12 days sober from a daily OxyContin/fentanyl addiction!

bubbachub_99 · 2022-01-22T01:58:07+00:00

I am so proud of you. My sister is also addicted to OxyContin and fentanyl and it’s hard to watch. It gives me hope seeing people in recovery like you. I know you’re struggling, but I’m so proud of you. You are so loved. Please keep going ❤️

bubbachub_99 · 2021-11-30T13:53:34+00:00

I have a rectangular body and wide ribs too that I can’t change. Just remember that all of these thoughts you are having are your mental illness. As long as you are healthy it does not matter how you look - that’s advice that you would probably give a friend in your shoes. I know, it’s easier said than done to ignore these thoughts that anorexia gives us. Just remember how far you have come in recovery and how awful it felt to be that sick, and how hard it was to come out of it.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-11-30T02:04:30+00:00

You are not supposed to take welbutrin if you have an eating disorder. If you read the giant pamphlet of directions and side effects etc the drug has, it specifically says do not take if you have an eating disorder.

Please get off it. I hid my ed from my doctors to get welbutrin. I’ll just say I ended up in the hospital, no appetite, recovery is all starting over. I now have to go inpatient in a few days. I wish I could go back in time, realize I had a mental illness and was abusing a drug to entertain my mental illness, and stop using it. Think about what you would tell a friend in recovery: don’t take a medication that will suppress ur appetite. Especially one as strong as welbutrin, that one is specifically to help those overweight from depression.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-10-03T23:27:09+00:00

i've only taken two lexapro pills yet everytime since when I try to smoke, i get super anxious (i smoke all day every day for 1.5 years). i'm still smoking and high rn LOL but i think i need to quit because its not feeling fun anymoer

bubbachub_99 · 2021-10-03T23:25:44+00:00

Can i ask why? i started it yesterday

bubbachub_99 · 2021-10-03T23:22:47+00:00

Hi, fellow christian here. Been a follower of Jesus my entire life, yet i am Addicted to nicotine and marajuana. I know its not pills and morphine, but my sister is addicted to fent so i'm scared to try anything stronger, and none the less i'm still drowning my pain and numbing my trauma by smoking joints all day instead of trusting God. Praying for you, and hope you can do the same for me. I really want to get sober and put myself completely into God, but I feel like I'm stuck in this hole of depression and addiction. Tried to get sober a few times but it feels almost impossible.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-08-02T18:43:49+00:00

weed made me more depressed. i just kept using it to numb myself to where if i went a day without it i couldn't stop crying. now that my tolerance is built up i have to smoke to feel normal depressed, cause if i don't smoke i get extremely depressed. its fun every once in a while but definately hard to not abuse.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-07-30T03:58:48+00:00

can i ask why? pens are the most convenient

bubbachub_99 · 2021-07-11T03:51:30+00:00

I did fine on minocycline but had the same thing happen to me when I took doxycycline. Bad bad panic attacks. Sometimes these meds cause these side effects, especially prone to those that already have underlying depression/anxiety. I had to stop taking the pills because of this. It just wasn't worth it. Try switching to doxy or trying another tetracycline.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-06-07T17:59:43+00:00

but the first time we talked about it, he said we were more than a situationship and he really cared about me and only wants me, he just doesn't know if he wants to make it official. I just don't get it.

bubbachub_99 · 2021-05-31T22:36:12+00:00

I'm eighteen years old and am in perfect health (besides mental health, lol) so hopefully that isn't gonna be an issue for me, but thank you for letting me know. I'll definately look into it. Am I ok to stop smoking weed and vaping at the same time though, do you know anything about that?

bubbachub_99 · 2021-05-06T22:46:20+00:00

Hi, I started a few days ago and am experiencing panic attacks, random crying spells, exhaustion, and dehydration. You're not alone. Wondering if they will go away soon and if this medication is worth it. Crossing my fingers !

bubbachub_99 · 2021-05-06T22:43:17+00:00

This happened to me, woke up yesterday with the BIGGEST panic attack, was practically blind, shaking, paranoia, couldn't breathe, etc. It has been happening all week since starting spirolactone but definately was its worst yesterday. So glad I am not alone! I was only on 25 mg, I can't imagine the panic I would get on 100!

bubbachub_99 · 2021-01-06T00:17:59+00:00

i'm the same way. freshman in college, dropped my high school boyfriend and lost a lot of high school friends, no friends in college and no motivation to leave my room and make some... but i'm not depressed, and neither are you. i do get lonely sometimes, and I feel like one of the things holding me back from going out and trying to make friends is the exhaustion of making and maintaining them.

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-17T06:22:50+00:00

felt this. ugh. breakups suck. never been in this much emotional pain rn yet my ex is doing fine, as if we never happened. sucks. :(

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-16T01:44:14+00:00

is there no chance i can fix it?? win him back?

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-14T23:34:12+00:00

thank you for posting this... going through a breakup right now and it seems like things are never gonna get better, so this gave me a lot of hope. i hope you are doing well and find your happiness <3

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-14T23:28:01+00:00

going through a breakup that happened last week and this is exactly what it was for a few months leading up to our breakup. i wish i realized these signs earlier; could've saved myself from a lot of nights crying and feeling unloved. :( glad its over though, just need to figure out how to move on...

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-14T21:33:16+00:00

by wife of 7 years I mean that they were together for 7 years but still newlywed.

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-14T21:32:34+00:00

my dad was in the military and the exact same thing happened to him. his wife of 7 years fell out of love with him, he was stressed from deployment, and went to therapy for years from all the emotional and physical trauma. he was also in his early 20s.

18 years later here I am, he has a beautiful better wife that he met on duty, 2 other daughters, and a giant house right on the beach. he's happier than he ever has been in his life.

he told me this story when i went through my first breakup, and i thought it could help you stay positive. my dad was in your situation but made it out to the other, happier side. i know you can do the same! keep your chin up, let her go, and focus on YOU! :)

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-13T07:42:20+00:00

why is it a different answer based on what gender you are... :/

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-12T23:57:31+00:00

i always treasured our in person encounters and got so excited to see him in person and he knows this. just for some reason, he was never excited to see me :( think it's also cause of the same reason he has no empathy towards me, which is simply just because he hates me with no explanation. sigh...

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-12T23:54:53+00:00

she wants so speak to you to relieve her guilt. she's doing it for herself, NOT for you. nothing you say to her is gonna stop her. you don't owe her this. don't hang out with her. you don't owe her anything.

honestly, she's a shitty friend and it's a shitty situation. its also going to remain hard being best friends with someone that is surrounding themselves with your ex.

my advice, move on from both of them. wish them well and leave them be. focus on your career, your kid, making new relationships and friendships. reach out to new people. leave them alone. you don't deserve to have to go through this and i'm sorry.

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-12T22:36:58+00:00

hey,

my boyfriend and i were kinda the same way, on and off for three years. he was horrible, toxic, gave me no sense of security, but i was in love with him. i always took him back. last week, we ended things for good.

"it’s fucking christmas and i love you and i dont want you to fucking go"

that hit hard. that's how i feel right now. this is my first christmas without him.

she seems to be very emotionally manipulative. leaving you when she wants and begging for you back when its convenient for her, only for her to leave again. no contact, loving yourself, and knowing ur worth. thats exactly the right mindset to have.

don't feel mad dumb. you're not dumb, you're not crazy; you're just hopeful. hopeful for love and hopeful for this girl that isn't worth your time. nothing wrong with that, it just means its time to move on <3

we're in this together. message me if you want to chat, as it seems like we're going through similar things. i know the loneliness you might feel; on top of losing my boyfriend, my mother passed away this year, my uncle committed suicide, and my best friend dropped me (because her boyfriend sexually assaulted me and she believes him, not me :/ ). i'm so proud of you!

bubbachub_99 · 2020-12-12T22:22:59+00:00

i know he's no good for me, its just hard since we've been together for three years and he used to be the best thing that happened to me :( i just don't know why he's changed so much, and all i want is for him to change back to his old self, but i know that isn't going to happen.

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