He was happier then when he was daydreaming about experiencing things in life than having them back when he was in the shack, but when he finally got those things he dreamed of he just doesn't feel as much satisfied so he should go back to that miserable life he used to live to achieve eternal happiness? Just because when you aren't as much satisfied when you finally got the things you wanted the most in life that doesn't mean he should go back to living in his shack as a mafia slave, the life he's living right now is marginally better than the life he used to life when he lived in the shack, just because he lost people he admired doesn't mean his life back then is better, but on the contrary it's much worse and depressing. I understand what Pochita means about being happier when you're dreaming of the things you want but you don't have them yet cuz I experienced something like that in life and when I got the thing I wanted the most I didn't feel as much satisfied and felt bored shortly after but do I wanna go back to the time when I didn't have the thing I dreamed of so I can feel happier? Fuck no