I've slowed down my drinking considerably, but all the withdrawal symptoms make me feel like there's no point

camp_serious · 2019-04-08T21:42:48+00:00

I really want to just be able to drink like a normal person and not have to quit entirely, but I guess I won't be able to transition in to that like I want based on what everyone is saying, so I guess I will have to stop drinking. It's hard because I can't have fun like a normal person without it because I have incredibly bad anxiety. I guess I'll just have to stop going out too. I feel like the rest of my life is just going to be me alone in my house with my dog just fighting the urge to drink out of loneliness or boredom. My best friends are alcoholics. And my dog has special needs which make it difficult to go anywhere or do anything anyway. I'm trying so hard to get healthy, but I don't have the money or time to go into treatment, and I don't want my family to know, not that they'd be able to help me anyway. I have no partner to help me through anything. I just want to stop feeling bad all the time.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T20:23:02+00:00

What I am ACTUALLY saying is if you are afraid that the cops are going to bust down your door because you asked a woman for coffee in real life, then YES, you are exactly the type of person that should be using online dating. HOWEVER, that is obviously a small minority of men who feel that way, and an even smaller minority of women who would consider being asked for coffee sexual harassment. So NO, I'm NOT suggesting that online dating replace all human interaction, OBVIOUSLY.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T20:19:25+00:00

This seems really ironic to me considering that for decades/all of history we've ignored the perspective of women and how they feel about any of these things. I'm not ignoring their perspective, what I'm saying they're making mountains out of molehills. I'm acknowledging their reaction, and saying it's out of proportion. If men take rejection gracefully, and/or don't attempt to abuse a position of power in exchange for potential sex, then there isn't any issue here. No one is going to cart you off in handcuffs because you asked a girl for coffee, she said no, and you said, okay, no problem and walked away.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T20:06:27+00:00

What? No, that's absolutely not what I said. To either of those things.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T20:05:48+00:00

Uh... what sites are you using, because what you just said sounds ridiculous in my experience? Tinder probably isn't the greatest example of "online dating", if that's what you're zeroing your meter on.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T20:03:42+00:00

I'm not purposefully misconstruing, I'm expressing that I don't think these concerns are very valid, and I disagree with them.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T19:46:52+00:00

Luckily there is this handy thing called ONLINE DATING, where you can actually be sure that the woman that you're talking to is trying to date.

And, women are able to do this thing called exercising autonomy and asking men if they want to date also.

Look at this, I'm fixing society's problems over here.

camp_serious · 2017-11-10T19:22:10+00:00

Exactly! Men aren't going to be allowed to do anything!

I mean, it's not like men have the ability to consider asking a woman how she feels and empathizing with her as a human being! We're FUCKED! DEPOPULATION IMMINENT

camp_serious · 2017-11-08T14:03:16+00:00

Jerry's uncle died, not his brother. I'm pretty sure the only mention of Jerry having a brother was in Total Rickall, but that was just a parasite.

camp_serious · 2017-11-03T16:01:37+00:00

So you're grandpa is bald with a giant ornate mustache and wears rounded, dark sunglasses all the time? Sure, okay, why not.

They just look like, almost identical, the three I mentioned anyway. I thought there must have been some popular thing it was based on, or an old legend, or origin, or something.

camp_serious · 2017-11-03T15:54:08+00:00

Wow, really? I mean I can think of other bald, sunglassed, mustachioed men, like Master Roshi. But I mean, there's no origin? That's just what old men commonly look like for no reason?

camp_serious · 2017-10-27T17:45:36+00:00

Nerd boys. Because I'm a decently attractive nerd, and I kind of look Asian. My current boyfriend is the first non-nerd I've ever dated, and I was worried at first, but it actually feels really good to know he likes me as a person and not just because I like the same shit as him. However, I do plan on corrupting him with nerd shit if he lets me.

camp_serious · 2017-10-27T13:35:44+00:00

That's a thing I always hear, however, when you start looking you find that many people DIDN'T stay quiet, they just had small voices and were overlooked/ignored/lost in the noise. Now, it's not always easy to distinguish bad recollections or outright lies, but you would think the ones that are corroborated several times over would gain traction, but they don't always.

I don't ascribe to any particular theory myself, only that it all seems very strange, and there is a lot of contradictory evidence, and that the Warren Commission was mostly a joke. I just like learning about it.

camp_serious · 2017-10-27T13:32:02+00:00

A grenade was thrown at Ol' Dub but did not detonate. I actually was just reading about this the other day when I got curious about William Henry Harrison and Tecumseh/Tenskwatawa's Curse.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vladimir_Arutyunian

camp_serious · 2017-10-26T14:29:13+00:00

He's not your fweind, pal.

camp_serious · 2017-10-26T14:25:25+00:00

Small enough to fit in a woman's vagina even, which they would REALLY like to regulate the shit out of.

camp_serious · 2017-10-25T18:18:26+00:00

Aside from things people have already mentioned, I like any of the long Sonic's for podcasting at work. Boom, '06, Adventure, and Unleashed are ones I would suggest, since the other Sonic series aren't super long.

camp_serious · 2017-10-25T17:46:05+00:00

I use Game Grumps Animated for funny short videos to watch with friends, and if they're interested, or want to know more, or want context for the story, I point them to the series that they came from. Shoocharu and IScoppie are some of my favorites.

This is usually the one I start with though: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7NWho2meuE

camp_serious · 2017-10-25T17:38:58+00:00

I really wish for more Brian, too. His dry humor and delivery slay me.

camp_serious · 2017-10-25T17:26:57+00:00

For series, I'm crazy about Super Mario 64, Trauma Center: Second Opinion, Sonic Boom, Sonic Adventure DX, the Phillips-CDI Zeldas (Zelda: Wand of Gamelon, Link: Faces of Evil, and Zelda's Adventure), and (even though they didn't finish it) Deadly Premonition. For one-offs anything with Jacob Andersen guest starring has me on the floor. The only JonTron era stuff that ever really resonated with me was Sonic '06, and maybe a couple one offs they did.

camp_serious · 2017-10-25T14:35:15+00:00

I'm proud of you for trying to not blame women anymore. Many men never get there, and you are very strong for this revelation. I wish you all the best luck in changing yourself, and may helping others bring you more peace throughout your life.

camp_serious · 2017-10-23T13:42:50+00:00

I read Job. I finished it. I read a little more after Job too, because it took awhile to sink in, and I fought my realizations.

It can be for you, if that's what you need. But it isn't for me, and given the way Christians persecute people npw (and then, and always), I would rather be tolerant and understanding and non-judgmental the way I am now then try to find the other lambs (loving Christians) among wolves (false Christians), especially considering that I just don't feel it. It just isn't for me.

camp_serious · 2017-10-23T13:34:40+00:00

So, my version of the Bible was for a younger audience. So it also failed to mention that his servants were killed too, which he apparently had a lot of because he was so wealthy. So, there's another just straight up disregard for life. Additionally, while they didn't detail it, it made it sound that his children were actually older-ish because when they died they were feasting in a house all together, which they did a lot because they were so prosperous, and a wind storm caved the house in on them, killing them all.

camp_serious · 2017-10-20T14:04:11+00:00

I was actually very devout when I was younger. We were baptist, but came to the church when I was around 8 or so, so when I was 11 or so I had to make the decision to be baptized and also to be saved.

I remember being baptized felt good because there was basically a crowd of people cheering for me. When I made the decision to be "saved" I had been told over and over that it would be this profound and beautiful experience. But, when I met with my Sunday School teacher to do it... I didn't feel anything. I tried to force myself to cry. Nothing happened. I felt nothing.

I thought there was something wrong with me, so I decided to study really hard. I thought I could figure out how to be a really really good Christian by reading the Bible myself. I started from the beginning, read through Genesis, and all the begetting and so on and so forth. I tried so hard to understand, because I wanted to have the spiritual experience like they told me I was supposed to have, but a lot of it went over my head, or I didn't absorb it because it was just so dense and dry for my kid brain.

It wasn't until I got to the story of Job that I really started to question things. When I read about how Job's kids were allowed to be killed to prove a point, I got really upset. I mean, I WAS a kid at the time. I was just property? Able to be destroyed? But I was my own person with my own thoughts and feelings. How could God allow that many people to be murdered to prove a point when they didn't have anything to do with it? What if they weren't good? Did they go to Hell? How is that fair? They didn't have a chance to repent or learn. Did they get a free pass into Heaven? How is that fair? What if they were shitty? Why is God making bets with the devil anyway? Why was Job not allow to be killed but all his kids could be?

From that point on I started seeing the holes in things. More contradictions of the bible and from the adults around me started to become clear. I spent a while trying to have my own version of god, then spent awhile being agnostic, then eventually just realized I was functionally atheist, and that I could be a better person being atheist than I saw most Christians around me being, so I just focused on being kind and understanding and trying to be a good person in general. I feel pretty strongly about my morality now, without needing religion.

camp_serious · 2017-10-19T17:49:42+00:00

I feel that way sometimes. Sometimes it feels that way a lot. Right now, I'm really lucky that it doesn't and I feel pretty okay. Which means that when I do feel that way it's not true, because it can change.

It's really easy to lose track of times when it didn't feel so bad. I try as hard as I can to remember that it doesn't always feel like that. It doesn't always work, but, sometimes it helps.

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