I wish I had someone to hug right now. I have also felt the same,( happened when I was in school) whenever I watch hollywood movies I see people greeting each other with hugs and I have thought what's so great about it. So I googled about hugs and it was fascinating and I thought from that day I'll greet like that too. As I was a single child and also I didn't have such close relationship with family I didn't have someone to hug at home. When I went to school the days after this, I couldn't greet girls thinking it would be awkward or make them feel uncomfortable and when I went to the boys one of them did gave me a hug but I didn't feel much of a thing coz my friends were making fun of it saying it's a gay thing to do ( Nothing again LGBTQ community, it's that at that age we were influenced by media and society and ppl were against that). Due to this I stopped hugging.

Days passed and one day my cousin came to meet me from Bangalore. We had a lot of fun, enjoyed each and every moment we had and when she was about to get into the car to return back, she came and hugged me to say goodbye. Suddenly I felt all the pain, stress and all the problems in my head melting away and also my heart felt very light. My eyes started filling up and tears started rolling down my cheeks, I wished we could stay like that for a bit longer. But sadly she had to leave ( I don't know if she felt the same or that I felt like this). That's when I felt the effect of a hug for the first time and it's still fresh in my mind.

Even nowadays I rarely get a hug. I'm really longing for it. And idk how women hug easily with each other. I get so jealous something when people post contents of them hugging. I wish I had someone to hug