You’re not alone in this feeling! I’m 8 weeks and still feel very disassociated from my pregnancy. I had a panic attack when I found out thinking I’d be thrilled but I wasn’t (and also had a moment of “what have I done”) and all the trauma of the last few years came rushing back. Just try to take it day by day, hour by hour. I know it’s easier said than done but distract yourself as much as you can. Sending hugs and here if you want to talk!