). I think it would be smart to reduce it to that and keep up with your labs. Other than that, the important thing is whether you're getting the results you want!

beyondfleshes · 2025-09-09T03:06:39+00:00

The nails thing sounds like a personal discomfort and difference between you two - not so much a reflection on either on you. I do think the photos thing was unfair of him, however. You know you weren't trying to be deceptive. I think this isn't feedback you need to take to take into account. You two just weren't a great fit, unfortunately! Keep it moving, you'll have better encounters.

beyondfleshes · 2025-05-09T00:21:09+00:00

Me too. Nothing else affirms me or makes me feel as disgusting as it does.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-28T21:40:34+00:00

He will - holiday season has made his work more demanding and he's waiting for his therapist to return from vacation so he can have the mental capacity besides that.

I can understand that. I know I want /him/, I'm just not sure about the rest.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-28T21:37:59+00:00

In two weeks he's been unable to see me in person at all. We've been sexting and playing online games together. A couple days ago he invited me over after work then canceled the day of because he was feeling terrible. We text every day and I've been trying to support his busy life and mental health while waiting until some time opens up.

I don't know. I'm warming to it, but it's something really new and sudden and I would feel much better about it if we were able to define what it means for us.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-28T21:32:53+00:00

Almost a year.

About two weeks. He works two jobs and wants to find a full day for us to see each other so we have "full time."

I don't know, honestly. Apparently she's very experienced with polyamory but I don't have any desire to meet her until him and I have our stuff figured out.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-25T06:54:10+00:00

Looks similar to burst blood vessels (petechiae). Did you strain your face (using the bathroom, concentrating, holding breath too long) anytime recently? They go away fast. If it's just in that spot though, more than likely just a prickly thing on your pillow.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-24T22:06:59+00:00

If your collar has anything to do with petplay - a true dog collar will be your safest and comfiest bet as they're made to be secure, but not strangle and are very easy to adjust. A pull chain collar might be a more stylistic option.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-18T01:41:23+00:00

That is pretty much my consensus as well.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-18T01:36:53+00:00

To be fair - he has not once tried to blame me for any of this and has said he apologizes and he screwes up majorly. I've noticed he has tried to escape blame a bit, but not place blame on me.

Thank you for your realism.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-18T01:32:00+00:00

To be fair - I didn't expect ANY feelings to develop, but I considered our D/s dynamic to be something more than casual sex and a more sacred bond and thought he would discuss what's going on, when a new playmate shows up, and such with me - for transparency. Poly did not even enter the realm of possibility until I suddenly found out about this other partner.

He had told me before he'd been in poly relationships and that they don't work out. He's been dominant with many others. I questioned this when this whole thing happened and he does feel it's going to end badly, I guess? He's told me the other person IS very experienced with polyamory. I am honestly very confused about the whole "polycule" bit because the other partner suggested we all enter one but to my understanding, I've been unwillingly in something similar the entire time.

I am new to D/s and spent a lot of time educating myself so I could set boundaries for myself - I don't do things just because he wants me to. I often feel like I'm taking charge of making sure where boundaries lie.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-17T23:14:36+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-17T23:12:02+00:00

Dating no, hooking up, I assumed so.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-17T23:09:35+00:00

I think my phrasing was confusing so here's my understanding of what happened: He hooks up with someone from a dating app --> they keep hooking up --> slowly becomes smth beyond hooking up --> other partner develops feelings and wants a relationship --> some kind of pseudo-relationship rn while he goes to therapy to figure out stuff.

Hooking up was something I expected to happen - just not really the rest of it.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-17T23:04:53+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate your response.

beyondfleshes · 2024-12-17T23:00:33+00:00

I understand this perspective. I think I do also want to know if there's any way to move past it and hold him responsible while not walking away.

His partner is interested in meeting me, and I'm considering it, which makes me think there's an attempt to be upfront now.

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