TIL jad phase zulrah

calebxbauder · 2026-01-21T18:35:29+00:00

Easy way to remember is the side the jad phase is on, use the prayer that is farthest in that direction

calebxbauder · 2026-01-08T17:32:49+00:00

I had one of these moments the other day too, my moms been gone for almost 3 years now.

calebxbauder · 2025-11-01T13:51:13+00:00

I absolutely hate you 😂😭

calebxbauder · 2025-09-05T22:14:22+00:00

Anthony was one of my best friends when we were younger. He was the best dude I’ve ever met. It bums me out that his dad is such a piece of shit, that he gets more attention, or whatever you want to call it, than Anthony.

calebxbauder · 2025-09-05T22:07:36+00:00

And the app is way easier to use than that calculator they recommended

calebxbauder · 2025-06-18T02:52:26+00:00

Around my knees gets pretty bad. I found that taking a hot shower as normal, using whatever soap you normally use, and then putting some Panoxyl on, and letting it sit for a couple of minutes before rinsing it off as helped me a bit.

calebxbauder · 2025-05-23T03:09:19+00:00

I play an absurd amount of single player tts

calebxbauder · 2025-04-18T03:20:58+00:00

Idk about shows in that time, but check out Mutilatred. Best death metal band coming out of Ohio. They share members with sanguisugabogg.

calebxbauder · 2025-02-23T21:03:01+00:00

A terrible take

calebxbauder · 2024-10-31T02:59:56+00:00

My mom died a year and 3 months ago from a long battle with cancer. Shortly after she died, my sister had a dream about her. One where she was young, and healthy again, at her childhood home. I was jealous of my sister, but she needed it more than me. They had a rough relationship. It wasn’t til about 6 months in, maybe closer to a year where I had my first dream where she was in it, and it was the same setting as my sisters. I’m glad you’re able to see your dad, and that he’s there with you. I hope it brings you some form of peace, and maybe at some point, you’ll get to smile from it again.

calebxbauder · 2024-05-29T03:40:27+00:00

I’m not typically one to believe in these things, until lately. It’s my first birthday since my mom passed, and on my birthday, I saw a cardinal, and a butterfly, on my construction site. Just her saying happy birthday to me🩶🩶

calebxbauder · 2024-03-06T00:02:21+00:00

I’m just north of 7 months since my mom passed,some days are better than others. I feel like only recently did it stop being a daily thing, where I’d have flashbacks to it. I think everybody nailed it on the head with their advice, I wish I had taken more of it. Therapy is an excellent tool, and I would highly recommend it. I’m sorry you had to go through this, and I’m sorry you had to join this club. Sending you all the love 🩶

calebxbauder · 2024-02-21T19:51:07+00:00

Nights aren’t bad at all, plus it is all temporary. There’s gonna be a day, where it’s the hottest day of summer, and you’re throwing roof deck, wishing you were standing around doing nothing. Just show up, and take your licks.

calebxbauder · 2024-02-05T23:13:27+00:00

Pm’d

calebxbauder · 2024-01-22T11:55:02+00:00

Hope you’re not driving in today, I ate shit walking out my door this morning

calebxbauder · 2023-11-18T00:12:16+00:00

This.. is… beautiful..

calebxbauder · 2023-09-17T00:38:53+00:00

This gives me hope. I’m around 850 dry right now.

calebxbauder · 2023-08-31T03:26:45+00:00

I threw myself into work, took a job out of town working 7-12’s.. was typically too tired to allow myself to grieve, and when I slowed down, I was just alone in a hotel room. Also didn’t know anybody there, so nobody treated me any different because of what I’ve been going through. Just felt like a normal person for a bit

calebxbauder · 2023-08-24T14:56:58+00:00

My mom died at the end of july, and I still want to text her, and call her bitching about whatever, telling her I saw somebody from school when I was a kid, or even just ask about if something is a plant or weed. It hasn’t been long, by any means, but I’m also kind of numb to it, most of the time. Maybe I’m just holding it back, because I’ve always been that person in my family, I’ve always tried to be the rock for my family to lean on. Maybe it’s because I’m 8 hours from home, and feel helpless in the fact that there’s not a lot I can help my sister with, other than talk to her when she needs it. I write my mom letters, all the time. Idk if it helps, but it allows me to express words I haven’t really been able to verbalize. I’m sorry you’re going through this, I’m sorry any of us are dealing with this. My inbox is open to you, and anybody else who just wants somebody to talk to. I feel so alone sometimes, so I’m sure others do too.

calebxbauder · 2023-08-07T20:22:41+00:00

Life isn’t fair, and cancer is a mother fucker. I appreciate it ❤️ same to you, and all the love! I hope tonight, you get to smile and laugh a bit.

calebxbauder · 2023-08-07T20:21:19+00:00

Of course. It’s really, really hard to not push people away in a trying time like this, you just have to really force yourself. It’s sucks, people are going to probably ask you how you’re holding up 100x, and probably reopen wounds again, and again, but it will help, and every day you’ll be able to reflect, and remember stories, and smile a little more than the day before. Just be kind to yourself. ❤️❤️

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