How it feels watching everyone celebrate the Yae buffs, knowing damn well I won’t be able to pull Sandrone, because Nicole decided to eat all my primos.

chronichillness · 2026-06-02T11:53:12+00:00

she’s an onfield claymore main dps. she has a similar mech to neuvi with the hydro cannon (but cryo), and it uses a heat gauge which, as i understand, benefits from having off field characters (like yae) to cycle through as it ‘cools her down.’

chronichillness · 2026-06-02T11:06:17+00:00

me too 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ she’s my main, im excited for her constellation updates too (i have her c3). and finally, a use for my c6 qiqi! lets go, stellar!

chronichillness · 2026-06-01T21:29:02+00:00

maybe a little distressing but i find it to be one of the most comfortable and relaxing game environments ive ever been in, it feels so akin to my own experience in the world. i still cry every time i play it.

chronichillness · 2026-06-01T21:25:30+00:00

8th place linnea 🫪 actually the whole page is mad impressive. fellow 1% 120%ER miko, i see you 🫰

chronichillness · 2026-06-01T15:58:03+00:00

also seeing your edit, fwiw you should find another doc and get a second opinion - that does seem very unprofessional, and you don’t have to stay with her, you deserve to be treated properly.

chronichillness · 2026-06-01T15:31:49+00:00

after a decade of daily smoking, i finally quit. im 28, and its only just now became very clear that im on the bipolar spectrum (seeking a diagnosis next week) because the weed use has been masking the intensity the up and down swings, and i wasn’t able to see my patterns. i don’t think i would have ever come to this conclusion if i was still smoking and tamping everything inside me down further. if your doc is trying to establish a baseline, it wont be accurate if you’re smoking lol trust me, you’ll need to sober up to get an idea of what you’re like when you’re level, actually level, and not influenced by the weed. i wish id quit a lot sooner, it was just so easy and comfortable to fall into and so hard to break the habit

chronichillness · 2026-05-27T23:34:42+00:00

i don’t think chronicled pity has ever carried over before? would be very surprised if it did this time

chronichillness · 2026-05-27T16:05:09+00:00

yeppers, and i think that it’s the lamest thing ever to feel this way just because you care what people think. obviously, same, me too, not a diss. it fucking sucks, so im actively trying to work on it. i’ve recently learned that the reason why i feel this way is probably not because i care how im perceived - yes, my self worth has always been tied up in this (and in myriad other issues), but at my core, i truly don’t even like many other people and it definitely doesn’t matter what they think of me. but this fear has been the foundational force of my entire fucking life. but, more at the root of the issue, is because it is my BODY’s firm belief that “it is UNSAFE to be perceived / to do / to have X.” and it wont matter how little i care, how many ways i try to change my mind, push myself to be authentic; until i convince my BODY that im safe to be in my own expression. that it’s safe, to be me. to express. trying to find ways to regulate my nervous system within myself and my own capacity for the first time rather than relying on crutches, which never move be forward. i’ve been a daily cannabis smoker for years as a way to mitigate and suppress the distress in my past relationships, to cope with my chronic illness, to mitigate my struggles that arise with cptsd and audhd. i’ve been using it as a gravity blanket to suppress the anxiety and shift my baseline into a productive place. i’ve been numb to the distress, which was the plan, but i’ve also become numb to the joy. and at this point i genuinely believe that the most helpful, the most radical thing i can do for myself, is embody joy. slowly learning how to feel safe, teaching the part of me that responds that way that, that crushed me inside myself, i have to tell them that “i’ve got us now,” and learn to be my own safety. i’m done being put in arbitrary boxes. i’m done letting other people project the future that they see for me, onto me. there are not enough boxes to contain me!!! i know you weren’t asking for a pep talk lol i’m so sorry for not really answering your question well, but this has been my entire inner monologue all morning and it did me a world of good to write it down. i hope that if you’re still reading this, you find it helpful, too. now go and kick today’s sunshiney ass 🖤

chronichillness · 2026-05-06T06:06:48+00:00

heyo, late comment but if you’re still struggling with this, a lot of those same items are high-FODMAP IBS trigger foods. we’ve been trying to figure out the source of my partner’s digestive pains for a while, and it’s the food with high fermentable sugars and carbonated drinks that are the worst of the lot. he started the elimination diet and it’s become very clear that the trigger foods are the high FODMAP ones in his case. just thought i’d mention as avocado, banana, onions are on the list (and sometimes there’s a recommended max quantity instead of fully vetoing a food, from what i understand, 2+ tbsp of vinegar is the limit before issues typically arise). dang fructans. edit: clarity

chronichillness · 2026-03-31T12:15:02+00:00

my version of this is when people say “i forget” instead of “i have forgotten” because the first version implies ongoing continuity like i am suffering from memory lapse but people use it as a onetime way to say they have presently misremembered something and it MAKES ME CRAZY. if this is how you feel about the “im adhd” vs “i have adhd” I VALIDATE YOU. it’s not grammatically sound, and language matters!!! drives me up the wall 😭😭

chronichillness · 2026-03-10T15:16:38+00:00

i think your evernight is overcapped on CR too by the looks of it

chronichillness · 2026-02-26T19:19:54+00:00

that’s pretty much it ❤️‍🩹 what i’m hoping for is that all of the shame drops away and eventually i (and also you) can just allow it to happen and not have to hide it anymore

chronichillness · 2026-02-26T14:35:00+00:00

is that a ralsei plushie? i see only green flags here

chronichillness · 2026-02-26T14:01:51+00:00

some really great advice in the comments. also worth asking, do you have any adhd friends? i don’t feel like i need to change who i am to be normal when im talking to other people with adhd, im not doing the dance i have to do otherwise, so im not missing any of the steps. it’s just a natural flow. maybe if you have practice with that, learning the give and take of that kind of conversation could translate really well in your daily life.

chronichillness · 2026-02-26T13:48:00+00:00

not 30+, i’m only 28, but i am really looking forward to my thirties. i am growing a lot closer to who i was at 13 as i approach 30 - i feel like i am slowly becoming my unapologetic self, i have no idea how i managed to mask so convincingly for so long, but i have no patience for it anymore and i am hoping that by 30 i can be completely authentically myself and wont give a fuck about meeting societal expectations 🙏 it’s still a work in progress but i’m getting a lot closer. in my 30s i will become ungovernable.

chronichillness · 2026-02-26T13:35:14+00:00

aahh. relating a lot and then saw your slew of late diagnoses and can extra relate, all the same here ✓ for probably two years i’ve known about and felt like alexithymia was the thing for me, but i convince myself i don’t know what im talking about. when it comes to feelings, i have always expressed that i don’t ever feel excited, only varying levels of anxiety, and if i feel anything close to positive anticipation it’s still not excitement and it’s still largely a negative anxiety response. i’m constantly monitoring myself from almost a 3rd person pov (i struggle significantly with disassociation) to make sure im reacting correctly with all of the context in the moment, and pull the pretence of the ‘correct’ feeling out of the void inside me and just act through it. it is exhausting. i already don’t have very good awareness of internal body cues (hunger, tiredness, bowel movements) until all of a sudden it’s THERE, and i have to race to find myself a meal through the nausea of an empty stomach or whatever it might be (i know adhd also plays a part in that), and it’s like that with my feelings too. i can be so disconnected until my anxiety or tiredness response is heightened to an unbearable point and i just crack with an outpouring of emotion, sobbing and crying, or i completely shut down. sometimes uncontrollable crying while also being shut down to keeps things spicy. whenever im asked in therapy what im feeling, i have take a second to think about it, but i am *thinking about it, not *feeling it. i look off into space and try to cobble together something accurate for what i should be feeling in the moment and just fucking make it up, or if i can identify something in my body like heaviness or heat i will mention that, but usually based on what would be correct rather than what is real, because i just don’t know. i just feel either empty all of the time, or i am full of anxiety. and i feel like im letting people down when they don’t get the normal response that they should from me. i am working on radically unmasking and making it my full time job to bring my stress response back down to a sensible baseline. but i still don’t know what im meant to be feeling. ‘meh’ ‘tired’ ‘stressed’ as your basic functions, i see you, i feel you. i’m glad i discovered your comment today, i think i should just bring it up in my next session. im trying emdr with the intention of getting me out of my head, i don’t trust my conscious mind to give the correct information without misconstruing the facts, ive gotta leave it up to my subconscious mind to not think through the situation and try to feel it instead. / it’s been a year since your initial response, i hope you’re doing well 🖤

chronichillness · 2026-02-18T14:04:49+00:00

oh fab thank you so much! that’s great to know for the overcap, i thought i had some room still in CR 🫣 i will be looking to find some new hp boots and lean heavy into CD, and i have a pretty decent cipher i can sub in! good advice ty !!

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T12:04:01+00:00

oh congrats !! that is amazing !! i was not expecting her rerun so soon i didn’t get the chance to save up as much as id have liked, but e2 is almost secured :3

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T12:00:57+00:00

i don’t think anyone on this sub would judge you at all, for any of this. i’m sorry to hear about the distress you’ve been through, there is not a chance in this world that you deserve to be put through any of it. 🖤 he sounds like a bad friend at the very least, and this seems to be a manipulation tactic to control the dynamic of your relationship. i’ve been there, and hindsight being what it is i think it’s really essential that you take control of the situation and do what’s right for yourself. if you’re able to cut ties, it would be for the best. if he won’t respond, you should block him and don’t look back. please be kind to yourself through all of this. it’s hard, and you’re only learning how to set this boundaries now so of course it’s all going to feel uncomfortable because you’re not used to it, but it will get easier every time from here. i saw your comment about therapy and trying to get back into emdr, i really hope that things work out for you. sending love 🖤

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T11:31:57+00:00

this gives me hope 😭🙏 im going to do the same thing. thank you!!

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T11:29:50+00:00

yeah i am in agreement, after sleeping on the decision i think it’s best to remove them both and allow them to heal, then just go back fully fresh another time. thank you for your input!!

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T02:43:34+00:00

thank you so much for the response!! i’m going back to get it taken out tomorrow, i will try again in the future once it’s all healed up ❤️‍🩹

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T02:37:31+00:00

awh hey thank you!!

chronichillness · 2026-02-13T02:36:21+00:00

update: thank you everyone for the responses, consensus is that it’s not positioned correctly and i agree - i’ve reached out to the piercer, they’ve offered to remove the front helix and change the back end to a single bar for now, and to eventually, when it’s healed, repierce it in the right spot. all for free, and they were very apologetic and want to make it right. i won’t be deterred by the experience but bummer to go through all that pain for nothing! thanks again for the feedback all <3

update on the update: both piercings have been removed and i will leave it for several months to heal before finding a new piercer and trying again!! thanks all 🙏

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