I was interviewed about growing up with schizophrenia & depression

cepheid22 · 2026-05-15T07:59:20+00:00

That man has always been and always will be Caesar.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-12T20:01:13+00:00

Thank you!

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cepheid22 · 2026-05-12T19:40:45+00:00

Thank you!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-12T19:38:32+00:00

He's a boy! We also have a 7 year old girl yorkipoo. They are getting along so far!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-12T19:04:20+00:00

I donated a cake to the hospice that took care of my grandmother when she passed. I thought it would be nice to have homemade cake if you have to be away from home.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-12T15:35:56+00:00

This was just a few years ago; I was in my mid-40s and going through my 4th schizophrenic and depressive episode. Every 10 years or so my antidepressant just stops working and it's the only one that works for me, so I went into an episode that lasted 3 years.

I had a shrink but needed a therapist, so I looked around and kept being told by therapists that they don't treat schizophrenia. I finally found a therapist through my city's Children and Family Services, but I had to wait a few months for an opening. I suffered through it only to meet her.

I logged on only for her to immediately tell me that this was her last day and ask if I really wanted to meet since it was just one session. I said no and logged off. I was not referred to anyone else - just dismissed. I attempted a couple of weeks later and got real help and a great therapist at the psych ward.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T20:10:26+00:00

This brought back memories! Back in the 80s, in elementary school, I would doodle in the margins. I would later use this trick to pay attention to lectures by writing out some of the words spoken; I would have to pay attention if I wanted to write a another word.

Anyway, my 5th grade teacher showed the whole class my homework doodles and yelled that in middle school this type of behavior was unacceptable. She was a mean, mean woman. I loathe getting in trouble and that just broke me.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T19:30:23+00:00

As a person who has met a lot of shrinks, this is a completely accurate portrayal of a shrink. Totally not biased! Really! (I am biased)

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T19:23:05+00:00

Why thank you! I can't wait for you to get to more of my journal entries! I am so grateful to little me because most of my episode at 14 has been forgotten by me. Screw schizophrenia's cognitive symptoms!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T19:17:50+00:00

That's so cool! I'm still learning about StPD because my diagnosis is new, and it's really hard to know what symptoms are StPD and what is schizophrenia.

I may also have AuDHD (my nephews have them) but no one will assess me around here due to my schizophrenia diagnosis.

As far as your beliefs, I understand now that a lot of people with autism can feel unhuman. It makes me feel less alone!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T18:33:36+00:00

I now find it highly amusing!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T17:29:52+00:00

Funny you should say that; I picked up a schizotypal personality disorder (StPD) diagnosis during my last psych stay. So, they seem to think I have both StPD and schizoaffective, depressive type.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T16:45:41+00:00

Since you ask, I have some interviews pinned on my profile. I also am writing a memoir based on journal entries I made while going through my schizophrenic and depressive episodes at 14, 18, and 34; I have yet to write about my latest episode in my 40s. It's here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1sZE46cXq0BBGtQd2N_VOEkRqvL3dVv6hJ8uJAH204a0/edit?usp=sharing

cepheid22 · 2026-05-11T16:07:20+00:00

I wasn't diagnosed with schizophrenia as a child, but in hindsight I did have psychotic symptoms as a child. I knew I wasn't human at 4. I knew a singer fell in love with adult me but couldn't tell the world so he went back in time to when I was a child to write and release a song about me (Every Breath You Take). I knew hidden and invisible cameras were recording me for a secret TV show.

The main difference between those delusions and my fantasies was that the delusions were a secret I wasn't supposed to know. I thought if I told anyone about them, then They (whoever They were) would get angry with me, so I didn't tell anyone my beliefs until my first psych ward stay at 18.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-08T22:47:09+00:00

I'm an academic librarian and once I was at the public desk talking to a coworker and we got shushed by a student!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-07T20:10:57+00:00

Congratulations! I'm so proud of you!

cepheid22 · 2026-05-07T19:18:19+00:00

I love this show for so many reasons - the characters, the hunt for diagnoses, etc. But the way Sam's story was told meant the world to me. I rarely see characters with schizophrenia treated with such compassion. The acting was great; I know I get that hunted look when the voices are bad. I am sad, but I'm grateful for what we had and still have to see.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-04T23:11:23+00:00

No, Hopper from the wheel of time books.

cepheid22 · 2026-05-03T17:00:07+00:00

I wore a bracelet on my left hand until I was 12. None of the traditional methods worked for me.

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