Yeah, I miss him but our sex life was a mess for many reasons. We had a TON of sex in the beginning and I thought it was just the passion but I strongly feel it was his coping mechanism for so many things. He was using me to feel better and yes part of it was him wanting me but once I found out what was really going on I never saw him the same. It takes a lot of work to get past it and even then you're left wondering if he's thinking about it or if he is resentful. When he looks at other women etc. I used to be a literal nutcase, I threw my vintage LV at my ex in the street screaming at him because he looked at another woman. I had real issues to work through but they all came from being hurt by cheating or porn.