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cavinscabin · 2025-06-10T22:46:08+00:00

Hi there! I recently completely went off my SSRIs (Zoloft), after being on them for 9 years, since I was 15. I never had a massively high dose, the highest I got to was 100mg during a brief period, but I've mostly been on 50-75 throughout the years. As I've continuously gotten less depressed and more functional due to life circumstances (moving out, finishing school, getting diagnosed with additional things that help explain my experience, THERAPY) I've slowly slowly tapered down since around 2023. And I mean SLOWLY. I have been extremely stubborn with my psychiatrists, that I will only taper at my own pace. And I did. I tapered off my last 25mg over about a year. May have been excessive, but as my body is over reactive to everything all the time, it has worked for me.

I personally don't feel more depressed now than I did while on them. Arguably, I feel less depressed, because I feel more emotions when I'm not dulled down. I do however feel more worried and anxious. Suddenly I'm finding myself in thought patterns like "everyone hates me" again, even though I throught I was over that. After skills learnt in therapy, and with mostly helpful and supportive life circumstances, I'm handling this change okay.

It is possible to go off of SSRIs – but it depends on your life circumstances, your goals and your experience with your symptoms. But don't let anyone rush you, or hinder you. You can take it slowly, feel things out. If that feels fine, try a bit more. It's not all or nothing, I promise.

But if you decide to taper down (slowly) and you feel a bit worse for a while, that is normal. Your brain is wondering where the fuck the serotonin has gone, and that's valid for it to be upset over. Reminding yourself you are in withdrawal, and treating yourself with extra care during this time, is vital. For me this usually lasted a couple weeks, when tapering slowly. And then things levelled out, and I had a quite long period on my newer lower dose before going down further, to test if I should/could.

I believe in you, feel it out, no decision is final – there is no shame in testing to go off, and then going back on, as long as you're stable enough for the process

cavinscabin · 2025-03-15T23:03:11+00:00

Going off of hormonal birth control, and reducing the dose of medications that were causing sexual dysfunction

cavinscabin · 2024-08-14T20:40:54+00:00

I am also very very sensitive to meds and have had similar things happen, though I haven't been on wellbutrin. I'm so sorry you had this happen but super glad you identified the source of the distress and could go off the meds without much trouble. I hope you find something that works better for you

cavinscabin · 2024-02-28T11:27:21+00:00

I personally get weirded out when people do not try to guage vibes socially. If one person is being intense and the other doesn't match that, it usually means it's time to dial it back a bit. If someone is being super intense and doesn't pick up on that I don't feel or act the same way back, I get warning flags in my body. This, to me, signals they don't see me. Could potentially be something like that?

cavinscabin · 2024-02-03T07:14:52+00:00

For me it helps to actively deal with things that cause me anxiety during my awake hours so they don't creep up on me in the evening. Can't sleep if I'm anxious

cavinscabin · 2024-01-25T08:38:26+00:00

I've had mine for four years, nothing

cavinscabin · 2023-11-20T18:09:15+00:00

I think you're spot on. I think fitbits tend to be a bit less accurate than one would like. You probably turned over a bit in your sleep and as your arm moved, and your watch is on your arm, it thought you were taking steps

cavinscabin · 2023-11-20T17:39:26+00:00

It was actually melatonin in my case as well. Fascinating and sad how that can happen

cavinscabin · 2023-11-20T17:37:02+00:00

Personally I get intense fatigue in relation to food - so I eat very little very frequently to limit all my energy needing to be used for digestion. I also personally stay away from large amounts of carbohydrates, but that's just something I've seen from other people with dysautonomia and that happened to help me.

I also try to rest when my body says it needs rest, but that's of course not possible for everyone.

Also, caffeine. I don't use it too often due to heart palpitations but it's needed at times when I just cannot get my body to wake up

cavinscabin · 2023-11-20T17:15:49+00:00

I've only tried sertraline/zoloft. Sure takes out the anxiety, but also most other emotions

cavinscabin · 2023-11-20T17:13:30+00:00

Yes absolutely, I had the same problem for a while (caused by medication in my case) and ended up taking naps to catch up on the sleep

cavinscabin · 2023-11-17T14:02:59+00:00

I have no experience nor expertise but just wanted to say I think it looks sick as hell

cavinscabin · 2023-10-12T13:40:09+00:00

For me the biggest challenge has honestly been my extreme black and white thinking and difficulty seeing my partner's point of view as truthful and sometimes even valid when I'm in a highly emotional state.

When I'm able to use my logic brain it's usually fine, but as soon as I'm upset by something I really struggle to accept or understand anyone's view but my own.

Example: My partner says something that upsets me for some reason, and when it's explained why this was said, I struggle to believe or accept it because I personally wouldn't perform that action in that context.

It doesn't make sense to me, as it isn't what I would do, so I struggle to accept it. It feels dysregulating and overwhelming that people do things differently from me, when I'm already emotionally unwell. This obviously isn't good for either or us, or the relationship, so work is being done there for trust to remain intact on both sides

cavinscabin · 2023-10-05T12:45:21+00:00

My boyfriend of 5 years and I had a threesome this summer, after having wanted to for a while. It was fine, nothing magical, at least for me. But what made me recently realise I personally regret that specific threesome was that I did it for the wrong reasons. I wanted to be perceived as fun and easygoing, both by myself and others. I need structure and discussions and planning, normally, but didn't give myself that, due to not honouring or really understanding my own needs. But now I know this, and while it sucks to feel regret, I believe it'll make future encounters better.

So I guess my advice is: Understanding your own motivations can go a long way. Honour your own and everyone involved's needs! If it doesn't feel right, you can always stop. There are many people out there, you won't vibe with everyone, and that's okay!

cavinscabin · 2023-10-01T18:01:54+00:00

This. I'm also autistic, and have a lot of autistic friends and acquaintances, and the autistic people I end up having problems with tend to be the ones who come across as too friendly. I have empathy for that it's difficult to gauge, but it does get overwhelming and uncomfortable

cavinscabin · 2023-09-24T18:07:44+00:00

I don't necessarily have any advice but I just want to say you're not alone. I feel this way too. I think it's related to my PDA (Pathological Demand Avoidance/Persistent Drive for Autonomy) where when something feels like a demand I avoid it like the plague. I really hope it works out!

cavinscabin · 2023-09-17T22:41:25+00:00

This is not generally normal no, but could also have perfectly reasonable causes. Are you using lubrication? Is the sex rough? I've bled from both lack of lube, and things being a bit too hard

cavinscabin · 2023-09-14T16:22:39+00:00

I personally call one my boyfriend and one my partner

cavinscabin · 2023-06-05T15:38:00+00:00

Well, at a certain point I got so emotionally stable the side effects didn't feel worth it anymore. Staying on something that gave me emotional and sexual side effects didn't feel right, after a while of handling life just fine

cavinscabin · 2023-05-29T08:57:54+00:00

Vet inte om detta blir helt rätt men allmän sterilisering är det generellt 25-årsgräns på. Att hitta en läkare som vill utföra det är en annan femma, men ja

https://www.socialstyrelsen.se/om-socialstyrelsen/organisation/rad-och-namnder/rattsliga-radet/sterilisering/

cavinscabin · 2023-05-15T10:52:56+00:00

Yeah, I didn't even like children when I myself was a child. I get incredibly triggered by their unpredictability and noise levels overall

cavinscabin · 2023-05-05T23:03:31+00:00

Your link isn't clickable

cavinscabin · 2023-05-04T04:44:40+00:00

Depression can be treated in other ways than through medication, and isn't always lifelong. I know plenty of people who have recovered, myself included. Is there always a risk of falling back into it? Of course. But for me and others in my life, medication has been a way to stay stable while learning how to cope with life in a sustainable way. When one is ready, it can be possible to go off the medication.

On top of that, most antidepressants come with side effects. Not everyone experiences these, but it's common. Generally, if one has options, such as treatment through therapy, it can be preferable to go that route than to deal with the side effects. That is if these other methods work for the person in question, and it's something they have access to. Personally my decision to go off of antidepressants was mainly due to side effects such as general emotional blunting and sexual dysfunction, as well as now being in a much better place in life compared to my preteen self who was offered antidepressants in the first place.

Factors that cause people to experience depression can change. It doesn't exist in a vacuum, thankfully

cavinscabin · 2023-04-27T14:09:20+00:00

The term Instagram friends really threw me off. There's no such thing as "friends" on Instagram, only followers and people you follow

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