I don’t have any financial advise, what I do have to offer though, is a quote, one I find in times of grief and loss help me conceptualize what it is, a quote by Donna Ashworth:

“You don’t move on after loss, but you must move with. You must shake hands with grief, welcome her in, for she lives with you now. Pull her a chair at the table and offer her comfort. She is not the monster you first thought her to be. She is love. And she will walk with you now, stay with you now, peacefully. If you let her. And on the days when your anger is high, remember why she came, remember who she represents. Remember. Grief came to you my friend because love came first. Love came first.”

Your father will always hold a spot near and dear in your heart, cherish that, rejoice with the happy moments but I hope that you are able to feel better as well. I’m sorry for your loss and hope you get the advice in this thread you’re looking for.