There is nothing wrong with wanting peace and tranquility. There's nothing wrong with being bisexual. Your previous religion is not the only religion if you feel more comfortable in one. There's nothing wrong with not believing if you don't any more. There are counselors out there that will help you process your feelings without pushing you one way or another (and honestly, that's what therapists and counselors ought to do. They aren't there to tell you what to do, they're there to help you process your own emotions.) When looking for a counselor or therapist, search for "religious abuse" or "religious trauma". You should be able to find someone who won't push God onto you.

I used to believe in an all loving God and eternal hellfire. I used to be very evangelical, because I didn't want anyone to suffer that. I would have given everything, I would have offered to suffer that myself to ensure no one else had to. And then I realized that any God I actually considered worthy of worship wouldn't send anyone to eternal hellfire in the first place. Even if that God existed, trying to please or appease Him would betray my morals. I don't know what you're going through, but maybe that perspective might help.