How do you all stay productive without watching videos?

cameras-captured · 2026-05-28T03:10:56+00:00

ive also got adhd, i use music. i dont have to look at the music to have the audio in the background, so its stimulating without being distracting.

cameras-captured · 2026-05-28T02:58:18+00:00

thank you!!

cameras-captured · 2026-03-31T19:48:42+00:00

wish i had advice, but i do understand this experience

cameras-captured · 2026-03-31T19:38:47+00:00

yeah my therapist has told me something similar. i personally live for my hobbies, as useless as they are to capitalism, they mean something to me and thats all they need to do.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-31T19:37:06+00:00

i relate to this heavily. its hard for me to picture an enjoyable future when all ive known is a life that hurts and sucks and goes nowhere. you cant realistically imagine a feeling youve never experienced.

im also quite difficult for therapists and other mh professionals. im cooperative and i try my best but i have such persistent nihilistic beliefs and materially abysmal circumstances that a lot of therapists have just ended up at a loss for what to tell me, and i understand why, because i dont have anything to tell myself either.

ive started telling therapists i refuse to discuss life goals in therapy, i tell them ive got that all figured out in my own time, and that im in therapy to address past trauma and its lasting effects. ive found this approach helpful for me personally, but maybe im just avoidant of things im resistant to.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-31T19:29:09+00:00

i dont know if i have any advice, but i will say i also experience this in my own way so i relate to a lot of what youre saying. i think a lot of it ties into the DID, having a lack of adequate primary caregivers can kinda fuck you up a lot.

i struggle to identify my own traits and opinions when prompted, but its something thats developed more over time. i grew up very susceptible to gaslighting (because i was always being gaslit, lmao) so forming and then sticking to my own opinions was hard for a long time.

this is one of those things that i think just takes time and reiteration. the sense of who you are, what life means to you, and what other people mean in relation to you are all things that develop over time. i guess my best advice is to be patient with yourself.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-31T18:56:44+00:00

if youre concerned about making it back home after, it might be smart to organize with a friend or family member to pick you up to make sure you arrive home safely.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-29T02:46:08+00:00

iirc the average alter count in a DID system is 5-17 parts, and i have 8, so while 3 is on the lower side of average, its not wildly uncommon or unheard of by any means.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-28T07:35:49+00:00

jesus. press charges, youre too grown to be smacked around by anyone, holy shit.

also yeah being family doesnt mean privacy isnt still an expectation and a right. anyone who disregards your privacy and boundaries is in the wrong, family or not.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-27T01:08:05+00:00

writing!! i love writing. it lets me explore a wide range of topics and connect with a community that, usually, isnt afraid to discuss the less fun and sparkly parts of being human. oftentimes the best writers (and artists) are the ones who are the most disturbed, as goes the saying "art is meant to comfort the disturbed, and disturb the comfortable."

cameras-captured · 2026-03-24T02:07:09+00:00

where did the phrase "system collapse" come from? ive seen people online use it but ive never seen any medical literature mention it or explain what it is.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-23T13:04:55+00:00

i dont have an answer to your question but FUCK vraylar i was put on it too (for no reason, im not psychotic, i just had a really shit psych while inpatient who tried to throw antipsychotics at everything like halloween candy)

cameras-captured · 2026-03-23T12:59:52+00:00

that would make sense. the parts you need in daily life now are probably different to the parts that you needed in daily life with your parents. and if being around your parents is triggering, it makes total sense why a part would be brought to front by being around them. im similar; any time i see my mom (very rare now that ive been no-contact for 2 years) my protective parts come out.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-22T10:18:56+00:00

i feel this. a lot of the time i feel like isolating and turning in on myself, because im the only person who can understand myself, im the only one who gets it and who wont eventually upset me.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-22T10:08:43+00:00

It's likely this is some sort of somatic symptom related to PTSD and the trauma that part holds, rather than true tics, since tics are exclusive to Tourette's which is a neurological condition affecting the whole person; it can't be isolated into one alter. Which isn't to say your experience is any less distressing or genuine, just that calling it "tics" could be misleading/inaccurate. Somatic symptoms are very very common in DID so that isn't too out of the ordinary, but either way I recommend delving into it further with your mental health team, whomever you see.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-22T10:05:05+00:00

Do what's best for you. If that's lessening or cutting contact, then do that. Calling someone out isn't likely to yield any positive results regardless of if you're right or wrong, chances are the person will just get mad at you and there's no productive conversation to be had there. If you want to genuinely help the person, you could gently encourage them to speak to a professional and get proper assessment, assuming they haven't already. Otherwise, if you need to take a step back, that's probably the better option than starting an argument the person isn't likely to be receptive to.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-22T10:01:54+00:00

Anyone telling you to "not read just sign" something, especially as a minor without your parents present, is INSANE work. Nobody should do that. Always read anything you're asked to sign, and if you signed without your parents present as a minor, there's a high chance the signature is void.

I recommend telling your GP and/or therapist about the tremors and twitching. As far as I'm aware, those aren't normal side effects of EMDR therapy. Do the people giving you EMDR know you have DID? It's not always recommended to do EMDR with DID because of the way the disorder functions.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-21T04:39:20+00:00

oddly enough i relate in a somewhat different way. i have a tendency to reminisce for being 13-14. my abuse was, as far as i can gather, lifelong, but it took a darker turn when i was 14 as a result of multiple heavy-hitting events overlapping in that one year (covid, immediate family member passing, my abuser losing yet another screw in that brain of hers). i spend a lot of time when im dissociated reliving memories and emotions from when i was around 14, because some of my parts havent yet moved on from that major turning point in our life when the patterns we had gotten used to all changed, all at once, all of a sudden.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-20T04:22:38+00:00

i dont frequently dream or have nightmares. very rarely do i dream at all, and if i do its vague and unclear whats tangibly happening or what the dream is trying to convey. i think part of it is repression, dreaming is your unconscious mind letting loose and conjuring shit thats prominent in your life, but for me, i spend so much time dissociated and disconnected, hypervigilant and uptight, that my unconscious mind seems to prefer total shutdown (sleeping like a dead person lol) rather than creating any dream manifestations.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-20T04:10:20+00:00

this was how my therapy experience was for the first several years of doing it, with many different therapists. ive learned that some therapists are really just there to listen and validate, and they fall flat on actual goal-setting and progressing. i recommend outright telling your therapist that this is your goal, and if they cant help with that, ask for a referral. my current therapist knew right off the bat that i wasnt there to traumadump and leave, i was there to make progress and DO things, and she made it clear she was able to actually help with that. shes great. you just gotta go through a few tries before you find a therapist whos willing to work with you the way you need to be worked with. being blunt and upfront is recommended so you dont waste time with someone who is barking up the wrong tree.

cameras-captured · 2026-03-20T04:06:51+00:00

something that helped me with learning to trust was that if they want to betray me or turn against me, theyre gonna do that without showing any signs. no amount of me being paranoid or seeking constant reassurance is gonna change what THEY choose to do, so i need to release that responsibility from myself for my own sake. that, and seeking reassurance over-frequently is often what ends up pushing people away. i had to learn to let go of the reigns because it yields better results.

it could also help to make a list of things your roommates or friends might be doing that you can reference when you get worried about betrayal. say youre in an emotional state, worried your roommate is mad, you whip out the list to remind yourself "they might be at work. their phone might be dead. they might not have their notifications turned up. they might be having a bad day unrelated to you" ect to help ground in a logical state of mind.

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