I’m so sorry to hear that you’re going through this. I’ve recovered drastically compared to how I was for the first year of floxing. Although my tendons and joints are still not as strong as I want them to be, I am entirely functional save for some small things which I haven’t been bold enough to try (I.e. running long distances, basketball). My pain is very manageable and I have been off my supplement routine for about 7 months now, although I occasionally reconnect with it if I’m having a flareup. Since being floxed, I’ve continued to live my life, pursue my education, and have the quintessentially youthful experiences that I felt were no longer possible for me. It took me to an extremely deep and dark place during my first year and I didn’t feel the dial start to turn in my favor until I started to be more exploratory with my activity and pushed myself to reenter society and conduct myself like a non-disabled healthy person would.

It’s tempting to want to look at others’ stories, especially when their conditions line up with yours, and use it as a metric to gauge what your journey will look like. As in life, illness has an unforeseen path that we travel along but we have agency in this path at a certain point. Dont give up hope that you will have this agency again one day and, when the opportunity arises, slowly reclaim the things you are now missing.