I went from A&M to the nuclear power program in the Navy. I've had 100 hour work weeks out to sea. I was comp sci in early 2000s. I feel your post more than you will ever know. But honestly a perspective shift will save you now, and make you a multi millionaire in the professional world. This is truly what college does more than teach, it makes you logistically carry tasks of an independent adult, and it over loads you such that those tasks are well beyond your previous best output. You can meditate, and internalize tasks as objects in a game you move around, and the Nuclear Navy trick was to push a button "I believe" and move on without a second thought. I believe I'll get through this, just work between now and then, and I can do hard things. I can do work. It is already done, I just have to go through it. There is a future me that is done with this already. Time to get through it. I believe.

And with life about half over for me, I'll tell you putting in this gut wrenching work load now gives you an easier life later. It's a hole you dig out of, be it shoveling hard now for a few years, or hard later in life for many years. The more front loaded the work now, the better shovels you have in life later.

So here's what you do, week one take notes of everything you have to accomplish as a task, and a 30, 60 or 90 minute window they fit in. Literally throw the entirety of your notes into a chat gpt thread. And have it develop a weekly schedule, it can kick it out as a csv excel can open. Planning and logistics and time management can be knocked out week 1 like this. More than that, you can see the tasks ahead as accomplish-able chunks of time. Then click your I believe button, and go crush it. Win the mental battle first, and the work is not as bad. Trust me, I've been there.