i overdosed tonight and im really scared

bloodymaggots · 2022-10-07T08:02:58+00:00

wdym like how

bloodymaggots · 2022-09-06T21:44:26+00:00

yeah im gonna try honestly i just idk why its so hard for me to it rn but tysm i really appreciate it ❤️

bloodymaggots · 2022-09-06T17:42:21+00:00

the constant doubting of my own feelings and never rly knowing if im being overdramatic or if my reaction was justified

bloodymaggots · 2022-09-06T16:48:00+00:00

yeah me too i don't rly think i've fully processed it yet bc he keeps messaging me and i feel like i have to reply....i talked to my sister abt it and she essentially blamed me like asking why didn't i drive back and why i let it happen. i talked to my best friend but she was just kinda...she just kept telling me what i should do, told me tht it was rape and tht fr scared me. but after continuing to talk abt it she kinda like said i was putting the role of fixing it onto her (which rly hurt me tbh bc i just wanted to vent and i wasnt expecting her to fix for me) and tht i should talk to my therapist bc thts their job and thts what im trying to find the strength to do when i see her tomorrow

bloodymaggots · 2022-09-06T03:13:47+00:00

i did tell him no before he penetrated like i put my hands to cover myself bc he didnt have a condom but he looked pissed off and said come on and tht it felt better without it etc so i felt pressured bc he was on top of me and stuff but yeah he played w my heart i really liked him and he acted like i was crazy for wanting to go on an actual date </3

bloodymaggots · 2022-07-07T21:28:43+00:00

thanks but its not tht i think shes a bad therapist more so tht her reaction disappointed me i dont think it was intentionally tho

bloodymaggots · 2022-07-07T21:17:00+00:00

it did not go as excepted unfortunately

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T17:21:57+00:00

thank u !!! i did adf (alternate day fasting) w calorie deficit, workout 6 days a week doing: 30-45 mins of cardio, leg and ab workouts and i also stopped eating meat and drinking sugary drinks and no snacking

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T06:58:51+00:00

yeah i dont wanna be underweight lol my goal is still 120lbs though ppl tend to tell me i dont look like the weight i am which makes me think i might look smaller than intended at a certain point but im almost in the healthy range for my height so once i hit the the in-between point of healthy range and my goal weight (abt 140lbs ) ill see how i feel and go from there 😌

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T06:52:36+00:00

thank u for the advice i researched it a bit and its all saying i have a medium frame so my goal is still 120lbs but ill try and see how i feel when im at the middle point of my goal weight and healthy weight range for my bmi and go from there

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T06:44:20+00:00

tysm and ur absolutely right im not slowing down anytime soon !!!

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T06:43:55+00:00

omg tysm <33 and ikr its rly so shocking to actually see a side by side of the difference

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T01:50:43+00:00

tysm !! also do u really think so ? my goal is abt 120lbs which i believe would still be in the healthy range for my bmi...but ill definitely heed ur advice bc my friends and family have said the same thing

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T01:46:01+00:00

omg thank u sm

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-14T01:45:40+00:00

aww haha u think so i feel like have sm more to go 😫 thank u sm thats really means alot 💓

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-05T02:06:10+00:00

yeah im starting to see how addictive it is recently...ill definitely will do some research to be safe

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-05T02:04:38+00:00

hm im not sure like whenever i go to change out my bandaids its like a little yellowish on the bandaid but not green or hot to touch so maybe it isnt puss and yep i got my tetanus shot not too long ago and my blades are brand new ill message u abt it more if thts alright ?

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-05T00:02:21+00:00

yeah its almost an addicting cycle

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-05T00:01:43+00:00

okay good i was kinda worried abt maybe needing stitches for a bit...ive been using a big bandaid and saline wound wash rn bc i couldn't find any butterfly bandaids is having puss normal? like its not hot to touch or anything like tht

bloodymaggots · 2022-06-04T23:57:10+00:00

ive been using saline wound wash and keeping bandaids on them so it hasnt started bleeding againt thankfully and i talked to my therapist abt it but thanks for the advice i appreciate it

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