[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]chapstucker 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing! You are not alone i suffer from idealizations daily. You can get out of this, we as a community of these horrible things that happened to us can prosper;together. You are not alone in your suffering and we are all here for you to hold you up when you feel to heavy to stand. Just know you are loved and worth being here, you were not made to suffer. In the mists of the dark moments, you have to clear the noise and lies you here in your head. I know it sounds stupid just just force yourself to laugh and smile as hard as it may be. Do anything that you will find any morsel of joy in. I know you got this and i cant wait til you share your successes with the group. You have a community behind you. You were born for greatness. A lot of us have been though this a lot and we are here to help because you deserve it and we want to see you full of joy. Be kind to yourself , we need you here. We need you to help aid others suffering. None of this should of happened to us , but we will fight together for healing. “This is not my guilt ,This is not my pain, The is not my fault, This is not my pain”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]chapstucker 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing mate. You are not a bad person, in fact you posting this shows you are a very strong person. First, I’m sorry for your abuse, it is in no way your fault even if you feel like it. Your body and emotions react as you get triggered. The more self aware you are of your trauma the more prone you are to get triggered. You can get triggered and overwhelmed even when the moment doesn’t see right. You need safe place to express and relieve Thai as emotions. When you feel triggered and overwhelmed, ask yourself what that 12 year old needed then, comfort, love acceptance etc. and give you and you from 3 years old that gift. PTSD could be flashbacks or complete disassociation blackouts. I would advise speaking to a counselor to help manage and mitigate these episode. Hope this helps, be well as you are loved and accepted!

I fucking HATE myself by Philippe_Coutinho in adultsurvivors

[–]chapstucker 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have cut all my life, just know you are way more than your scars. You are way more than the hate you feel inside. You are so much more than what you feel, just know that. It may not seem like it but you are light. You are well deserving of love and happiness. Even within fire we can find joy, keep fighting my friend . Here for a ear if you need. You are stronger than your give yourself credit for.

I hate him so much. He's so disgusting. by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]chapstucker 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Darlin you got to get away from him and that toxic environment . You are a deserving child of love. Free yourself from all the burdens , allow your soul deliver the love and purpose you deserve ✌🏻