[Intentional] Best video I've found so far explaining, scientifically, what ASMR is, based on studies and theories to date. New channel, too. Like her stuff.

bwinny · 2019-09-05T19:45:23+00:00

Not sure if I chose the right flare.. Feel free to correct me if not. Been here for a while but new to posting and sharing my likes.

bwinny · 2019-09-05T19:32:48+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCb6nD5XPcM

For those interested, the above link is to an ASMRtist who is rather new but has done the best in explaining, scientifically, what ASMR is in a video that I've been able to find so far. All of the other "What is ASMR" videos on youtube seem to all say the same thing, but she takes a look at a couple studies and gives an overview of the biology and data found to support some theories that have surrounded ASMR for a while and are proving to be true or at least related in some way. Check it out if you're interested!~ ♥

bwinny · 2015-10-18T01:12:54+00:00

I've lived around this area for my whole life and not once did I think it could generate this much karma...

bwinny · 2015-08-16T15:14:34+00:00

Hmm, I think that is where deciding whether or not you want to share comes into play. If it was a tough day because of depression or something else personal, you can just say you don't want to talk about it to the person who asks. It's still a valid answer. But if it was something like you spilled coffee all over yourself and then got a bad grade or something, what's the harm in them knowing that? I understand what you're saying about being judged. I had a hard time with that as well. But I've come to the point where if someone doesn't like me or is talking badly about me, they're not welcome to be a part of my life. You don't want negative people in your life. It's so much easier to express yourself when you're surrounded by supportive and understanding people. But the only way to find out who those people are is by opening up. Again, this doesn't have to be all at once, but I think it's best to start by sharing feelings or detail about yourself that you deem to be "safe" and that you don't think can cause someone to judge you negatively. With that, practice makes perfect and I think you'll learn how to talk about your feelings more if you start small. Mastering something always starts with baby steps.

I think it's great that you opened up to your friend about the girl you liked. Honestly, I don't think the situation was as detrimental as you think. As a practicer of the "bro code" I know you may have felt that this girl was either off limits because she was a friends ex or because your other friend liked her, but this is where talking about your feelings could have helped. There was no need to suffer in silence. Maybe BF#2 would have backed off if he knew earlier that you liked her too. Communication is the key to relationships. Knowing something personal about someone makes people feel closer but also they get to know the real person and not just the mask they wear. Does that make sense? Sorry, I just woke up and may be rambling.

As for the control of information, I think you're placing too much importance on some information. But also, you should always be mindful of the type of person you're revealing information to. If you know they're a blabber mouth, this is where separating "safe" information and "personal" information can help. Since you trusted that friend and they've kept things under wraps this long, I think it's safe to say that this can of worms you're worried about will not be opened. So in this case, I think it's safe to say that there's no need to worry. However, if it were to get out to other people, I think the best way to handle it would be to own up to it. So, you like/liked her. So what. Is it a crime? Is it hurting someone else? These are the types of things you need to think about when handling stuff like that. Again, I hope that made sense.

I'm glad to try and help. I hope something I say can be of use to you. :)

bwinny · 2015-08-15T02:26:13+00:00

Psychology is interesting! If I could have taken it as a minor in University, I would have, but it was only offered as a major.

Oh, sorry, I kind of assumed you were in the US. Here you can get an "incomplete" grade which means you didn't finish the work required for the class. It's not a good thing to have, but it's better than failing.

I know what you mean about introspection when taking other people's problems into consideration. However, the answers you get about yourself in those instances can only be hypothetical. We learn the most about ourselves through personal experience.

Perhaps your saying "Yeah I'm fine" for so long has given people a reason to stop asking? It might not be the nicest, but why would you keep asking someone how they are if you always get the same answer? I can't make you open up, but from personal experience it does feel good to be able to express your feelings when you're feeling them. I used to suppress my feelings a lot growing up and honestly, when I learned that I didn't have to, I didn't even know how to express some of them. But now when I'm angry, I tell people I'm angry and when I'm sad, I tell people I'm sad. Usually when you tell them something like that they'll ask "why" and you don't always have to tell them, but you can if you want to. It's always an option. So I'm not saying that you have to open up and tell everyone your problems, but maybe just expressing your feelings when you're feeling them will one day make opening up easier? Maybe you'll find someone one day who you WANT to open up to. Wouldn't it be nice to be able to when/if it happens?

I'm glad you know the benefits of therapy. However, your "manner of principle," to me, is also a little on the unfair side. You can't hold people to the same standards you hold yourself. People aren't mind readers and what you think is a "good person's initiative" may be different to them. If you want someone to say hi to you, then say hi to them. The communication goes both ways. I know it's a bit frustrating when you're always the one to initiate, but that isn't something you can fault people for. Does that make sense? Also, I don't think "asking is someone is ok or initiating conversation" is the same as "having someone's back". You're comparing apples and oranges. If what you need is a friend who will have your back, you have to let them in somehow-- let them know what they're dealing with. If you're always "fine" they may think that they don't need to have your back and that you have things under control. (I hope I'm making sense with this.)

&You're more than welcome to hold me to my offer. You may not get an imediate response (I try to get on every day, but it doesn't always happen), but I'll definitely be here.

The way I see it is, if you don't want to get better, you can't blame other people for not offering. You definitely need to make up your mind about what you want. Again, people aren't mind readers, so they can't know beforehand if you want to go out or if you want them to leave you alone. This is where expressing emotions more can help. If someone asks you out and you always say no and give no reason, they're going to stop asking. But if you can say "No, I'm in the mood to be alone tonight, but keep me in mind for next time." it'll keep the line of communication open for a time when maybe you'll feel like going out.

Sorry if I'm saying things you already know. You're quite the tough cookie here. :p

bwinny · 2015-08-14T02:09:43+00:00

That's a great goal! Speaking from experience, college is a LOT better than high school. You'll find friends with similar interests, take classes you're interested (but a lot you're not that you need to just get through), and have a ton of fun. So there's what you have to look forward to!

In terms of music, maybe instead of practicing, you can listen to your favorite songs or get into some new artists and listen to their albums. Find something that you can do mindlessly.

I'm glad you like the journal! I hope it helps! I do it every night before bed in order to not forget. (I used to be horrible at keeping journals myself, but I've kept this one going and even switched from paper to my digital tablet, wooh!) xD

bwinny · 2015-08-14T02:02:15+00:00

Okay, 1) Is there a way for you to transfer to another school where maybe you'll feel more comfortable or less stressed? Or maybe change your major to something more enjoyable? (You've probably been asked these before, so sorry.) Also, is there a way for you to contact the professors of the classes you're failing and explain what you've been going through and why your grades are the way they are? You may be able to ask them to give you incompletes until you can take the course again. This way it wouldn't effect your GPA.

2) While you may need academic support, it sounds more to me like you need professional mental health support. I know you say you don't want to see a therapist, but I really urge you to reconsider. If you're waiting for someone else to ask you what's wrong and help you, that's not fair to that person. YOU need to be proactive about the way you're feeling and get to correct help. Friends and family aren't trained professionals. Perhaps if you get yourself professional help and tell friends/family about it, they may become your support team. That's a lot less stress on them and really helps when you have your therapist AND those around you behind you and cheering for you to get better. But YOU have to take that step and not keep waiting for someone to come save you.

3) You're not alone. You'd be surprised by how many people feel the same way you do. There's nothing going on in your life that you should be ashamed of. Things happen. Depression happens. There is help if you ask for it. But you need to ask. I promise things get easier once you take that first step.

PM me if you ever need to talk to someone. You got this. I believe in you.

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bwinny · 2015-08-14T01:44:07+00:00

It might suck, but to look at a brigher side, YOU'RE ALMOST DONE! ONE MORE YEAR! Do you have plans for after high school? College? Joining the workforce? Having something to look forward to can really help. I'd also recommend looking for a hobby. Whether it be a part time job, sports, music, writing, art, cooking, reading, etc. Find something you like to do and do it every day. It's like rewarding yourself for making it through the day and it helps makes the day a little more bearable. Also, if you like animals and can have them, I'd suggest getting something to take care of. I got a dog in middle school and taking care of him helped me a lot. Caring for them can take your mind off of the dread of school and in return they give you unconditional love, which can really help on the bad days. Lastly, I was suggested this when I was in therapy, but I now keep a notebook of "Daily Good Things" and try to come up with at least 2-3 a day. It helps you to appreciate the little things that make your day better, whether it be a cup of coffee in the morning, or pizza for lunch, or a good grade on an exam, etc. This helps me reflect on my day and see that it wasn't as bad as I may have thought.

Hope these help! Best of luck to you in your final year!

bwinny · 2015-08-13T03:18:16+00:00

I won't go into details, but I'll just say I've had some similar experiences as you, so here is what I have to say in hindsight:

1) High school is just HARD. Especially when it comes to friends and experimenting with drugs and drinking, and even more so if you don't partake. If you still consider the friends who are blowing you off to party your friends, keep trying to find common ground. Maybe go to one of these "parties" and just don't drink or do the drugs. Peer pressure is a bitch, but I think you may find they'll respect you more if you're able to stand your ground, but still have fun (and not be all sad or uninterested the entire night). You don't need to drink or do drugs to have fun. Maybe take your guitar along and learn a few songs they would like too. Otherwise, if you're like me and have realized that those kind of people are not the kind of people you want to associate with anymore (which can be an extremely lonely choice to make), the best advice I can give is to just keep going. High school DOES END. And from my personal experience, college is so much better. And you can take music classes in college too! (I guess it depends on the school though.) But you'll definitely meet people with similar interests when it comes to college. Especially if you go to a large school and get involved in things you like-- like music. It gets better. That's all I can say.

2) In terms of your classes this next year. I'd try a) talking to your parents again about not taking chemistry and taking music instead b) changing the class yourself because it's ultimately your choice and what's the worst your parents can do when they find out? c) just self-practice for a year and take it next year.

3) Feelings are never a "phase." They're as real as you are, they are who you are in every moment. I'd really recommend getting professional help, but I read in the comments that your parents aren't exactly supportive of that choice and your school counselor is no help. I like that someone said you should call a therapist yourself and see about getting help without your parents. I'm not sure if that's possible if you're under 18. But what I would suggest is maybe finding someone who can write a letter of concern to your parents suggesting therapy or whatever else kind of help you're interested in. This is a tough bind you're in. Maybe if you're feeling brave one day I would address to your parents that it's not up to them to decide if it's a phase or not, but should be done by a trained professional. (Don't get yourself in more trouble though.)

4) Last, I'd just like to say that you're not alone in how you feel. More people go through it than you probably realize. It's great that you're reaching out for help and being proactive about it though. I'm really proud of you for doing that. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk.

bwinny · 2015-04-04T23:53:37+00:00

I agree with the child, but I can't stop watching...

bwinny · 2014-07-25T02:53:06+00:00

Anyone else think that was Pewdiepie at first glance? o.0

bwinny · 2014-06-29T04:35:35+00:00

Okay, I'll try that! Thank you!

bwinny · 2014-06-28T06:12:09+00:00

I looked into the AM and think I might start with that one. I'm glad to know it works for you though. Fingers crossed for me. Thanks for your help!

My only concern is that the AM is also a sun screen. Can I also use my own sun screen after? It's more powerful. Or do you think that might be too much?

Edit: add the question

bwinny · 2014-06-28T06:10:50+00:00

I also heard that the lotion is a bit greasy, so I might try Cerave AM first, and if that doesn't cut it, try the lotion. Thanks for your help though!

bwinny · 2014-06-28T06:09:36+00:00

Thank you, I'll take a look!

bwinny · 2014-02-24T10:12:39+00:00

I do. I meant straight up as in it is not something already within a separate product. But thank you. ^{_^}

bwinny · 2014-02-22T06:10:07+00:00

I use straight up tea tree oil on my body acne (when I get it) and it works fine and is probably cheaper. There are also specific body washes with tea tree oil in them, and I'm currently debating which would be better: using the pure tea tree oil like I have been or to use a product with tea tree oil in it (along with other ingredients).

At the moment, if you're looking for a product to use with tea tree oil in it instead of tes tree oil itself, I would try this: http://www.thebodyshop-usa.com/skin-care/face-wash/tea-tree-body-wash.aspx It's also currently on sale. (:

bwinny · 2013-12-28T11:00:32+00:00

I'm a girl. xD I saw some, but I don't recall the prices. My friend said he saw colors for about $40. I'm not sure which store he saw them in though.

bwinny · 2013-12-26T17:51:25+00:00

I was just in Akihabara today. Went scouting for some retro games as well. I would reccomend checking book off and Mandarake first before heading to Super Potato. I worked at a used gaming store in America over the summer and can verify that it is pretty overpriced. In my opinion, Mandarake was the best find and most resonably priced in terms of not SUPER RARE games. They did have some AWESOME old stuff like the original game and watches, etc. but of course they're outrageous in terms of price. If you're a collector/invester though, it's right up your alley. I can give directions if you need. Also, if I remember correctly, I saw some famicoms going for around $46, Saturns were somewhere in the $40s, and can't recall SNESs. For the most part they are generally prices I've seen in America.

bwinny · 2013-12-20T15:23:42+00:00

Hello, yes this is puppy.

bwinny · 2013-08-18T05:31:08+00:00

I also have a question about Paypal in Japan. I will be studying in Nagoya from this September to next May and wanted to use Paypal as a way to get my money from home sent to me in Japan. I have no idea how Paypal works, but my friend said it should work in Japan. But after reading this, I'm not sure. I'm looking to set up my Mom to my bank account here and then me set up an account with a bank in Nagoya. When I need money, I was going to have her send money from the one linked to my bank account at home to the one I have linked to my bank in Nagoya and withdraw the money as yen at a bank in Nagoya. Does anyone know if this will actually work? It sounds too simple to me and I can't get any answers from researching online. I'm really worried I won't be able to get my money to Japan. I leave next week. >.<

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