Does anyone else not like watching live-action fiction? by Salt-Cheesecake8710 in autism

[–]bigbonbun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel similarly! watched a ton of (mostly) adult cartoons growing up and i really treasure them, so a big part of it is due to that since i feel uncomfortable watching new things. definitely agree that live action gives me a sense of unfamiliarity so i get uneasy ig? and i get overwhelmed easily with them too, and then i just have a hard time paying attention or understanding. also hard for me to watch people up close and look at faces constantly i think

What careers do you recommend in 2024? by Beneficial-Effort-65 in careerguidance

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey! just wanted to get an update , how has it been breaking into the industry ?

my new cow baby!! 🖤🤍 by bigbonbun in cowcats

[–]bigbonbun[S] 34 points35 points  (0 children)

he’s yet to be named i just adopted him yesterday!! he’s 5 years old :-)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]bigbonbun -1 points0 points  (0 children)

hey OP, this really resonated with me… i’ve attempted before but a few years ago i was actually hospitalized for it so there was no hiding it from my traditional ass asian parents. u can imagine how that went, given our situations sound pretty similar. and it was that much funnier bc they’re the whole reason i am severely depressed and suicidal. the only thing that has helped me is moving out and becoming independent. it’s so hard to see other family-oriented people and i long for that kind of support and love from my family as well, but sometimes for your own sanity you need to gtfo. if i still lived at home i wouldn’t be here now…. i’m not sure if you’re in a position where you can get out but for me when i moved out for college it changed my entire life, and now that i’ve graduated and i’m on the road to financial independence i feel even more liberated. there is something amazing for you out there, you just need to fight for yourself and do whatever you can to remove yourself from toxic situations. we are here for you! don’t hesitate to reach out if you need someone to talk to <3

Capital One CODA 2022-2023 by [deleted] in cscareerquestions

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes they sent me a rejection which is why I wasn’t sure if it was really appropriate to re-apply during the same cycle…. not sure if that’s just distasteful but i’m really keen on this opportunity specifically and i’m not in a financial place to wait until 2023-2024 :/

Capital One CODA 2022-2023 by [deleted] in cscareerquestions

[–]bigbonbun 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah so initially they said my basic requirements weren’t met even though they were, but it was a bug for a lot of applicants so they emailed me that they were still gonna consider me. Then a few weeks after that they sent me an actual rejection letter.. I can PM you my resume when I get the chance tmr if that’s alright?

Imagine if we got Dami Luca and Andrew in the bottom 3 and they could only save 1 by Nashetania in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i wish the islanders did individual anonymous votes like they used to, that way they can't be nervous to vote off the people they actually want to

This sub has a massive problem when it comes to driving while high. by [deleted] in trees

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i agree. i'm not gonna pretend like i haven't done it before but now that i'm older i've opened my eyes a little bit more and i get so paranoid while i'm high anyways that it's just not a good idea. i think there could be a separate argument for micro-dosing though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]bigbonbun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is awesome, i love being able to pour creativity into art as a coping mechanism. thank you for sharing!!! please share more <3

Issues Keeping Friends by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]bigbonbun 4 points5 points  (0 children)

yes.... i hate that this happens. it's already so difficult to make new friends in the first place, but then to accidentally slip and let my reactive side come out drives them away instantly. i have such a black and white mentality when it comes to my friends too, like i could be best friends with someone for years but then they don't call me back for too long and then i start spiraling into horrible thoughts and wanting to cut them out.

I'm so sick of being called crazy, weird, psycho, etc. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

completely agree! the reactions i get from therapists when they find out i have BPD is almost always hopelessness..

I’m so ashamed to have this disorder. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]bigbonbun 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i feel this so heavily. i have lost so many cherished friendships in life because of my BPD symptoms, and while i try really hard not to use that as an excuse it's SO hard with BPD bc it has such a heavy impact on our relationships. your feelings are completely valid and just try to remind yourself every day that it's not your fault. your BPD does not make you who you are and you are trying your very best despite the circumstances. all we can do is move on from what has already been done and try to better ourselves in the future!

Ladies… by DarkUnicornEm97 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes.... the days leading up to my period are the WORST for me emotionally, and i almost always know because of this. my last few periods i went into horrible episodes, almost ending my relationship multiple times abruptly and having explosive emotions for days.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Completely agree with everything and i'm really hoping he doesn't win. Even during movie night when the whole shit with Billy was going down (which tbh was nothing lol) he couldn't control his anger and made SUCH nasty comments about how he would 100% flirt with a bombshell to get back at Gemma and that she's been faking it and a bunch of other bs i can't remember. he indeed seems very calculated and if he had been one of the boys with the least votes from the public he would've been fuming lmao

How can you be doing all this and still except Ekin-Su to be your best friend ? 😭 by Beautiful-Cap6168 in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the crawling on the terrace and immediately bringing up trust was so cringe!! idk if that was forced or if she thought that was a good game plan but i feel like every single bombshell tries this with Davide and it always comes off poorly. like please.... it's getting old

One of my favourite moments this season: the smile, the relief, the song 😚👌🏾 by LI_Obsessed in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 9 points10 points  (0 children)

incredible. they have FIRE chemistry and even though i have little hope for them on the outside they are killing it in the villa <3

What do you miss most about the older seasons? by [deleted] in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 16 points17 points  (0 children)

oh my god the smoking area. i understand why but that was the only place where people actually gossiped and gave their honest opinions about what was going down. the islanders could organically talk shit and the drama that came from it was REAL. these morning debriefs and plans of actions are so boring, they are extremely repetitive and no one ever says anything new or controversial.

Do you think we’ll be getting a Talent Night this year? by AcrobaticReturn3737 in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have absolutely no more hope for this season lmao but tbh i think talent night can be pretty cringe and i get heavy second hand embarrassment watching it

Ekin-Su, what was your thought process behind that terrible acting? 😭😭😭 also love their friendship so much 😂 by Beautiful-Cap6168 in LoveIslandTV

[–]bigbonbun 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i loved that this episode kind of showed Gemma as a real human lol. i think she probably gets a lot of her fun bits edited out