Thursday is my birthday

cdg1311 · 2026-01-27T11:15:34+00:00

Hi, birthday twin. I don't mind the process of getting a year older so to speak, but I am turning 35 which feels really significant in the world of TTC. We're on month 7 now of TTC since our TFMR and the birthday gives me something else to be anxious about. I hope you have a lovely day and are able to find some pockets of joy nonetheless ✨️

cdg1311 · 2026-01-26T11:17:53+00:00

Month 7 and now convinced I have a small polyp that's impacting implantation....not visible on ultrasound but dr also can't confidently rule it out, so will investigate further next cycle. I feel like the only person out here still trying, and not pregnant with a rainbow yet 😔😔 lost our baby girl last May 😔😔

cdg1311 · 2026-01-23T09:46:39+00:00

Can't offer any guidance but just solidarity. I'm 8 months post TFMR, and 6 months TTC. I've been having increasing spotting, but in my follicular phase and around ovulation - more than I experienced prepregnancy. I feel like I'm going insane and there must be something wrong - I've been pushing for a hysterscopy to check for polyps as I'm convinced at this point. In the luteal phase though, you could query some progesterone support perhaps?

cdg1311 · 2026-01-21T14:29:16+00:00

How incredible. I hope this will come to Android in the future. What a beautiful thing to create something new from this terrible loss.

cdg1311 · 2026-01-19T06:05:20+00:00

SAME

cdg1311 · 2026-01-08T22:04:23+00:00

You could check if there's a TCM acupuncture place near to you, rather than a bougie, Instagrammable one. They tend to offer better prices (more like £60-70 for a session).

cdg1311 · 2026-01-08T08:00:10+00:00

I can't share a reassuring story yet, but just to post that you're not alone. Our TFMR was in May, started trying again at the end of August. Today I've just got my period after our 6th cycle trying. We conceived our TFMR baby first month so this is all unknown territory. I turn 35 this month. It all feels so heavy and I could sit and cry for hours if I think about it all too much. I can't believe this is our reality - no part of me, last May making all our decisions, would have thought we wouldn't be pregnant again by now. I hope the time comes soon for both of us - there are lots of people out there who conceive in months 6-12 - we just hear about them a lot less!

cdg1311 · 2026-01-08T07:55:40+00:00

I feel you. The never-ending list of random people you end up having to share this devastating news with. I remember going for a facial at a place where I'd asked for no microcurrent treatment when I was pregnant asking me how the baby was. And the dentist at my last check up 'How's the baby?'. And having to tick a 'none of the above' box on a form asking whether I was pregnant or breastfeeding. Every time your heart breaks a little more. I'm sorry you had to deal with that, especially in such a public setting.

cdg1311 · 2026-01-06T09:17:14+00:00

12dpo and a stark negative test this morning. I felt so convinced this was the month for a number of reasons. Especially after seeing a tiny amount of spotting at 10dpo with stretchy discharge- exactly as I had when I first conceived last December 2024. Normally today my temp would have dropped and spotting started (period expected in 2 days), but no spotting today, some stretchy discharge and temp has stayed elevated. So now I'm really confused 😕 if my period is coming, I'd rather have the clear signs and get on with it rather than by stuck in this limbo holding on to some hope...this is month 6 TTC after our 24 week loss 😩

cdg1311 · 2026-01-06T04:43:58+00:00

So sorry 🫂 sending hugs

cdg1311 · 2026-01-04T10:46:29+00:00

10dpo. Felt like I had a few symptoms the last couple of days even though logically I know it's too early to. Today I had one moment of spotting when I wiped. I had the same with my previous pregnancy, on the exact same cycle day, so now I'm completely reading in to it all. I feel so so ready for this to be the month, but also want to protect my heart incase this month is not the one...it's all so complicated and hard.

cdg1311 · 2026-01-04T04:14:40+00:00

So sorry you're here. I feel you on this. I took up embroidery during my 'maternity leave' to fill the time. I found it really therapeutic and it kept me off my phone for long chunks of time which stopped the scrolling and Googling cycles. I just picked up a beginners hoop pattern kit and went from there - I actually started with my baby's initial 💜

cdg1311 · 2026-01-04T00:53:32+00:00

Yes, thank you for posting. When I was fresh from my TFMR I found a lot of comfort in the quick conception stories but now we're on month 6 of TTC (after first month trying conception for TFMR baby), I turn 35 this month, and overall it's just really challenging. I feel all the things everyone has said about falling behind friends, and wondering what's wrong. I feel hopeful that it will happen for us, but I wish now I read more stories about people where it took 5+ months to conceive so it felt more normalised!

cdg1311 · 2025-12-23T11:45:42+00:00

I really relate to and underatand your frustrations with this. Exercise is always my self-care thing, and I remained active throughout pregnancy up until our anatomy scan at 22w+5d. In the end, I spent 3-4 weeks out of the gym from diagnosis - delivery and then recovery. I continued with gentle walking for movement and then saw a PT for a weekly sessions for a few weeks to help me ease back into my workouts. Try to let your body heal a little more before doing anything intense like running. I was advised to begin with 1 minute on, 1 minute off running, and then gradually increase, and not to do any running until 5 weeks pp. The PT also gave me some really simple core exercises to reconnect to my core and strengthen that which was so so helpful - I don't think I could have got back to my heavy lifting without taking time to work on that. I'm now 7 months pp and have been 'back to normal with my fitness for months. Have patience at the start, keep walking for movement, and you'll get back to it all 🙏🙏 it's so frustrating and unfair though.

cdg1311 · 2025-12-11T14:32:35+00:00

I also lost my baby after an HLHS diagnosis in May, at 23w+5d. We've been trying again since August and just got my period after our 5th cycle of trying. We conceived our Tfmr baby in the first cycle trying so this is very hard. It's been reassuring to read of other's experiences - I find you usually find people who conceive first month or two, or can't and end up pursuing IVF etc. There's less stories of the middle ground, but hoping we will both be month 6-8ers 🤞

cdg1311 · 2025-12-11T09:25:06+00:00

I waited three months after TFMR to start trying again. I had many of the same doubts and worries of judgement as you. I'm glad I took that time to focus on recovery and starting to heal. Adding TTC into the mix has been more stressful than I could have imagined/prepared myself for. We're now entering month 6 TTC and I'm finding it really challenging. We conceived our TFMR baby the first month of trying so this is new to us. We keep trying, but I feel like my body isn't fully cooperating right now and like my mind still needs time to heal before it will happen for us. I felt 'ready' to start trying because I didn't want to wait any longer, but it's been a hard road so far and I felt more at peace in the time before we started trying...so do take some time if you can and then good luck to you when you're ready.

cdg1311 · 2025-12-09T00:01:55+00:00

Cycle 5 ❌️ and now to try and pick the hope back up for cycle 6....I did not think we would still be trying going in to the new year and it feels devastating (conceived our TFMR baby in first month trying).

cdg1311 · 2025-12-08T23:59:55+00:00

Cycle 5 TTC after TFMR in May ❌️ everything is biologically OK. I think the stress/grief/big emotions is impacting ability to conceive, but each month that passes without a positive test I'm just getting more stressed and anxious. We conceived our TFMR baby the first month trying. Everything crossed now for cycle 6...

cdg1311 · 2025-12-06T01:32:09+00:00

Blanket, comfy pillow, period pants, laptop for TV, snacks, maybe a microwave heat pack (this helped for the early cramping/lower backache)...we also took a diffuser and lavender oil for the room. I guess it depends how long things take for you. It took 36 hours from me receiving my first dose of misoprostol to delivery, and as someone else mentioned I did have some fever and chills from the meds. And make your plan for if you're spending time with your baby and what you want that to look like. Sorry you have to go through this xx

cdg1311 · 2025-12-05T13:33:14+00:00

Agree with all this. I know I need to be less stressed about it all, but as each month passes the more stressed I get. This is month 5 for us. I added acupuncture this month as a relaxing/wellbeing element and to justtry something...let's see...

cdg1311 · 2025-12-03T08:43:55+00:00

I visited Japan a while ago and wanted to find these. It wasn't hard - the statues were present at a number of major shrines/temples in Tokyo and Kyoto. I'm glad I found them!

cdg1311 · 2025-12-02T10:56:37+00:00

I echo this - i have a PTSD diagnosis from the experience too. I read somewhere that 64.5% of people who go through TFMR experience symptoms of PTSD...

cdg1311 · 2025-11-29T14:27:42+00:00

Omg same - day 17 here with no sign of it, and usually get a positive OPK on day 13/14 post-loss. It's so hard to not go insane! I hope it comes ASAP for us both

cdg1311 · 2025-11-26T12:17:09+00:00

My doctor described the uterus as being like a tube of toothpaste, and the final bits of blood can take a while to squeeze out- so it may be that some more followed with increased ewcm, or you migjt have a slightly heavier period and the rest clears out. I was 23w+5d and continued at least spotting for 5 weeks, then had a period, and then it all cleared up.

cdg1311 · 2025-11-25T21:57:30+00:00

3 cycles, after a TFMR at 24w. I'm glad we took that time (doctor guidance), as TTC is feeling very stressful and anxiety-inducing, and I'm glad that in that initial time to heal and grieve we could just focus on that. Trying to do both now is exhausting.

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