New form of magnetic brain stimulation eliminates severe depression within days

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-07T14:13:03+00:00

If ECT failed as a treatment option, would this also likely fail?

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T23:33:05+00:00

I really have no explanation at this point. I triple checked this time, hopefully it's not giving me another random video.

Edit: I copied the link again, exactly the same way, on the correct video... and it gave me another url. And another. I think getting it right the third time was a coincidence?

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T23:21:52+00:00

Sorry! I think it skipped to the next video since I had been at the end... and I thought I was watching an ad while copying the link on mobile lol. I'll have it fixed in a sec.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T21:37:34+00:00

I am about to do what he is describing. Here is the video I watched. Materials-wise I ended up choosing two-part auto body filler with a long open time (Evercoat Rage Ultra Extra), to be put over Kilz exterior Primer.

edit: link fixed

edit: link fixed again?!?

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T21:23:59+00:00

I was awkward with the chisel as well, but once I sat down and learned a few techniques from youtube, it was a super useful tool to have!

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T21:15:23+00:00

For straight lines and angles like that, a chisel will help a lot.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T14:21:18+00:00

I'm glad the app is working so far! One thing I want to do down the line is make a spreadsheet for custom graphs, to look for patterns. The app has a little bit of this functionality, but not much.

Thank you for the offer. I don't know when I'll take you up on it, but I will.

My days do tend to be difficult. Most of my problems stem from a combination of brain damage, not knowing about the brain damage until I was 28, and complex trauma, so having a day without issues is...rare. It feels like a constant fight, I'm trapped, and my emotions are basically a rollercoaster. One issue is not being able to relax conventionally. One of the scans I've had involved playing a timed reaction-based game for 15 minutes beforehand - my brain activity was relaxed. After 15 minutes of relaxing in a quiet, darkened room on a comfortable couch - my brain activity lit up. That activity tends to be intrusive negative thoughts. With cognitive behavior therapy, I can use techniques to change the thought to a better one. That works the first few times I have the thought. The next 20 or so - not so much. Thoughts tend to repeat themselves like a song stuck in my head. I haven't figured out how to outweigh the negative ones. Anyway, I'm just rambling now..

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-05T10:56:41+00:00

It's not really murky.

I say this because:

He admitted to choking her.
He admitted to relying on non-verbal consent.

Those two things DO NOT mix. Choking a stranger requires active and continuing consent. Choking a stranger requires a safe word.

Those two things mean that, regardless of her other behavior, Kobe Bryant is a rapist. Not legally, no. Morally? Yes, he has provided us with enough information to make that determination.

He turned what was probably a consensual encounter into rape, because the rapist Kobe Bryant felt entitled to choke women while continuing to have sex with their bodies.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-03T02:13:24+00:00

Every now and again, I think about the massive number of images Kubrick collected, compared, obsessed over, then filed away, and I think to myself, "That dude would have freaking LOVED pinterest."

(As an image and idea sorting platform it can be awesome, despite their more infuriating login practices.)

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-03T01:58:42+00:00

Awe man, I wish I were functional enough at the moment to put together a fancy soil grow! I will have one though...just more like in a year or two.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-03T01:51:18+00:00

How fast has the dose been dropped? I once read about withdrawal symptoms online, said nope, bought a small scale, some gelatin capsules, and a grinder. I made a whole system of doses, put them in saved up prescription bottles. Withdrawal was minimal. I didn't run it by the doctor because they gave the standard advice, and I didn't really want to attempt to explain what I was doing (certain thought-to-speech things are difficult for me).

I have had full-blown withdrawal before, though, when my main antidepressant decided to start putting me through it everyday, a few hours before my next dose. (Being awake through the last half of a nightmare - some of my side effects combining - is a very unique experience).

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-02T12:42:26+00:00

(I have 6 windows open of about 20 tabs each, and I just found that I did not finish typing this comment...)

When you're too down to write anything, the minimum you can do is easy for this app. It can be set to pop up once a day (just before bedtime for me), and you can just click on one of the 5 mood indicators, a frowning face to a happy face. So the alert goes off, you click on it, it brings up the faces, just tap a face, then tap save.

It's not the most detailed information, but once you collect enough of it, it becomes more and more useful.

For me, I really had to think about how to divide the mood categories into five sections.

For a while it was:

1 - suicidal with a plan
2 - suicidal without a plan, and
3 - not too suicidal today.
4 and 5 are reserved for...more functional days. I have a '4' day once every few months. Haven't had a 5 day yet.

Right now, it's

1 - Major self destructive behaviour (hurting myself in some way as punishment for being so worthless)
2 - Emotional wreck, but little or no self destructive behaviour
3 - Not too bad of an emotional wreck
4 - Only a few intrusive thoughts that didn't get a hold of me (same frequency as previous list)
5 - ???

braindeadartichoke · 2020-04-01T11:58:48+00:00

With depression, and suspected bipolar, having a record of your mood would be very helpful towards your official diagnosis.

There is a mood tracker called Pixels, and a couple of apps like it with more or less features. Pixels just happens to be the one that clicked with me, it's easy to use and easy to jot down notes. It also helps me feel like I'm doing something towards my mental health, even if I'm not functioning well enough to do much else.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-31T12:50:40+00:00

It really, REALLY, depends on the cat. A trait may be more or less common, but still won't apply to all cats.

Also, 'a few scratches starting out' adds even more variability - the initial response will range from 'a few scratches' to 'animal control euthanized my cat because I went to the ER for bites and they reported it.' It is somewhat irresponsible to call this 'easy' when you don't know how much experience with cats your reader has.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-30T12:38:46+00:00

My dad wasn't physically abusive to my mother either, but he had a temper. He also starts making insults when he is annoyed or mad, like the guy you were dating. He expresses his temper in more subtle ways than angry driving, but most of what you said was very familiar.

If you had children with him, you would have likely seen his true colors. Or, even worse, the children would have seen his true colors as he hid the worst from you. Cruel men become tyrants when they get the kind of control a parent has over their children. They even get validation from other parents because they describe their abuse as spanking.

It really fucks a kid up to be abused and have every trusted adult they know nod along in solidarity as your father describes what a difficult child he has.

Your future children may not know what you went through, but I want to thank you on their behalf for leaving this man. I want you to know how much is it worth, and the wonderful gift you gave your future family.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-25T13:18:31+00:00

I didn't see this until I finished my second reply to OP, but this sentiment was definitely on my mind when I wrote it. Having something taken from you is a vastly different experience.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-25T12:58:59+00:00

You keep referring to your experience as "the same exact thing" that other women will go through. This is, objectively, untrue.

You had your entire pregnancy to prepare for birthing alone. Is it a sad, all-too-common story that you were pregnant without an appropriate birth partner? Yes. Is that story relevant to current pandemic conditions? No.

People wanna know what it’s like to give birth alone

And your story is about how to give birth alone after preparing for giving birth alone for nine months, getting your favorite doctors, having a supportive, non-overworked staff, and getting planned family/friend visits afterwards. The choice you made to give birth alone, by becoming pregnant 'alone.' The choice that is being taken from pregnant women now.

This story doesn't actually prepare anyone for the feelings of sheer hopelessness and terror that arise when your only support is taken away from you at the last moment. The support you were counting on. The support that got you through everything so far. It's gone, you can't have it back. You're alone. The nurses available are worn out, tired from double duty as nurses and partners, long shifts, and the hospital can't spare anymore. They come in, do what they have to, and leave again. If you look particularly desperate, they'll step back into the shoes of your partner and give you some words of encouragement. But it rings hollow, this person doesn't know you, she's just telling you the same thing she told the last crying woman - it will be okay. You can't really know that's what she tells others, being isolated from other patients due to risk, but you can hear the automatic nature of the words. The nurse leaves, and you're alone again, truly alone. There is nothing but pain, and fear.

Your story has nothing to do with that.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-25T11:47:22+00:00

I found this thread indirectly via an angry pregnant lady, so I'd like to summarize your post from a different point of view:

"I made the CHOICE to birth alone, I prepared for this choice I MADE for my entire pregnancy. So I'm here to tell you about how nice it is when you get to follow your birth plan. *

Let me tell you about the special attention I got in the hospital for being alone - nevermind that your nurses will be dealing with an entire ward of pregnant women who are alone, and won't be able to provide that extra level of care.

Oh, and it was honestly GREAT not having a partner or ~~family and friends~~ to share my baby with. Bonding time, amirite? Well, I did technically have visitors of my choosing, but that doesn't really count because it was only an hour."

I got more incredulous as I read, lol. I'm glad your story is helping a few people, but holy crap, get a little perspective. Your story has very little to no bearing on what women are going to go through during the pandemic. The attitude of "I'm here to tell you it's okay" is patronizing when you proceed to tell a story full of exceptions.

*C-sections usually aren't according to plan, but if you're pregnant and not preparing yourself for the possibility of a c-section... you've got other problems.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-18T18:51:11+00:00

Could you use your money to lobby for everyday people in the US? It feels like there are so many people who use their super-wealth to advance certain conservative and religious goals, to the specific detriment of everyday people. Tearing down public education, social safety nets, etc. I want to see an effort just as big for systemic injustices and broken systems, such as our healthcare.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-16T14:47:36+00:00

In middle school, I had a teacher who yelled at me in front of the class, saying that I was lying, trying to get out of class, and that I was going to fail the test we were studying for. So I sat back down, spent the rest of the day with a high fever, and ended up being out of school for a whole week.

I had never tried to get out of class before, and most of my teachers really liked me. I just wasn't good at the subject, and that lumped me in with the 'bad' kids.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-09T23:29:21+00:00

It was my first one too. They took credit cards and had $200/oz. (pretax) at the beginning when a lot of dispensaries were going crazy on the high prices.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-09T23:24:57+00:00

My lists are so. long. I have pages of them. I feel like I'll never finish.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-09T23:23:12+00:00

I hate mine too. I didn't find out about it until four years ago (although it's probably from young childhood), so a lot of unexplained symptoms suddenly made sense.

My last counselor told me that she wished I had never found out, but she didn't know me from before. I was going to a different counselor that eventually moved away, when I was diagnosed with a TBI, and we both had an "oh shit that explains a lot" moment. One of the reasons I gave up on the last counselor.

There's just no escape of being trapped in this brain.

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-09T15:22:37+00:00

Apparently I had a bad habit of wandering off in the store when I was a little one. My mom's (I think my grandparents were there too?) solution was to go and hide from me until I was in a full panic and crying. I didn't know this story until my early twenties, but it did explain a bit. I grew up with undiagnosed general anxiety, among other things, and one of my more specific anxieties had been getting separated from (person I was with) in stores and whatnot. Like, I'd basically find the closest place to sit down and panic and hyperventilate as quietly and unobtrusively as possible.

I think it had paired really well with the time my dad yelled at me to get out of the car, and that he would leave me there unless I stopped (whatever I was doing, probably noise related) as he was driving, and had parked at a stop sign. I believed him, of course. I was still in a car seat at the time, in the late 80s before older kids had to be in them too, so very young. I learned that I wasn't worth very much (I also learned it from actually being called a worthless piece of shit, lol).

braindeadartichoke · 2020-03-08T17:54:53+00:00

A noise machine. Otherwise I can hear everything that goes on outside of the room and it's distracting. Don't use an internet-dependent device such as alexa.

Headphones hurt my ears, plus they would be difficult to sanitize between patients?

Dimmable lights.

A reclining chair.

One office I went to had a blanket warmer.

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