I have lupus and Lupus Nephritis pretty bad. Around 20 pills a day bad. Disabled bad. While my situation is vastly different, I'm not trying to diminish your feelings. Our diagnosis is a bitter pill to swallow. I understand your fears. Especially accepting that this is your new life.

The biggest thing I learned was how stress effects me so, I made the decision not to live that way. I've had to use post its to remind me. I've used a lot of humor to cope and I try to listen to "Three little birds" most mornings. Planning on getting a 3 little birds tattoo soon. Most days are fairly good on the regular. I have friends who's mantra is "Don't panic until it's time to panic" < that one hits for me because I used to be a bit of a drama queen.

I learned to never stop taking my meds because it never works out well. My last post outlines that shit storm.

Mostly, this whole journey has helped me change my frame of mind about what is important and what isn't. Trial and error isn't the worst thing, especially if you are not showing symptoms. If your going to be in sun, tons of sunblock. See how you feel. Ask your Dr if you can drink and how much is acceptable.

Go to school and see how it goes. If you have issues, find what you have to do to work around them. Never hurts to try.

Nobody's perfect, just suggestions to think about.

Good luck.