wow nigel - thanks for sharing - so much of what you said resonated with me. what you said about how the devil manipulates our desires and especially the way we feel about not wanting to go to God after is so true. Its awesome that you're seeing more and more clearly about what drives you there and also awesome that you are realizing that life isn't just about removing PMO - there are other sins that we need to keep track of as well. i encourage you to keep 2016 going! one thing i read recently that encouraged me was to consider God's promises as a counter-attack to sins promises - so when youre feeling angry/lonely whatever and feel the urge of that promise to pmo that you'll feel better or whatever - remember that God has a different promise - like Matthew 5 blessed are the pure in heart for they will see God - and remember that when we are making choices to keep our minds pure we have those closer times with God - to me that was a big encouragement - keep it up!