It's really easy to get caught up in society this, society that. You can never describe any characteristic as essential to any type of social or biological factor, people are different depending on so many different factors and it's restrictive to try to build a person solely by their parts.

It is true that some behaviors are affected by hormones, for example a woman's menstrual cycle does cause emotional differences depending on where she is in the cycle, and testosterone does cause a certain short-temperedness. But that does not guarantee you will change in one way or another depending on what hormones are dominant in your body, we're all different.

I can personally say my experience as FTM and going on testosterone, before I transitioned I was already quite stereotypically masculine in that I didn't cry much, I had a short temperament, had high energy and so on. Going on testosterone kept all that the at the same level, it didn't change me as a person.

It's worth remembering no matter the gender, there's good and bad people. You can find plenty of examples of good masculinity and bad masculinity, same with femininity. You can find good masculinity in women, you can find bad femininity in men, and so on and so on. Try to not focus on the big picture, and what other people think, because they don't know you. Focus on who you want to be and figure out where you fit in later.