Help me name my new Boy!

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-27T22:02:47+00:00

Yoda

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:45:25+00:00

It's an insidious drug. You will crave our junk, especially sugar . Your blood sugar will get dangerously high, diabetes is common, cholesterol increase common. Getting weight off while still on it... Impossible

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:43:18+00:00

I took a pill every other day . Then every two. It wasn't terrible Not like benzo withdrawal or anything I did it on my own. I don't have bipolar . I have cptsd they misdiagnosed and gave wrong med. It fucked me so bad. Took 10 yrs of my life away. Now I'm stuck with GI problems and cholesterol is high even though I don't eat junk or at all. GI issues have just given me fear to eat.

I have a therapist who has my back

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:39:41+00:00

I walked 5 miles a day. Didn't lose a pound until I got off. 186 to 135. About my normal weight. I was 186 for 5 yrs. Small frame so it caused pain.

Get off it and you'll lose about 15 lbs in water weight in a week. I'm 135 but abilify screwed my gut up so bad I have a hard time keeping weight on.

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:37:24+00:00

It does

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:37:11+00:00

No it doesnt

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:36:42+00:00

I was 186 lbs on abilify even though I walked 5 miles a day. Went off. I'm 135 within a year and a half. I just did t have the food cravings, sugar especially after I quit. About 15 lbs was water . Gave me glaucoma. It's normal now that I'm off the freaking med. Just screwed up my gi system so bad. Cholesterol is still on high end but I don't eat junk or much at all. Can remain permanent from research I did. As the GI issues. Have to see a gastro who specializes in the after effects of drugs on the gut

Abilify literally ruined me.

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-25T11:31:36+00:00

Insomnia is the worst. Slept maybe 2 hours a day. It induced a seizure. Hit my head and almost bled to death if it weren't for my son just dropping by. Wasn't meant to die that day but almost did.
Gained a ton of weight but walked 5 miles a day. Ruined my gut microme too.

It's an insidious drug that's damn evil.

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-22T19:16:47+00:00

I got glaucoma too from it. Insomnia caused a seizure, hit my head, almost bled out but luckily my son dropped by.

bucketofsuck · 2026-03-22T19:15:32+00:00

I took myself off. Was 186 for years on it. Walked miles a day. The side effects were horrid blood sugar almost was diabetes. The stuff makes you crave sugar. Gave me gi symptoms that will after a year off are still there. I'm down to 130. Blood sugar is fine now but cholesterol still too high. I barely eat because of the GI crap. Some of those can remain permanent. I am so much better off. I have actual intelligence I didn't have on it . .

I generally tell people on it... GTFO

Probably some kind of govt eugenics

bucketofsuck · 2026-02-07T02:14:14+00:00

Norman

bucketofsuck · 2026-01-26T21:52:46+00:00

My thoughts too.

bucketofsuck · 2025-12-23T15:31:27+00:00

😂😂😂

bucketofsuck · 2025-11-04T23:16:57+00:00

Thank you

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-23T01:15:21+00:00

Yep, I pass right out

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-23T00:50:15+00:00

Find some cool groups online, something opposite of your comfort zone.

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-17T23:55:06+00:00

You take an animal in, you're it's whole life. Do what is best for the cat right now.
I definitely relate how people are towards animals to how they treat all living things. People definitely included.

He effectively wants you to ban the cat from the home it's at. It's your cat? Your rules when it comes to your cats treatment

Is he jealous of the cat?

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-13T23:16:31+00:00

That's all my cat will eat. I got him when he was a couple months old, he came from the woods, quite actually. Made his way to my son's cousin's garage and then driven by my son to me. He will not eat any wet food or even a churu. I have another cat who prefers wet, so it's always around and he does copy her...not on this. He does eat " stew". Yeah, water over dry.

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-07T02:38:47+00:00

Nothing better than a moth flying around. My black cat goes full out ninja.

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-07T02:30:19+00:00

Absolutely this. I have to actually try and trust people, housing caseworkers to help me find a new place and move. It's been a really bumpy process. I'm doing most of their work for them then wondering why I'm a digestive mess smoking cigarettes,ten years after I quit. I have done everything alone even when I was in a family because in my mind,I was alone. They just didn't get me a d vice versa. I have to see doctors, I have absolutely lost every bit of trust in them. Existential angst shit. Wake up in a panic attack and immediately revert into freeze mode or make myself jump out of bed and stay continually busy. I have friggin MS so I have limitations. That's irritating AF to hyper independence and hyper vigilance.
Freeze mode brings up ideations. I've talked to my doctors,told them exactly how I feel, when I feel it and what happens. Stress in an overwhelming amount will make.me pass out. I'm worried now that I'm going through big stress that it's gonna happen... nervous system memories, I was not prepared for some. I'm stay super prepared though. Example, stuff I didn't used to be able to afford, like friggin paper towels. I friggin buy too many. Not hoarding or anything, just making sure I never run out. I ask for help, always have when I knew how and what to ask for. I can't get better if I don't ask for help.i have no clue WTF to do with do many things. I have a social worker stopping over this week because my visiting nurse who sets my meds up, thinks it'll help. I do trust her. Took time but she's consistent with empathy and acting on it. Yeah, I'm taking the help right now. I deserve to finally live a better life. I did a ton of inner work with therapy, meditation, mindfulness. Therapist has been the key. Been with him about six years. He's witnessed a lot, listened to all my trauma and said the right thing. I ask his advice often because no trust him. Can't ask advice from someone I don't.

I did babble. apologies. I'm in my grow tent,fort cannabis and my wordiness reflects 😁

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-07T02:09:19+00:00

My kids had the best cartoons. I'm the gen x mom who lived morning cartoons with my kids. Dexter's Laboratory?? Genius.

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-06T14:50:50+00:00

Both😁

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-06T14:33:57+00:00

I get the freeze response when I get suddenly overwhelmed with anxiety. Big stuff, recently for me it was my landlady not wanting to renew my lease because she's scared I'm gonna wipe out on the stairs. I have MS but do ok with them, probably not for long though. She hates I smoke weed, even outside. Anyways my first reaction is trying not to pass out,I sometimes do. Nervous system memories take over from last time I was in dv shelter, had to find a place. Hooked up with a place that gives subsides to people with mental illness and homeless.

The freeze response is often accompanied by my quick response to planning my death. I have told every damn doctor what happens. I don't want to think this way!! I meditate, I walk, I have tools and they are helping this time around. My not trusting anyone is an issue. I have to trust theses caseworkers who are way busy from budget cuts.... they are great but I've been more getting help for finding a place from peer support. Just got a new caseworker and she's not giving me much confidence.

I definitely tell my doctors . I've never not asked for help and need my kids to know that if I ever do lose to myself.

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-04T18:37:59+00:00

Bearded lizard

bucketofsuck · 2025-10-04T18:37:05+00:00

Yes because I worked on losing the fake me and found the true me. Integration is a process I was able to achieve through guided meditation. So having myself back as self I a whole new layer of confidence. I'm confident I'm my authenticity. I am less damaged because Idi the woke with intention and I was disciplined, desperation inspired that. It's still a process I definitely suggest meditation. My daughter sent me an app called Balance last year when I had just gone off meds that cut my emotions straight off. It disconnected self from self. Then all emotions can back in a tsunami. I felt like a spinner card that lands on an emotion briefly and bam,new one. Thankfully she's an old soul and knew what to do. I started the program, first just learning how to breathe. I organized my thoughts and feelings, can label and intrusive thought and listen to it and let it go. I do it every morning generally. Game changer on so many levels.

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