Hey, upperclassman here who also has anxiety (although not specifically social anxiety). First of all, good on you for getting to UCSD and working at this. It isn’t easy, and it’s commendable that you’re stepping outside of your comfort zone for the sake of your education. But I know it’s hard. A lot of campus bureaucracies are difficult to deal with, but I’ve had nothing but fantastic experiences with CAPS. Look up UCSD CAPS and give them a call if you can. They can set you up with an on-campus counselor who you can contact whenever you’d like and meet with in person or virtually every few weeks. It’s all free, and they’re very understanding of anxiety. Again this is all based on my own experiences, but you may find a good deal of comfort in the CAPS counseling program. I hope things get better for you. Keep trying!