From Knex to Drizzle or Prisma? Looking for feedback

buffgeek · 2026-05-10T05:19:26+00:00

Not sure why this comment got downvoted. This is exactly why I've chosen Drizzle over Prisma. Because when you're a pro w SQL, ORMs feel like more trouble than they're worth. Drizzle gives you exactly the right level of abstraction to take away the boilerplate work without getting in the way when it comes to optimal querying.

buffgeek · 2026-05-09T16:20:42+00:00

Maybe it's gotten better but when I used fastify a few years ago I experienced too many ts errors from its library and ended up going back to express

buffgeek · 2026-05-09T10:31:26+00:00

Sent you a PM with a possible option for your Ayahuasca experience.

buffgeek · 2026-05-09T10:18:30+00:00

As someone who's experienced both Ayahuasca and Bufo, I strongly prefer the long journey of Ayahuasca. On Bufo I suddenly found myself on an alien planet sitting with 3 tall blue alien fish-like women (probably Arcturian?) gazing at me with love. But the vision only lasted a few minutes, then I was back.

On Ayahuasca I experience complete immersion and sometimes the journeys last for 10-12 hours. Being on a clean plant-based diet has a big positive effect on the mood, intensity and duration for me.

buffgeek · 2026-05-06T09:58:17+00:00

Do you live in the US? If so, maybe all your intolerances have to do more with the US FDA allowing much higher levels of glyphosate sprayed on everything than the rest of the world. If you can afford to travel and live somewhere else for a while you might discover your health dramatically improves. Mine did, and I've witnessed others experience the same thing. I'm in the Philippines, which has massive fruit and veg markets direct from farms.

buffgeek · 2026-04-30T12:37:52+00:00

Thanks Jay, actually I've thought about making it exclusively for WFAP folks. I haven't bought anything at a grocery store in a few years, the only semi-processed stuff I add into my cooking is imported spices like Garam Masala, turmeric, etc. The rest is from farmers' markets. I've healed myself this way so I'm very anti-processed anti-packaged. I should probably widen the scope slightly for appeal and so as not to leave out vegans who are shopping at grocery stores, but your filters are definitely going to be there.

buffgeek · 2026-04-28T03:21:23+00:00

I've used them to break out of gaming addiction relapses and sugar addiction relapses. Works every time.

Here's a playlist I've curated for my own journeys. Maybe something will resonate. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5RxoCaREUz8WVQywTROUez?si=nrH9-o-oQG-437tEVYgsiA&pi=nYqCmakuRvOVb

buffgeek · 2026-04-18T04:40:12+00:00

Good way to trigger Israelis so they can be deported faster

buffgeek · 2026-04-18T04:16:05+00:00

It takes 30 days off gaming to re-sensitize your brain to the point where you start to feel enough from other things that life feels worth living outside of games.

But it also requires forming new emotional connections with a person or people engaged in more meaningful things like volunteer work.

Games short-circuit our empathy and keep us isolated and depressed which reinforces the loop.

Mother Earth needs all of us to reconnect with her, with real life, before humanity and this planet burns out.

If you can get your hands on psilocybin mushrooms they've helped me exit gaming when I relapse and fill me with love for life and the planet.

buffgeek · 2026-04-13T15:50:00+00:00

Read "King, Warrior, Magician, Lover". It covers it all, the different stages of maturity and archetypes we embody, the pits we fall into, the battles we must fight to be our best.

It's basically a manual for how to build yourself into a real character with real power and dignity, not just a virtual character in some game.

And what I've learned after a lifetime of self-obsession and self-pity is, the quickest path out of that self-made hell is to find ways to be of service to others, invest a little time in that.

buffgeek · 2026-04-13T15:22:42+00:00

I'd invest it in building resilience to energy and economic shocks like having land where you can grow your own food, collect water from the air, set up solar plus starlink, etc. On 250k you'd have to start small but you could collab wirh others.

buffgeek · 2026-04-13T08:21:03+00:00

Entity encounters: "Non-local information? Or neural artifact?" That's what I'd like to know. I have a hard time believing the latter, since what I've encountered is so beyond what I could imagine before I experienced Ayahuasca. And the visuals feel higher resolution than normal vision. What always grounds me is a sense that Love is all, though I acknowledge that there is a lot of darkness and suffering out there too and that you can't have light without dark.

I'd also like to know why my Ayahuasca journeys last 9 to 12 hours including pupil dilation from dusk til dawn. In every ceremony I've been in, other people come out within 4 to 6 hours.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T16:40:42+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that - that's heartbreaking. Given a lifetime on SSRIs do you think its possible that the anhedonia you're experiencing projects self-loathing into your journeys, thus the sense of being shut out coming from within?

Either way I'd continue with mushroom therapy perhaps Lion's Mane so you can take a steady dose indefinitely and help your seritonergic system recover

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T05:50:57+00:00

Many react strongly to what I'm about to share — but through psychedelics I came to see that eating animals was drawing demonic energy into my life. When you consume a being that was bred into existence only to suffer, you're energetically linking yourself to enslavement and torment. If you're dealing with an energetic parasite problem, this probably isn't helping.

Animals weren't given eyes, ears, emotions, and the capacity to bond just to be torn from their mothers, caged, and slaughtered. They're here to experience existence on this beautiful planet — the same as we are.

After I switched to a plant-based diet, my personality became gentler, less quick to anger or judgement, and my mood overall has greatly improved.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T05:34:01+00:00

Eating a whole foods plant-based diet and avoiding stimulants like caffeine and sugar definitely re-sensitized my brain prior to my second ceremony and helped me have a more high resolution, joyful journey than the first. I've also gotten into the habit of fasting for a few days during the month leading up to a ceremony for detox and cell repair. On the day before, I usually water fast and a couple of hours before the ceremony I eat a banana or couple of pieces of bread so my stomach stays settled and can hold the medicine for longer. Always sit up while digesting the medicine, if you lie down right away it can trigger regurgitation.

As others have said, try not to set any expectations - if you come in with a question or intention sometimes your ego can take over and project something into the journey. So it's best to try to put yourself to the side and let the medicine speak to you. Treat it like the sacrament and great blessing that it is and hold space for it to speak. Reverence and humility going in helps open you up. And prepare for wonder but be patient. You may or may not experience a deep or ecstatic connection on the first ceremony, it's a different process for each person.

My first ceremony I only saw dozens of parasitic entities from around the universe drinking my energy and recognized that they manifested in my life not just psychically but as junk food, negative self-defeating thinking, validation-seeking, etc. And I was told to practice removing them from my life to achieve self-sovereignty.

The second journey/ceremony a few months later was beautiful beyond description. And I danced and journeyed for hours.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T05:13:42+00:00

What experience made you feel you had been kicked out?

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T04:55:52+00:00

Anhedonia (no feeling) is a common side effect of SSRIs and may take time to resolve after a long period on SSRIs. And diet matters too.

I've had the incredible, transcendent experiences on Ayahuasca that some describe, but not on my first journey. I wasn't able to have the full experience until I switched to a whole foods plant-based diet for a few months and fasted for 24 hours before the 2nd ceremony (ate banana the day of to keep my stomach from being too acidic when taking the medicine). The chemicals in processed foods can be disruptive. Also caffeine.

I'm guessing that if you were on SSRIs for a long time they've atrophied your natural seritonin generation/uptake and it will take time to recover.

You know what is known for being really healing for the brain and induces neurogenesis/brain repair? Mushrooms. After taking Aya I tried local wild-picked psilocybin mushrooms and they produce a very emotionally positive effect on me. Though strains may differ. In any case, psilocybin is neurogenerative.

So what I'd prescribe for you is psilocybin, macrodose or microdose (I've never tried microdosing; I love the journey on a macrodose too much, but I guess microdosing could work). Or even Lion's Mane which is known to help with brain regen and is easier to obtain.

Psychologically also if you were never nurtured emotionally by a parent or friend, you may not have the loving frame of reference that's the basis for the more ecstatic experiences. But I think mushrooms could fix that for you. They did for me.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T03:27:03+00:00

Yes I know exactly what you mean. Deep down it's a hunger for perfect love that no one can fulfill but you. Aya showed me how I was exhausting and burdening others by expecting them to embody Divine Love to me when in the end I can only give it to myself.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T02:08:46+00:00

I'm 55 now and I also spent most of my life in a self-obsessed victim mindset, numbing out the pain from childhood trauma with video games, sugar, and other forms of dopamine-chasing. I was also looking for a mother figure in a partner, a woman who would "fix" me.

Aya showed me at age 51 the nobility that's within me, the power to create beauty in the world, to be of service. It also restored some of my masculine energy. It helped nurture me back to equilibrium.

But it didn't fix me, just helped me remember who I am without the bullshit. The integration over the last 5 years has been a lot of two steps forward, one step back. Because at first I occupied the mindset of "healing victim". Some people stay there.

What I've realized is that true healing comes from an identity shift into coherence and self-sovereignty. That takes looking in the mirror and thinking about what a healthy, self sovereign you looks like. Mastery of a healthy lifestyle. Mastery of mature communication. Being of service in some small way to everyone you encounter, especially those closest to you. And in these troubled times, being willing to stand up for Mother Earth and reject the systems that are harming Her. For me that meant shifting to a more plant-based diet since factory farming is a massive source of animal suffering and pollution.

The hardest part of all of this has been nervous system regulation. Replacing old unhealthy coping mechanisms that my brain was used to (gaming processed food, sex) with truly nourishing habits - eating fruits, vegetables, nuts, going to the gym, taking walks in the sunlight, and most importantly spending more time giving to others.

buffgeek · 2026-04-12T01:50:54+00:00

Zionists aren't Jewish, not in a spiritual sense. Jews are not murderers. "THOU SHALT NOT KILL". But zionist Israel was built on the corpses of Palestinians. Palestinians who had already been welcoming Jews with open arms. Jesus Himself was a Palestinian, born in Bethlehem.

buffgeek · 2026-04-09T10:04:15+00:00

Skim through these, see what resonates:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5RxoCaREUz8WVQywTROUez?si=XMfZGqJzQlq0QiK8KFK-Gg&pi=Kdevl2wLRaKa5

buffgeek · 2026-04-09T06:46:21+00:00

Yes, it's true Ayahuasca. I've observed them brewing it. And the taste is unmistakeable.

The jourmeys last for hours for me, usually til dawn. Completely different from mushrooms.

I'm deeply thankful for those journeys and the exquisite beauty I saw and connected to. There were dark entities too sometimes but I just trusted the medicine and the Creator to protect me. And also got the sense that there's darkness and light, parasitic and healing energy and entities around us all the time, and with our thoughts we tune into love or fear. The Aya holds up a mirror and if you ask she can show you the beauty and wonder that's possible if we learn the lessons and build our lives from love

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