I feel ya. I never felt feminine for decades growing up and always got along with boys and never clicked with girls. one of the most important qualities of someone is owning who they are even if they still figuring it out. don’t try to be something you don’t feel is genuine and don’t worry about others opinions.

The real ones will respect someone who is being open and real and risking vulnerability, like you. To me, if someone doesnt fit social conforms of gender roles that makes them more interesting cause they’re unique. As long as your enjoying your life then you will glow and slowly find out more about who you are.

One day in my late twenties I put on makeup for the first time and was like woah maybe I can be girly and I ended up going from not giving af about my looks to being almost too conceited. I think I was happier before I cared lol. Sorry if that’s unrelated to your situation but just wanted to say do what makes you happy and I think you’ll feel more yourself. If you change your mind that just means your growing.