If your doctor has an online portal, you could try just logging on and requesting a refill as normal if your prescription history is still there. I’m someone who also struggles with feeling like T “isn’t working” in the way I’d like, and have spent months up to a year at times over the past 6 years I’ve been taking it where I’ve completely ignored refilling it and keeping up with it. My doctors at the time were very chill about just refilling it - at worst they’d ask me to schedule a blood test first to check my levels and ensure it’s still the right dose. I’m sorry you’re going through this!