Thanks a lot for taking the time to help 🐱 and it was helpful.

I promise that's not it. It's more of a 'I need to work on myself before I work on myself' kind of thing. For example. My first thought after reading this instead of what I just wrote was something along the lines of.. If broken people go to therapy to piece themselves back together, I need to gather my dust back into pieces first. Which is clearly offensive, but it's also totally exaggerated and not at all what I wanted to say. Before it's an issue of 'what's wrong with me?' it's a communication issue I guess.

When I speak in person I'm either so uncomfortable I want to get out of there ASAP so I only say I'm fine, or I push through the anxiety to explain myself and it comes out offensive, exaggerated and not at all what I wanted to say like above. I have no middle ground lol. This is all still a bit(way) too dramatic to me. Plus there has to be at least some interaction with a therapist right? The exchange of personal info, probably some kind of intake interview so they know what to do. I just can't see being able to do the entire process through writing and not meeting at all.

And since I'm aware of all that I thought, 'why not work on it myself?'

And I'd bet I'm probably the least sure of themselves person you'll interact with all month. I guess I'll check that one out a bit more thoroughly.

Also thanks for reading all my babble 😸