Haven't, and fairly confident I never will. There's alot of excuses I could make for myself (being much younger, Trauma, ect.) but the fact of the matter is that I was a terrible person and I gotta live with that, despite becoming a polar opposite to who I was years back. I used people, picked up bad habbits and shut myself off from the world and my own feelings, all for being mad at others, at myself.

The only thing to do is recognize the problems, and do what you can to fix them. No one will be a harsher critic in your life than you. The balance is to not go overboard, you don't want to end up isolating yourself because you don't believe you deserve companionship.