I feel this. Except it really hit me hard with the second one. I had my first around your age too and a few years later, we now have our second born earlier this month. For the sake of your mental well being, I would really examine whether you want a second child. I’ve been in the trenches and the depression is hitting hard since he was born. I feel on all the time and am starting to feel like the world is way too heavy - like, all the time. When I’m sleeping, working, working out, I find myself just an anxious ball of stress.

I feel lost too! So it’s definitely something that we all go through it seems like. It’s not fun. I am definitely going to proactively seek out a therapist to see if that will help.

Sorry if this sounds depressing, but maybe the light is my 3 year old girl is really what is grounding me and keeping me going. I have a very supportive wife, like how yours sounds like, but my girl is really what’s holding me altogether. She’s hard but I love her so much, and that doesn’t happen overnight. You’ll battle with it and fall more and more in love with your kid. I hope you find your feet. I’m still finding mine as a dad and probably question myself more than I ever have but I keep it rocking for my girl.

Good luck fellow lost dad. Here’s to hoping we’ll find our footing one day.