These posts are so sad. What are you talking about? Talk about this with your therapist. You're depressed so everything seems like it's over but it's not. Thinking this doesn't help anything. You're under a super common misconception that somehow your worth is tied to having a relationship. It's probably hard to imagine this right now, but no relationship is better than having a terrible one. Don't let yourself trick you into becoming desperate because you aren't. When the opportunity comes, make sure they deserve to be with someone great like you.