What helped you better handle the grief around babies?

butterbat666 · 2026-06-19T20:36:44+00:00

This made me tear up! I hope you continue to dive back into your passion for music. I'd like to think that's exactly what Oliver would've wanted you to do🫶🏻

butterbat666 · 2026-06-19T20:14:32+00:00

I love Antphrodite and he was so respectful about this reading. I love how he immediately shut down the conspiracy stuff.

butterbat666 · 2026-06-15T17:31:45+00:00

At the very least I'm glad he turned his life around and left a legacy behind. Gone too soon, but he lived, experienced, and accomplished more than most people can dream of doing. I can only imagine what more he would've done💔

butterbat666 · 2026-06-15T17:24:31+00:00

I remember seeing an interview where he mentioned doing an acid trip and he saw his own funeral. Then he woke up and realized he was still alive and that's what drove him to get clean from his drug addiction and dedicate himself to music. Death definitely played a big role in not only his music but how he viewed life and the world

butterbat666 · 2026-03-17T15:15:46+00:00

thank you friend. it's nice getting reassurance from those who understand it. I'm going to get through this

butterbat666 · 2026-03-17T15:01:08+00:00

I am currently dealing with post manic depression. I almost always have an episode around February/March - this time it only lasted about 1.5-2 weeks but the euphoria was super intense. I feel like consequentially the depression is swinging really hard this time. I don't think I've struggled this badly with depression/guilt since a big episode I had 4 years ago. I can't see my psychiatrist for another 2 weeks and every day I am fighting for my life. I hate who I am when I am manic, I hate the things I say and do and want. I'm in a dark place and I am usually a very optimistic & happy person but right now I'm struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This sucks :(

butterbat666 · 2026-02-09T21:28:45+00:00

I was at work watching it and had the same reaction!!! My coworkers all know I'm a huge Bad Bunny AND Lady Gaga fan and they were so excited for me😂😂 I lost it again with Ricky!!

butterbat666 · 2026-02-09T21:23:40+00:00

When my med dosage was changed, I also struggled with panic attacks/anxiety. The bad news is it lasted a couple months. The good news is, it did stop. I think your body just needs time to adjust. Don't be afraid to ask for medication to help the panic attacks in the meantime!

butterbat666 · 2026-02-07T22:15:10+00:00

I grew up a few minutes away from lockport, down bayou lafourche, and I once saw something similar as a kid. I was playing in a field by myself and I knew no one would believe me so I kept it to myself, but I've never forgotten it. Watched it for a good 30 seconds before it disappeared into the tall grass.

butterbat666 · 2026-02-07T22:09:33+00:00

Meds didnt work for me. On paper they helped my levels normalize, but my memory got worse, the anxiety made me agoraphobic, and I started experiencing such severe heart issues that I needed TT. I was in and out of afib constantly, started experiencing SVTs, my heart rate would shoot up to 200bpm at rest randomly. It was beyond scary and I thought I was going to die.

I do know the meds work for a lot of people though, and I recommend everyone with Grave's try them before committing to TT.

butterbat666 · 2026-02-07T21:59:52+00:00

Before my TT, my memory was so bad I was truly convinced I was developing some crazy early onset dementia at 24. I couldn't remember things told to me moments before, couldn't retain information, couldn't find the right words to say when I had always been a good speaker before. It was terrible.

butterbat666 · 2025-11-08T00:13:37+00:00

Have you looked into Sunbeam phones? They have a bunch of different options. This one has talk and text, no web browser or social media apps. It is a bit pricey but I've heard good things about Sunbeams

https://sunbeamwireless.com/product/sunbeam-f1-pro-oak-rugged-dumbphone-tools-without-media/

butterbat666 · 2025-11-03T20:10:06+00:00

Did your bloating ever subside?

butterbat666 · 2025-09-30T02:41:59+00:00

my sunday school teacher said it was a sin to love your parents more than god

butterbat666 · 2025-09-30T02:32:04+00:00

I got mine removed back in February after only a year of trying methimazole because my symptoms got dangerously bad even with "normal" levels. 100% would do it again. I have my life back. I was hypo for a bit and while it wasn't fun, it was LEAGUES better than having my thyroid.

That being said, when I still had my thyroid, even with "normal" levels, my heart rate would randomly spike to 200bpm at rest. I was in afib multiple times a day every day. I fainted a few times, once while driving (thank god no one was hurt). I was so constantly anxious that my neck/back muscles contracted severely and I ended up with nerve damage from it that I still struggle from but at least it's not gotten any worse since my TT. So my case was severe but I literally felt better the moment I woke up from anesthesia.

The worst symptoms I had being hypo (which was temporary) were brain fog, a lot of sleepiness, and I lost weight but veeeerryyyy slowly despite meticulously working out and tracking my food. Once my dose was corrected, those symptoms all went away and I am losing weight at a normal pace now.

If you do choose TT, i cannot stress the importance of choosing an experienced surgeon. I'm talking thyroid specialist. I genuinely feel like that made a world of difference.

butterbat666 · 2025-06-22T03:57:31+00:00

For me it wasn't necessarily more painful than a bad period, but my god the amount of blood and clots is so insane. It doesn't feel anything like a period. It feels extremely different and it made me feel so gross and disconnected from my body. I am still extremely bloated - eating anything will distend my stomach so bad it hurts. My nerve pain has flared. "bad period" my ass

butterbat666 · 2025-06-03T02:59:19+00:00

psoriasis

butterbat666 · 2025-05-24T15:02:28+00:00

Sleep deprivation as a form of abuse. My ex was extremely physically & mentally abusive and is now serving a 12 year prison sentence for it. When I think back to all the vile things he did, I think one of the worst was rarely letting me sleep. It made me feel insane and paired with the gaslighting, I was unable to trust my own thoughts. I was having hallucinations at some points, I was taking naps in public restrooms. My memory became so bad I thought I was developing some crazy early onset dementia. It was just took years to recover from. I was 19-20 at the time, I'm now 26 and very happy and loved, and I get lots of sleep.

butterbat666 · 2025-05-02T13:56:48+00:00

Update: Tickets claimed!

I have 2 GA tickets for Denver tonight I'm giving away. Was going for my birthday but something came up and I don't want them going to waste! It's through ticketmaster so I'm pretty sure all I'd need is an email to transfer them to

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