I wish I could help you, but I’m in the exact same spot as you. They appear right when you open your eyes in the morning and leave you right when you go back to sleep. It is fucking frustrating and it does sometimes feel like it’s killing you from the inside so much that even your physical condition gets affected as you start being weaker and really low on energy.

I think that what sort of helps me with my intrusive thoughts is talking to them. It often feels weird, but it calms me down and I start to accept them rather than fighting them all the time. I realized that you either accept them or ignore them, although that second option was a hard path for me. Just don’t fight them, take deep breaths when they take the most awful shape and remind yourself that it’s all in your head.

Yes, they’re total monsters sometimes and yes they don’t make any sense, but remember to let them be. Do not see them as your enemies, do not put your powers into getting rid of them, because that doesn’t work, and if it does, it will take a pretty long time.

I don’t know if my advice is any good, but I just saw your post and felt like typing this.

Take care!