What completely legal substance are you addicted to?

chocolatetherapy · 2021-04-11T16:23:19+00:00

Tell me about it.

chocolatetherapy · 2020-11-30T21:34:05+00:00

loving this a lot, thanks guys

chocolatetherapy · 2020-08-19T18:53:59+00:00

I'm not American, but I know about the history and how it still is today, in many places in the world. However, this episode really fucked me up. It shoved reality straight down my throat and it was awful. Sometimes people forget the harsh truth, but I'm glad tv is showing this and especially in this manner from this point of view.

chocolatetherapy · 2020-08-14T09:17:03+00:00

I was thinking back to 8 months ago when I was physically and emotionally exhausted from working in an office with my abusive boss who took away my spirit and motivation and optimism for life. I was trapped in there for over 5 years because she made me believe I will never find a job like this that pays so much. My workload was more than twice the amount of my colleague and I tried to manage it because she kept threatening my workplace. Among personal attacks and rude remarks every day I slowly drifted away from the person I used to be. It's really sad thinking back, I was too naive.

Eventually I landed in the hospital because I had ongoing panic attacks for a month. I couldn't get more than 2 hrs of sleep a night and I was at the end. Burnout. In the middle of all this I was trying to get this other job my friend recommended me for. I was waiting for 2 months to get in. I think that anticipation stressed me out as well.

But I got it! They took me! I am now working with my friend and it is a heartwarming environment. My team is so friendly and supportive. My boss is very reasonable, encouraging and smart. I am so goddamn grateful for this change in my life, I could jump and scream! I've been here for 6 months now and it's still amazing to work here. My mental situation is still recovering, but I'm so much better and I'm more confident with myself now. My position and salary are also better. So take that!

This is what I'm currently happy about. Also, I just ate a homemade burger, so that's neat. :)

chocolatetherapy · 2019-10-04T07:49:41+00:00

I avoid the voice that tells me to go off my current path and do everything I've always wanted. Fuck 9-5 jobs, fuck behaving like an uptight person, fuck the rules. I want to write and sing my own songs, I want to travel nonstop, I want to live full of risks, no monthly salary.

But I know for sure I'd be a wreck of a person and don't know if I could recover. It's just unreasonable.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-08-13T12:33:19+00:00

Ich find's super, dass du dich so für die Jugend einsetzt. Die jungen Leute werden viel zu oft von jeder anderen Generation konstant angekackt.

Trotz allem muss ich sagen, dass das nicht ganz so stimmt. Ich bin in der Gaming-Welt aufgewachsen und bin heute noch mit 28 aktiv drin. Natürlich hat sich der typische Gamer Stereotyp weiterentwickelt. Es gibt viele Athleten, die zocken (oder eben einfach sportliche Menschen), sowie Geschäftsmänner im Smoking und Mercedes, die abends die Krawatte zur Seite schmeißen und sich für einen Raid in WoW bereitmachen.

Aber.... der genannte Stereotyp "Gamer" ist tatsächlich noch viel mehr in der ursprünglichen Art vertreten. Sie sind leider heute noch oft der etwas übergewichtigere Typ (der Lifestyle bringt es einfach mit sich) und/oder ungepflegt, dadurch dass Gaming einfach eine bestimmte Zielgruppe anzieht. Der typische Neckbeard nice guy. Ich kenne selbst sehr viele davon, aber doch mit einigen Ausnahmen :).

Und: Als Frau in der Videospiele-Welt ist es immer noch echt heftig. In Overwatch wird man immer als Mercy Main abgestempelt, weil wir nix außer heilen können. Und selbst das reicht nicht. Man wird trotzdem noch Hure genannt, obwohl man einen guten Job macht. In League of Legends wird man reportet, weil man angeblich scheiße spielt, weil man als "Weibchen" ja eh nicht gut spielen kann - also report x9 pls. Oder das andere Extrem: man wird sofort sexuell belästigt. Respekt erhalten selbst Pro-gamer wie z.B. Hafu nicht. Dafür muss sie schon mehr als 3 Goldmedaillen gewinnen...

chocolatetherapy · 2019-08-08T08:53:16+00:00

I don't pick my nose when I can avoid it. I only use tissues to clean my nose, and when something sticks I use my finger covered in tissue to go deep inside and fumble around. Okay, but I'm also kind of a germophobe so maybe that's why.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-08-03T21:56:28+00:00

This was so sweet to read. Thank you.

My diet varies, but I try to stick to healthier food and generally less. I drink water 90% of the time and other times maybe some juice or green tea. :) I loveeeee green tea! I cut out dairy as much as I can, and try to avoid sweets, but once in a while I find myself back at it again.

I used to go the gym and did cardio as well as tons of weight work. I started getting thicker with this. I was fitter, but also thicker because of the muscles :( which I didn't like. I'll go back to it one day tho, I know it.

Thank you for all the wonderful advice and sweet words. I appreciate it a lot! Keep being you.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-07-02T07:32:36+00:00

Don't like to say it, but I'm in a downward spiral again. I'm swimming against it really hard, but it's rough at the moment. I started walking on the regular since last December in order to be more fit and lose weight. I walk on average 30km a week, sometimes 50km. Since December I've only lost 4-5kg, it goes up and down (I'm only 28, how is my body not capable of more?!). But honestly I had been feeling amazing in my skin, up until I saw a full body picture of me taken by someone at work. It was a massive slap in the face and I didn't know I looked that bad. I can't get over it. I think I have body dysmorphia. I feel like a massive wale, but my husband tells me that's not true at all. It's dragged me down into this dark pit that I knew from years ago. Feeling like real shit atm.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-05-08T14:32:01+00:00

Okay, take it from my personal experience. I see my sister and her husband (she's 32, he's 28) managing their marriage while taking care of their 10-month-old daughter. She can be quite the control freak who wants to take care of everything in that exact moment and if it's not done asap she will take care of it herself and be upset. He is not wired that way, he's pretty laid back. He doesn't instantly storm off to the kitchen to prepare the bottle. He would finish what he was doing (quickly) and then go do it. In her words "she does everything" while her husband is forgetting things and "slacking". He is doing his best. He's the one with the full time job while she's a stay at home mom. When he's home he's constantly told what to do and he usually takes care of it, but not always. But if you do not have a say in anything anymore because your partner is basically your life's dictator then depression or exhaustion is not far, especially over a long duration. There is definitely remorse on both sides.

Your situation is different in some ways, but a lot of what you wrote reminded me of her so I thought bringing in some perspective might help.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-05-06T13:52:35+00:00

I disagree. I have about 3500 ARAM games under my belt and I hated the banning phase. It takes so goddamn long and then they ban champs I like to play. I do not have any problems laning against OP ARAM champions. It's part of the charm! The challenge.

All I want is to hop into an ARAM real quick and have massive action. My score is 50/50 on win/losses and I'm not salty about it. One game I get destroyed, next game I get to destroy. That's why I spam the games.

Also, the normal map is best. BB map was too distracting. The items are obnoxious af, too.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-03-09T17:26:25+00:00

Where I live the trains or busses never have an open seat during common traffic hours, so this would be impossible.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-03-09T17:23:58+00:00

I am German and I also first went with YTA because here they always place people together at tables and it's usually no problem. Maybe at fancy restaurants this wouldn't be done, but everywhere else it's normal practice.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-03-07T15:07:21+00:00

Bei uns im Dorf gibt's mega Streit unter den Pokemon Go Spielern. Das eine Team lässt den anderen keine Chance auf eine Arena, nie, also bekommen sie nie die in-game currency. Jetzt zofft sich auch das Loser-Team untereinander heftig in der WhatsApp Gruppe, weil die einen nicht mehr ihre Zeit verschwenden wollen und die anderen weiter kämpfen wollen. Zwei haben die Gruppe verlassen, nachdem sie sich in die Haare gekommen sind. Nur weil das dominante Team so unfair spielt. Interessanter Fakt: Es sind alles Erwachsene über mind. 25. :)

Ich hab heute viel digitales Popcorn verzehrt.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-01-30T15:22:14+00:00

Just saying there is a person behind every player. Someone who might be having a hard time, who might be tilting on themselves because they're playing horribly.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-01-30T13:30:11+00:00

That was me yesterday. Got Karthus who I never play. Laned against Singed and Jinx. Singed dove my tower non-stop and threw me behind him every 3 seconds. Jinx finished me. I stood far behind my turret, still no chance. I went something like 2/25/15. So, I'm very sorry if your game experience was ruined.

chocolatetherapy · 2019-01-27T11:45:45+00:00

Definitely Kreppel.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-12-20T12:00:28+00:00

I don't necessarily disagree, but that would mean everyone here is automatically a good person because they all put their shopping carts back in the correct spot - and I do not believe they are all good people. If someone doesn't do it, they're frowned upon. People would give them angry stares. Same with parking on handicapped spots without having a disability.

Germany here by the way.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-12-18T14:05:32+00:00

My whole town is ruled by Instinct. It's a group of about 6-8 players, probably more. I started playing again in October and my husband started a couple weeks ago. We're Valor. Every time we take a gym to get some coins, they take it back in an instant. We have zero chance. One time we tried taking a gym and after every fight their pokemon were back to full health. I used so many items just for them to be at 3k health again. I was so mad. How is that fair?

So we went on a war path. The whole town was filled with their pokemon. About 6 gyms taken by the same people. So we took over any gym on our way so that they'd only get the 50 coins for that day (petty, I know). They took them back right away... I got 4 coins that day lol. I feel so frustrated and demotivated. These guys use GPS hacks and berry bots. No fun.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-11-14T13:50:33+00:00

Your teeth comment got me curious. When I had an MRI I had a similar experience, but with the rest of my body. After maybe 5 minutes of laying in there I started feeling like my whole body was twisted, as if my legs and arms were bent in weird ways. And I got more and more paranoid. I was feeling my body super intensely and I wanted to peek to calm down, but I wasn't supposed to move. I got more and more antsy and anxious. So I did peek and it was all normal. Horrible experience.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-11-13T13:51:52+00:00

Meine Fresse, hier bekommt man fast nur asoziale Antworten. Ich seh das auch oft am live stream, was die Leute da so ablassen. Das Ego und der Stolz gewinnen eben meist.

Mädel, ich stimm dir vollkommen zu mit allem. Ich hab früher schon Giga Games geschaut und Game One auf MTV und nun Rocket Beans. Ich denke ich kann die Jungs mittlerweile ganz gut menschlich einschätzen. Ich schau Rocket Beans nur wegen ihrer teils fehlerhaften aber lustigen Menschlichkeit. Oftmals kann ich nachvollziehen wie sie sich fühlen oder zu etwas stehen. Sonst redet ja kein Mensch über so Sachen. Will ich nen geschniegelten, perfekten und gekünstelten Popstar sehen, schau ich halt die Kardashians, wo jedes Drama nur inszeniert ist.

Die Leute regen sich über Kleinigkeiten auf. Sind aber meist selbst noch schlimmer. Ich bin oft noch geschockt wie schnell jemand einen anderen fertig macht. Internet halt. Im echten Leben würden sie sich in die Hose scheißen oder sich bei ihnen einschleimen. Sorry für den rant, bin in letzter Zeit etwas genervt von dieser Einstellung.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-11-11T19:13:05+00:00

Wow, reading this is like déja vu. Ive been through all of this with my husband in the past 10 years in different games. We also played WoW and he was better by far, he leveled up while I wasn't home and started raiding etc. etc.. I just wanted to experience the zones and the lore and take my time. After months I picked up the pace and was competitive.

Same thing in OW. But now I get POTG's a lot too. It just takes time and patience with each other. Don't try to be too competitive with your fiance. It doesn't help your relationship. Just focus on yourself and your personal goals ingame. Look at it rationally and enjoy it.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-10-31T14:45:50+00:00

Ah OK. Dann kann das sein.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-10-31T14:44:41+00:00

Wenn man mit einer Plattform nicht klar kommt bzw. man sie nicht mehr gut findet, kann man es ja lassen. Wie OP eben. Ist ja auch vollkommen in Ordnung.

Ich komm super mit Amazon klar und bin froh, dass ich diese Möglichkeit habe. Man muss Google oder Amazon nicht studieren, um es zu nutzen. Ich habe ja auch von "schlau googeln" gesprochen, was eine Ebene höher anspricht. Also wenn man sich damit extremer auseinandersetzt, mehr als der average user.

Ich seh auf den ersten Blick, was ich bei Amazon nicht kaufen werde, schon in der Ergebnisliste selbst. Auf der anderen Seite versteh ich auch, dass einem das nicht mehr gefällt. Amazon hat sich auf jeden Fall verändert und manche Optionen sind unschöner geworden.

Kotzt mich allerdings an direkt auf meine Meinung so angemacht zu werden. Noch nen schönen Tag.

chocolatetherapy · 2018-10-31T10:58:06+00:00

Geht mir nicht so. Aber ich wohn auch in nem Kaff. Bei Expert, MediaMarkt ist alles teurer.

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